My biggest failure to date is staying at a job where I was
unhappy for too long out of fear of not finding another job if I left.
This fear, which I finally overcame in the last few years, left me
paralyzed, helpless, and miserable. Being freed of this fear, looking
back I find it crazy I allowed myself to be trapped by it for so long.
To be honest, I am still not sure what took me so long or what finally
led me to finally say no, I don’t need to live like this. Maybe it was
the fear of the unknown, I have this in hand right now, what if trade it
in for something that ends up being worse? Maybe it was complacency, I
was mentally comfortable at the job I had, I knew what was expected and
the routine was second nature. What I can remember though, are all the
reasons I was unhappy. When I look back on this and try to put the whys
against the reasons, I am not sure I will ever fully understand why I
waited so long to say no, I deserve to be happy. Maybe that is why the
lesson was so effective. I can say, like the majority of the population
and rollercoasters, once you say yes the first time, it is easy to
continue saying yes. Once I said yes, I never looked back.