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| When I was in high school and my cousin was diagnosed with cancer |
| My 15 big birthday party that was special for my family and I |
| When my boyfriend asked me to be his girlfriend |
| I had an intense fear of death in elementary school. So much so that I had turned to religion (christianity for 5 years) before I decided it wasn't for me and just accepted nothingness after death. |
| I loved and hated my high school experience. I met lots of good people and had great experiences but I also developed a lot of physical and mental health issues. |
| I have experienced chronic migraines as far as I can remember. |
| My first day of Kindergarten, I cried and felt like I was extremely attached to my mom. I didn't want to let go |
| When I was little I always looked forward to my dad coming home and getting to hug him. He worked a lot because we needed money. |
| On my 7th birthday, I cried and I don't remember exactly why but I remember my family comforting me |
| When I was little me and my brothers would play forts, it's such a comforting memory because we were all little kids and that's all we were happy kids. |
| When my oldest brother got surgery on his appendix, it was a sad day |
| Going every Sunday morning to watch my brothers soccer games |
| When I was six, it was a Saturday afternoon and I remember making bracelets with my mom, it's such a heart-whelming memory |
| When I went to the Natural History Museum with my 5th grade class and we were running up this hill and it started raining but we were all just happy to be there |
| Making videos with my little brother around the house and just being funny and laughing is a pure memory I have |
| 2010 Christmas, all my cousins were getting gifts but me and my brothers didn't get any because my dad didn't have enough money for gifts, it was a very sad thing as a kid but I understood my family was poor |
| I was in 8th grade, me and my best friend at the time were going back home and I remember we always laughed and had a good time, I remember this because it was a happy pure memory |
| Last 8th grade field trip to Medieval times, everyone in my 8th grade was super close to everyone and to see it was our last field trip before our lives changed going into high school will always stay with me |
| Crying a lot in front of the bathroom mirror when I was 14 because I felt so insecure about myself |
| When me and my family got evicted from home and we were homeless for months |
| My father giving me and brother a life lecture about not giving up in life no matter how hard things get |
| First day of High School, I felt out of place |
| Meeting my best friends that I made in high school |
| My 15th birthday which was the last day of my freshman year and when I also had my first kiss |
| March 13, 2020; life was never the same |
| The first day I began journalism to deal with my trauma and pain |
| When my grandma passed away, one truly painful memory |
| The first day of senior year, which was the day we came back to campus in person for the first time in over an year |
| Meeting Brandon, who was my first love |
| Brandon breaking my heart, it was my first heartbreak and it felt like my heart literally broke into pieces, one of the most hurting things I experienced |
| Gradnite, one last trip before my life was going to completely change once again |
| Graduation, such a surreal feeling |
| Move in day for college, saying goodbye to my family |
| My first communion |
| Meeting my siblings for the first time |
| Applying for college |
| Going to Vegas for the first time |
| Going to children's court |
| Getting on my first rollercoaster |
| My first kiss |
| High school graduation |
| High school prom |
| Meeting my boyfriend |
| When I lost my first tooth |
| First heartbreak |
| Moving out |
| Adopting a cat |
| My dad going to rehab |
| Eating delicious food |
| Visiting the family graveyard |
| Playing sports with my family |
| Playing video games with my friends |
| Writing short stories |
| Reading manga |
| Watching tv |
| Arguing online |
| My first episodic memory I can remember was when I got in trouble in kindergarten for getting in a fight with another kid. My mom did not hit me but was emotionally disappointed in me which forever changed me as a person in a way where I became more considerate of others. |
| My second episodic memory was when it was my fifth birthday and I had very little consciousness on what was going on, however in that moment I felt the greatest sense of satisfaction of obtaining gifts, cake, and a large gathering of people I knew, knowing it couldn't get any better than this. |
| My third memory happens to be in second grade when my best friend from kindergarten in which I have not seen since then came to visit me in class.This moment might have been the greatest satisfaction of having to see someone for a long time. |
| My fourth memory is the times I spent in 3rd to 5th grade with my best friend who had a disability speaking issue. This moment made me value those who have disabilities even more. |
| My fifth memory was the time I recieved my first pet cat around my middle school years who I still have today, and I appreciate and value her very much. |
| My sixth memory was when I visited my aunt in the hospital who have some sort of heart problem around 2010 I believe. I felt very scared thinking of what would become of her is she wasn't cured. (luckily she was and is doing good today) |
| My seventh memory was when I met my girlfriend in middle school. she has made me a more social person overall. |
| My eighth memory was when I reviewed my first piano as a gift from my father. I was self taught and value my talent to play it today |
| Taking a depression test during a checkup at the doctors. |
| My great grandma passing away. |
| Going to a field trip with my little sister and mom. |
| My trip to Florida. |
| Constantly moving homes during elementary school. |
| Graduating high school, concluded for me that life was about to get serious. I was lost and still am but high school is what made me realize that reality hit and the road ahead of me is going to be hard. |
| Starting college, I'm in a journey to discover who I am. I feel like I don't fit in here at UCR. It has made me feel lonely and depressed, but I am pushing through in hopes of making my parents proud. |
| The death of my grandma, it hit me hard since it was during covid, and I wasn't allowed to see her. Even till this day I have trouble understanding the situation It haunts me and I am trying to overcome it. |
| Spending my whole summer with friends & relying on going out made me value friendship more than before. |
| Growing up having a strong relationship with my grandma & having her care for me has made me more sympathetic to old people. |
| My aunt teaching me how to tie my shoes. |
| Getting lost at Disneyland. |
| Missing my first soccer game to go to Sea World. |
| Reading for the first time as a hobby. |
| Having someone close to me passing away. |
| Learning more about a subject I enjoy. |
| My dad taking me to trips. |
| My aunt talking me to different colleges. |
| My aunt and uncle talking about how I should go to college to earn a degree. |
| My mom telling me to get a better education cause she didn't |
| My grandparents helping me through out my childhood. |
| Me helping out my cousins when they seem they are in trouble. |
| At highschool when I recieved the news about Covid. |
| Getting accepted to colleges. |
| Growing up in the same town and learning so much about others and their situations |
| graduation high school and wannting to further my education. |
| The separation of my parents at a young age |
| meeting new people and figuring out if I like them or not |
| Getting in trouble for hanging out with the worng group. |
| Being bullied for my hair and race |
| Being devalued by my parents for being a drug user (weed), in my teenage years |
| Being peer pressured into fitting in on a regular basis starting in middle school, and ended after I got arrested multiple times in highshcool |
| Getting my High school Diploma |
| My first day of college |
| Going to my first concert |
| Turning 18/becoming an adult |
| Giving CPR to someone |
| My first job |
| going to cousin's house every weekend |
| grandma's house every weekend |
| house getting raided |
| dad and mom divorcing |
| dad picking me up from school everyday |
| going to a predominantly Mexican elementary school |
| 1st period sophomore year of high school |
| going to my favorite english teacher in high school Mr. Perez's classroom during lunch |
| dad crying at the local park |
| watching mom and dad fight growing up |
| walking to dad's house after middle school |
| first dog dying |
| first heartbreak |
| when my father and I stopped speaking to each other |
| getting rejected from dream schools |
| grandma forgetting my name for the first time |
| first car accident |
| getting a brand new car |
| driving to best friend's house everyday in quarantine |
| quarantine walks |
| summer after high school |
| being the youngest of 5 |
| finding out i'm actually the youngest of 6 |
| my stepdad becoming my dad |
| grandma getting alzheimer's |
| dad being on house arrest |
| dad hitting mom for the first time |
| dad's overall abuse |
| getting my first job |
| being independent |
| being involved in softball for more than 6 years |
| I got accepted into all-stars softball after years of playing |
| Deciding that I couldn't play softball anymore because it made me anxious and not fun anymore |
| Freshman year of high school getting a new group of friends |
| March 13th 2020 when the shutdown first began |
| Getting accepted into college |
| Grad night having a fun night with my friends for like the last time |
| Graduation party where I realized that high school was really done |
| My 16th birthday party because it was the last time I really saw all my friends and family before the shutdown |
| When I broke both of my wrists at the same time and couldn't really do anything |
| when my younger sister was born |
| My avid banquet when I got to get my sash and got to spend time with my friends |
| feeling weird around friends because they wanted to drink |
| when the dodgers won the world series during a bad year |
| My 18th birthday going to Disneyland with my family |
| Being placed into my 5th grade ELD class, even when I spoke perfect English, simply because I was Middle Eastern. |
| Learning to use acrylic paint and color pencils to create texture on a canvas at age 14. |
| My mother teaching traditional Egyptian recipes and serving them to my family. |
| moving to the us from korea |
| making a lot of friends in college |
| having supportive parents and siblings |
| Singing in church |
| Moving to the US |
| First Day of Kindergarten |
| Birthday Celebration at my elementary school |
| Moved elementary school's |
| Hanging out with childhood best friends |
| Getting my first period |
| First day of Middle School |
| Becoming choir and band president |
| Going to knott's berry farm with friends |
| Promoting from Middle School |
| First day of high school |
| Met my longtime boyfriend |
| Began dating my boyfriend |
| first kiss |
| losing my virginity |
| worse depression, anxiety of my life, problems at home |
| COVID-19 |
| Being at home with my family |
| Going back to school senior year |
| three year anniversary with my boyfriend |
| was gifted my first car |
| gradnite |
| graduation |
| summer break before college |
| college orientation |
| purchasing my own first car |
| first day of college |
| I found I was good at math |
| I got good grades |
| I did a lot of sports |
| I ate good food |
| I saw one piece |
| I decided to go to ucr |
| I started to procrastinate during covid |
| I am disappointed by the fact I am controlled by my fear. |
| Playing basketball made me realize my potential as a leader and realize that everyone can work together to reach a common goal no matter the differences. It made me view people in a different light, I would tend to judge my teammates based on how I saw them on the outside without getting to know them on a more personal level. |
| Meeting my closest friends gave me another sense of self-realization. In my early high school years I felt as if I was straying away from who I really was and tried to become a ""people pleaser."" When I met my close friends, I felt myself returning to normal. I was in a situation where I felt most comfortable and began learning more about myself. |
| Learning to Skate |
| Moving to Long Beach |
| Moved to a new school (multiple memories) |
| Parents divorcing |
| Watching my first Tarantino film |
| When my parents told me they were getting divorced it felt like my life was over and I thought I would never be happy again, but I am okay now. |
| Taking my drivers test and being so nervous, then at the end pulling into a parking spot and the lady telling me I passed and being filled with relief and excitement. |
| Separated parents |
| Absent father |
| First time meeting my baby brother |
| Visiting Mexico when I was younger |
| Mother always supporting me |
| Reunited both families at my Quince |
| Getting awards for my gpa |
| Being bullied for my skin color |
| I graduated highschool with a high GPA |
| I got accepted into UC Riverside |
| I got my first car |
| Graduating high school |
| My dad becoming a single dad |
| Meeting my boyfriend |
| Play dates with my childhood best friend |
| Going to the beach with my grandma |
| Walking to school with nana |
| Playing with my brother |
| My sister being born |
| starting college |
| Grandma passing away |
| Learning how to cook with my mom |
| Talking about life with my dad while walking my dog at night |
| My first trip by myself |
| Learning how to knit with my grandmother |
| Moving in by myself for the first time; calling my new place ""home"" for the first time instead of calling my parent's house ""home"" |
| My first day at work |
| Starting my first college assignment |
| Getting my first low grade on a college test |
| Discovering grief with my dog passing away |
| Going on my first vacation with my boyfriend |
| growing up in mexico as a full chinese descendant |
| speaking spanish throughout my whole life and people being suprised when they see me |
| moving around several times for elementary from to different countries |
| being bullied for my weight |
| playing family at preschool |
| leading youth group at church |
| piano lessons in 1-2 grade |
| church summer camp |
| fight with friend night before leaving taiwan |
| leaving school early to come to america |
| festival at church at night |
| Christmas performances for church, in taiwan and america |
| summer camp back at taiwan with american youths |
| not great interaction with some classmates first year |
| binge reading starting from 4th grade- read entire harry potter series |
| 1st crush in 4th grade |
| mortifying christmas perfromance in 4th grade |
| promotion in 5th grade |
| psychology class in junior year learning about episodic memory |
| high school graduation |
| hearing covid news, school pausing |
| dealing with younger sister's suicide confession and coming out |
| first day of college at cpp |
| first day moving in apartment after transferring to ucr |
| getting a drive from a friend met in class |
| First time riding my bike without training wheels |
| First time driving a car |
| Losing my first tooth |
| Moving out |
| Moving to California |
| Leaving High School |
| First major breakup |
| Dealing with SA |
| Deciding to go to UCR |
| Being hospitalized |
| Coming out |
| Defending myself in a toxic work environment |
| Taking my first psychology class |
| Realizing what actually happened in my childhood |
| Making the wrong decision with a friend |
| Christmas eve and Christmas day 2017 |
| Having a single mother |
| Being Low income |
| Not have many opportunities as others |
| Life threatening sickness with my stomach |
| Getting in trouble with the authorities |
| getting put into counseling because of my grades |
| being cured, and finally having a painless life again |
| getting out of counseling because of my overall change in academics, and performances. |
| Getting an academic grade in 8th grade because of my grades turning around |
| Entering High School with the thought of a new beginning |
| Joining my first sport Wrestling |
| Graduating High school in the honor role |
| Being accepted into 6 Universities |
| Choosing UCR as my final Decision |
| Completing my first week in UCR |
| Feeding The Homeless |
| Seeing Drug Addicts |
| Visiting The Prison |
| my kindergarten best friend moving away |
| meeting my baby sister |
| the first day of middle school |
| playing at the park with my cousins |
| getting sand dumped in my hair by my cousin at age 4 |
| graduating 8th grade |
| first band camp |
| first band competiton |
| YALE summer camp |
| getting accepted to college |
| covid at the end of senior year |
| moving into dorms |
| moving into an apartment |
| my college friends |
| falling into a fountain at a plaza |
| tearing my acl |
| driving my car for the first time |
| Becoming captain of my high school xc team. |
| Deciding to quit playing soccer. |
| Running my first college xc race. |
| Receiving college acceptance letters. |
| Graduating high school. |
| Receiving most valuable athlete in high school. |
| Being MVP of my high school soccer team. |
| Overcoming mental health issues. |
| Going to a Bad Bunny concert. |
| Painting in my room during covid. |
| Doing an internship over the summer. |
| Passing my drivers test. |
| Moving into my college dorm. |
| Asking a girl who had no friends to hang out with me. |
| Helping my cousin when her dog go sprayed by a skunk. |
| Learning about the gaming community. |
| Moving to the untied stated |
| High school Graduation |
| Getting married |
| First child born |
| Second child born |
| getting a divorce |
| moving to Arizona |
| working at the airport |
| getting remarried |
| having marriage problems |
| birthing my third chid |
| my fourth child |
| my fifth child birth |
| my twins borns |
| my pregnancy with the twins |
| my illness during pregnancy |
| my separation from my husband |
| going back to school |
| covid |
| daughter missing |
| finding my daughter |
| daughter wedding |
| being selected as the commencement speaker |
| giving my commencement speech |
| my acceptance letters to the universities |
| graduating with honors |
| first day UCR |
| working for college Corp |
| filling for a divorce |
| dating after 18 years |
| The time I impaled my arm and got stiches |
| Growing up and hearing stories from my parents of what they had to go through |
| Not being able to see my mom because she worked when I got back from school when in elementary |
| My dad always giving effort to be around us and having fun even though he would get home from long shifts of work |
| My siblings doing random things for fun |
| Many of my relatives passing away at young ages |
| Sitting in the living room crying |
| My parents struggling and working to provide for us |
| My parents separated when I was 3 |
| My great grandpa taught me how to ride a bike |
| I rolled my sister's bike in a cowpie in the rain |
| Hit a granny shot in a basketball game and went to a buffet after |
| Made 3 free throws to win a Varsity basketball game |
| Sneaking into my friends house at night |
| Skating around town at 3 am |
| Attempting self harm 4 years ago and my dad came to my house |
| Sitting outside my ex's house to talk through our problems at 12 am |
| Breaking the window to the laundry room with a tennis ball |
| My brother farted in my sister's face with his pants down when he was 9 |
| My dad would jump on my bed and wake me up when it was my birthday |
| I attended junior college classes with my dad in 1st grade |
| Taking my ex stargazing at 4 am |
| Making my promposal for my ex with my friend |
| I was surprised to realize that some of my friends truly believed in God and that made me question religion twice. However, I still don't believe in God, but now I understand why people do. |
| This girl I liked, I knew she liked someone else, and that completely changed me. |
| After interacting with more and more liberal media, I have found myself shifting more and more towards conservatism. |
| Moving back to the US and also moving from the US were both impactful experiences. |
| When i graduated high school |
| When I watched anime with my siblings when i was younger |
| Eating with my family together and laughing with them |
| When i failed my first class |
| When I first started listening to music with my dad |
| When I first learned to drive |
| When I left Colorado and moved out to California |
| The last month or two of my first year in high school |
| When my little brother was born |
| My first performance |
| My first audition |
| My first acting workshop |
| Getting my first sketchbook |
| My first day of elementary school |
| Bringing my first dog home |
| Bringing my second dog home |
| Learning to drive |
| Learning to ride a bike |
| Moving to college |
| Working as an RBT |
| Training in Boxing |
| Spending time with family |
| Taking the iniative to try new things |
| The death of a close friend |
| Going to anime conventions |
| Going to many concerts |
| Receiving my UCR acceptance letter |
| Traveling to another state and country |
| Signing up on social media |
| Los Alamitos |
| Covid |
| Church |
| San Diego |
| Oxford |
| Moving to America |
| Making Varsity basketball team |
| Getting dinner with family |
| Going early morning lake fishing with my father when I was 9 years old |
| My grandfather reading me ""where the wild things are"" before I went to bed |
| my dad and uncle engaging in an argument due to my uncle being drunk and difficult in front of my grandmother |
| me and my little brother climbing an oak tree in my backyard |
| early morning birdwatching with my brother |
| spending the days surrounding new years with my aunt and cousins |
| visiting an art museum with my parents |
| my 14th birthday party with my grandmother, parents, and siblings |
| playing my first video game |
| taking music classes |
| attending my first concert |
| adapting to my disabilities at a young age |
| countless lectures my parents would give me as a kid |
| school and everything about it, especially throughout elementary |
| competing against other people through sports or academics |
| countless adventures with my good friends |
| 5/6 going to the snow in Tahoe area and then visiting the decorated Christmas houses while staying with my grandparents in Nevada City, Ca. |
| my mom picking me up from Kindergarten on friday and running to the bank to pull out money before my dad used it all at the bar.. |
| Watching my sister play softball |
| visiting my grandfather at 11 in the ICU and him not being responsive. He died and my first funeral |
| My dad beating up my uncle at Christimas time at his moms house.. Having to leave behind my favorite shoes. My grandma, my cousin and myself hiding in the restroom and my dad barging into the door and grabbing me and pushing my grandma down. |
| Feeling my dads car to see if it is warm after playing outside. If it was warm that meant he just got home from the bar. |
| My dad smacking my older sister for not playing well in a softball game. she has 14. |
| My grandfather I was closest too dying- the summer he died he taught me to gut a fish. They lived in the mountains near Tahoe. |
| Leaving the church I was brought up in and attending another church. |
| Playing youth league basketball. |
| hanging out with my neighbors and drinking with them. I was 12, they were 27. |
| spending the summers with my grandma going camping up north. |
| Playing peter pan with my neighbors |
| the girls on my block playing spice girls. |
| My mom having to pick me up from girl scout camp because I had attachment issues. |
| getting picked on severly in middle school eating lunch in nurses office. |
| my uncle dying suddenly. It took a long time for the mortuary to pick him up. |
| my dad became sober when I was in highschool- |
| going to the church where my mom worked-turnedout to be a cult- moved to alabama with their ministry |
| came back and decided to get married to long time best friend(complicated relationship) |
| husband made us go to a new church-i hated it(had to be the submissive wife) |
| my dad started drinking and using pills- shortly after I had my first daughter-which was traumatic pregnancy and birth |
| moving to yet another church I did not like- fundamental- not fitting in |
| husband leaving to Princeton for the summer-left me and my daughter for a couple of months. |
| him graduating undergrad and getting into phd program |
| getting pregnant with my son.-finding out my husband had an affair- he wildin' out- left me and my children when baby was 6 months-financially abused me, emotionally abuse and verbally, psychological abuse |
| husband no longer Christian- he returned home |
| being able to transfer to UCR and getting in |
| When one of the people who were renting one of the rooms in my house started yelling at me at 5:30 in the morning when I was going to swimming class |
| When a cat pooped on my couch and I found out early in the morning before swim practice |
| When my parents got mad at me for breaking a piece of glass |
| Convincing my dad to get me a speed racer novel that I never read, I thought the title looked cool |
| My art teacher giving me a C for an anatomy assignment but giving another kid who drew the head way too big an A |
| Losing my very first swimming race. |
| Diving for the first time and bellyflopping onto the pool |
| Getting my first kiss outside my house |
| First time going to Disneyland |
| First time trying In and Out |
| Getting my first dog |
| Loosing my first dog |
| Becoming a tia |
| Promoting 8th grade |
| My first day of high school |
| My last day of high school |
| Graduating High school |
| Going to Prom |
| Meeting my first friend |
| Learning how to drive |
| Getting License |
| Moving out of my house |
| Moving into my dorm |
| flying in an airplane for the first time |
| going to Mexico for the first time |
| Experiencing a car accident |
| Getting my first car |
| Learning how to do lash extententions |
| my first job |
| becoming a cheerleader |
| getting accepted to UCR |
| going to my first party |
| First time I went to Sri Lanka |
| First time I drove a car |
| Running into a friend I haven't seen in a while |
| Enjoying some unexpected time alone more compared to going out all the time with friends |
| Realizing I've mastered a difficult skill, specifically Algebra which used to be difficult until I put in the practice and effort |
| The death of a loved one- made me value people more and the time I have left with everyone around me |
| Avalanche - natural disaster, made me be more careful around terrain I'm not familiar with |
| Getting appendicitis - made me create more healthy habits, watch what I eat, be more hygienic |
| First time a child hugged me (my baby cousin) - made me feel warm and loved |
| Falling in love for the first time - realizing the extent to how much I could care about someone who wasn't family |
| Getting my heart broken/rejected - realizing how much it hurts, experiencing a different type of sadness, but thankful I'm able to experience that much sadness over a relationship |
| Entering college - scared but also eager after seeing how large the campus was and the workload and amount of learning needed to be successful |
| Going out on solo trips by myself - made me realize I don't need to go out places with friends all the time to enjoy things, can enjoy me time, time alone is therapy |
| First real/best/good friend - made me have a different perspective of life, taught me things I didn't know about myself and the world, shaped my life for the better |
| making varsity waterpolo and tennis |
| learning to ride a bike |
| learning to drive |
| getting into UCR |
| passing all my AP classes |
| my parents arguing |
| my brother and sister in the hospital at the same time |
| my parents separating for a little |
| my sister going in and out of the hospital |
| my sister passing away |
| my first love |
| my sister helping me with everything |
| my dad becoming my friend |
| the feeling of becoming an adult |
| when I got my first car |
| when I got my first job |
| the time I balanced 2 jobs and sports, and school |
| when I re did my room all by myself |
| putting together legos with my family |
| eating dinner talking about our day with my family |
| when we went to disneyworld for make a wish |
| train park |
| stuck in elevator |
| trying ice cream for the first time |
| eating biriyani |
| getting my chin split open |
| getting hit on my head with a guitar |
| watching mostober |
| watching spongebob |
| listening to one direction |
| one direction concert |
| roy woods concert |
| post malone concert |
| hiking in hawaii |
| working at express |
| working at yumi yogurt |
| working at sweet rendezvous |
| going to the city SF |
| riding the cal train |
| going to turkey |
| going on a hot air balloon |
| going to dubai |
| going to pakistan |
| going to italy |
| riding a gondola |
| going to canada |
| watching corpse bride |
| watching titanic for the first time |
| meeting the captain of Pakistan's cricket team |
| visiting family in pakistan |
| going on a rollercoaster for the first time |
| Life is interest for me |
| My life is okay |
| Something happened about 7 years ago |
| commucate with other people |
| listen to my parent when they are talking |
| take to my workmate |
| handout with my friends |
| My sister being born |
| Taking a trip to Thailand |
| Taking a trip to Latvia |
| Taking a trip to Mexico |
| My parents telling me they are getting divorced |
| One on one conversations with my father |
| One on one conversations with my mother |
| One on one conversations with my grandmothers |
| One on one conversations with my grandfathers |
| Standing up for my religious heritage |
| Standing up for my cultural heritage |
| My grandfather passing away |
| Skiing with my father |
| Playing soccer with my friends |
| Playing basketball with my friends |
| Learning from my elementary teachers the importance of treating others the way you want to be treated |
| Having personal conversations with my sister |
| Having personal conversations with my two closest friends |
| Graduating high school |
| Getting made fun of |
| Talking with my father about the principles of being a strong man |
| Talking with my mother about the importance of being selfless |
| Celebrated Chinese Lunar new year with friends in Hong Kong |
| Went to Japan with family for several times |
| Went to Macau in 2020 |
| Participated Leadership program with friends in 2019 |
| Went to kindergarten in Cerrtios |
| Learned piano for 8 years |
| Went to Boracay with family |
| Went to Guam with family twice |
| Went to Philippine with friends twice |
| Took yoga class with friends |
| Went to night markets with friend |
| Took Mexico Cruise when I was little |
| Watched the Phantom of the Opera |
| Went to Time Square twice |
| Visited the Central Park Tower and watched 131st floor view |
| Went to Bali Island with family |
| Wen to a concert with friends |
| Celebrated 18th birthday with friends |
| Lived in Boston University dormitory with friends |
| Visited Harvard and MIT |
| Going to summer camp by myself (11) |
| Flying to US alone (12) |
| Trip to japan with my family |
| Katrina best high school friend |
| Schedule by myself a trip to Orlando |
| First time drive car |
| Try to ride a bike |
| Stay at friends home |
| Having a party at home |
| Skipping class in high school |
| Owning a dog |
| Exercise for a week |
| Went to exo's concert |
| Teach my grandpa how to use cellphone |
| Going to Tokyo Disney with my sister |
| Watching movie ""Smile"" with my friend Irene |
| Celebrate my friend Step's 18 birthday in Boston |
| Take a walk with my grandma |
| Give my mom bouquet in mother's day |
| I have a mask up 18's birthday |
| My high school graduation ceremony |
| Last week of high school |
| Going to New York with three other friends |
| Take train to Boston |
| High school prom |
| Have ear piercing |
| Play snowball |
| Visit MIT and Harvard |
| Moving to California when I was 4 |
| Moving multiple time in California |
| Moving to Germany when I was about 8-9 |
| Moving back to the US at 11 |
| Moving to Arkansas beginning of 9th grade and leaving my best friend |
| traveling around Europe |
| Finding my love for music |
| Meeting my best friend |
| Moving each year of high school |
| final year of high school |
| I found friends that made me become a better person, socially |
| Getting accepted to my top colleges |
| graduating |
| Being a role model to my sister |
| Seeing my brother enlist in the military; making want to do something important with my life |
| Being an older sister throughout my entire life |
| Having a baby sitter until I was in the 8th grade |
| Getting bullied by my own cousin when I was being taken care of by their own mother |
| Starting Taekwondo in 6th grade |
| I remember singing ""This girl is on Fire"" by Alicia Keys in class and two of my fellow classmates complimenting me, then encouraging me to join my 5th grade's talent show. After their encouragement, I sang ""Just Give Me a Reason"" at the 5th grade talent show and my brother posted it on Youtube. This is a very fundamental memory for me because it shaped my continual development as a blossoming singer and made me realize/enjoy the feeling of bringing/entertaining people as a whole at events. |
| Uploading singing/piano covers and originals on youtube from 13-18 was an integral memory that made me realize my top value of emotional expression and open communication. Plus, it taught me perseverance and dedication/commitment as well as to pursue my dreams no matter what people said. |
| Auditioning for my high school's top madrigals choir and getting accepted was the start of my journey as a soprano section leader as well as the choir's top contra soprano to sing descants. It was a time of travel to the Mission Inn's church, Sizzler, Redland's University, and Cal State Fullerton where I sang carols/classical music and admired other choirs in competition. Also, it led me to sing the alma mater for my school's online graduation during Covid. These experiences shaped me as a musician and encouraged me to further hone these skills in college (and beyond if I audition for the Voice). However, it all started from a simple audition into it and acceptance, which I will never forget. |
| On the other hand, getting rejected from auditions (honor choir, solo songs in middle school, and my county's holiday music fair) taught me that it's ok to accept failure and mistakes, then to work on them rather than dwell on it. As a person, it taught me how to accept constructive criticism with grace and how to implement feedback. It also taught me the importance of adaptation to different contexts (sometimes you need to sing classical and other times, pop holiday music. The same could be said about life. Sometimes it's best to do things one way, but other times a new approach is needed). |
| My attendance to my Aunt's church in Riverside where the pastor engaged others' in biblical discussions and cited the importance of particular verses to our lives followed by pop church bands/musicians really changed my perspective on religion. In fact, I haven't been to church since Covid, but I have always told myself that I want to buy a bible from harvest church and go back to find a church that suits me. This is because I realized religion and spirituality doesn't have to be mundane and one dimensional in interpretation/view. It can be engaging an down to earth like real life. |
| I remember in 8th grade I won an MVP award/medal for top grades and performance/personality as a student by my favorite history teacher named miss Brown. Personally, I never really like history (especially 1800s, civil wars, and geography). However, this memory makes me tear up sometimes because I was the last student she gave an award to before she got fired and rumors spread around about her absence (""she became ill and needed surgery,"" etc.). I never knew what happened to her and sometimes I miss the deep life talks I had with her (Ex: how to get involved in high school? Should I join certain clubs or classes if I feel I'm not well-suited for them? What's your best advice for high school and beyond?), but just the thought that a teacher had so much faith and hope in me as a student really influences me today when I experience imposter syndrome as an undergrad. I remember that I still have those basic qualities of a top student (perfect attendance, detailed notes, on time assignments mostly, and always asking questions) and I belong in academia. |
| Relatedly, I remember when my community college English 1B professor gave voice audio feedback on my semester paper to say that I should publish it in the school's journal/research portal because it was that well written. Also, I remember the fact that she literally edited my UCR essays in a couple days by 12 am and that her quote was ""Don't let perfection be the enemy of the good."" The very first part boosted my self-esteem as a writer and even influenced me to seek out research labs now. Also, it's reinforced my dream to possibly write a book and publish it or at least write my original songs for youtube. However, as someone with ADD and major procrastination issues due to heightened anxiety over having everything perfect, her quote has become my moto during tough times now as a student and again, her grading my essays really late made me realize that while we shouldn't override boundaries and be more responsible, you should have the minimum expectation that your faculty and colleagues want you to succeed because you're a good enough scholar/worker/person! |
| I remember my research methods professor in community college would give me internships and career advice during office hours but also during her class at the end of the semester. Also, I remember she said that even after her class, we can always reach out to her. In fact, she was one of the most generous and caring professors I had, but she also taught me that it's ok to ask for advice/help and it's ok to not have the whole future planned out. She taught me that I need to get involved in different opportunities to solidify my true passions. which I'm currently planning to do for next quarter by applying for work study and/or maybe a lab. |
| Tutoring online for the DRC at my community college as well as the workshops required influenced me to become a more diversity accepting person and open minded person to learning from others. Plus, it taught me the power of being able to manage my own work schedule and how freedom in decisions is a huge value of mine in the workplace. Besides that, it's taught me that |
| While I hate my ex now, I remember being first asked out after our choir performances. It taught me how you can connect with someone with similar initial interests and what first love felt like. However, our couple of breakups, the reasons why, and my nights of crying to sleep (sometimes even during work shifts) really taught me what an unhealthy relationship looked like and what values I truly wanted (honesty not out of controlling but out of just respect and that deep friend connection, similar/the same conceptualizations of what cheating is, true inclusivity in shared friend groups (not just tolerance), prioritization in deep conversations (not solely just in giving gifts, physical affection, and dates. I wanted a balance in love languages), healthy work/life boundaries (aka respecting no call times during school/work), and the same future goals (Ex: marriage, no children but pets, etc.) as well as open-mindedness to differing political beliefs. |
| A true memory I really love is when I first meet my now current boyfriend at my local grocery store when he asked if I needed help finding items in the baking aisle. He taught me how true connections can be made even in the most mundane contexts and that life is full of surprises, but also I found someone who has similar values and respects my boundaries. Plus, he's exposed me to different cultural customs since he's italian/german/hispanic and made me realize that the right person will go the extra step not just to surprise you with gifts, but to nurture you in your not so best times and accept you in them. |
| Recently, I hosted a wedding in Redland's citrus grove and a retirement event in the mountains at a farm for my brother's photobooth business. Those experiences grounded me with peace and allowed me to appreciate others' kindness (Ex: food giving, bug spray, etc.). Plus, it gave me perspective and possibilities for the future while also allowing me to gain wisdom from older individuals that have more life experience. Plus, it taught me the importance of taking a break in nature. |
| While chaotic, I remember crying while taking an online midterm last year and how I still passed with an A/B. This taught me how strong/resilient I am as an academic scholar and how I'm able to persevere in the most difficult times through my inner motivating voice/thoughts. It taught me coping mechanisms for how to calm myself down really quick in contexts. |
| Being able to manage writing a research paper for my english class in community college while working 9 days a week (a little over part-time) taught me the power of time confetti and pomodoro, which I still use in my studying. |
| Playing the Wii with my brother's |
| Waking up in the hospital |
| Getting my first straight A's |
| stealing a pencil sharpener in first grade |
| giving a homeless man money after my dad told me not to |
| getting my first job at 16 |
| getting my first car at 16 |
| getting into my first accident at 18 |
| seeing my mom get divorced |
| having my first boyfriend at 16 |
| getting cheated on at 18 |
| feeling bullied by my fifth grade teacher |
| getting bullied by my peers through high school |
| getting an athlete career ruining injury at 18 |
| being in private gymnastics for three years |
| traveling to france |
| traveling to italy |
| COVID-19 |
| being in competitive cheerleading for four years |
| seeing my dad pay for my ice cream almost entirely of pennies |
| becoming cheer captain |
| becoming an older sister to a new baby |
| graduating highest honors |
| seeing my mom struggle with her illnesses |
| having talks with my dad about existence |
| talking to my mom about her death someday |
| arguing with my grandfather on political beliefs |
| visiting my great grandfather with Alzheimers |
| losing my friends in middle school |
| getting bullied in elementary school |
| going to church |
| getting fed by my grandparents |
| being a child actor |
| Disneyland |
| Big bear |
| Family passing away |
| Eating food with friends |
| Dating my first time |
| Holding hands |
| Going to movies |
| Christmas time |
| Biking |
| Sports |
| Going to gym for first time |
| dance |
| highschool |
| Getting Ran over by an ATV |
| Cutting open my foot on bike |
| Moving schools frequently |
| Growing up in an Asian household |
| Being a Army Brat |
| Meeting my dad for the first time |
| Graduating Highschool |
| My 1st best friend in elementary school threatened to choke me out in 6th grade. |
| I stood up for myself by cutting contact with a very needy but emotionally unavailable friend in eighth grade. |
| I tried to overdose on Acetaminophen medication that I stole from a Big Lots on May 6, 2019. |
| I was sent to a psychiatric ward on December 3, 2018 because of self-harming concerns. |
| My ex-girlfriend, whom I was best friends with for two years prior to dating, completely stopped talking to me after a month and I never heard from them again for another two years. |
| I figured out that my ex-boyfriend never cared about me and was only using me for his own personal agenda. |
| In 3rd grade, I came home to my mom crying about being bullied and hated by all the kids at school. She didn't believe me. |
| My two older brothers would constantly tell me that I was annoying and sometimes would tell me to shut up. |
| One day in sixth grade, I became so overwhelmed that I started crying during P.E. and continued crying for another 45 minutes until I went back home. |
| I was forced to leave my old high school because all the people that I was friends with stopped talking to me. |
| Getting to see Harry Styles in concert, he told me thank you for bringing him flowers, this is a core memory for me one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Being able to look up to someone for 12 years and counting and getting that interaction with them. |
| My dad going to jail during my sophomore year of high school and me having to balance everything alone at home |
| My grandpa passing away while I was in 6th grade, I heard it from my friend at school about his passing since she overheard my mom and teacher on the phone. experienced loss young and had to find out from someone else |
| My boyfriend of two years cheating on me and me finding out on my own |
| Moving out of my parents house because my mom is controlling |
| Getting my first job and being promoted to manager, felt like someone finally believed me |
| The day I failed my arc class |
| The day I met my girlfriend |
| The day of graduation |
| The day my mom stopped working |
| The day my brother passed |
| My parents not being around as much growing up because they had to work most of the time. |
| The day that I got baptized |
| The day that my brother got arrested |
| When I lost my closest uncle to cancer |
| The day that I got cramps in both of my legs at a soccer game |
| The day I graduated for high school |
| When my family got really sick with covid |
| Joined high school football |
| Convinced parents to let me go to public high school |
| Committed to UCR |
| Moving day at UCR |
| Moved homes at 11 years old |
| Learning how to get better at a game |
| My first sleepover with my friend |
| Getting my first laptop |
| Playing with my friends |
| Learning how to use the internet |
| Feeding ducks at the park |
| Piano and swimming classes |
| Getting my first straight A's |
| Getting into college |
| Creating a friend group that still holds strong |
| Maintaining long term friendships |
| My first girlfriend |
| When I was in high school and I had a couple of friends who treated me badly. they never thought of me as a friend, rather used me instead. I later learned that some people don't care about relationships and just do things that benefit themselves. |
| When I was around 10 years old, I got hurt by running into a wall. My family and cousins saw this and tried to help me as best they could. I then understood that people really do care about me and that I should also be like this toward my friends and family too. I learned to not be selfish. |
| In high school, people didn't take relationships very seriously. They would just do what they wanted regardless of what others thought was right or wrong. When I moved in for college, I met so many new people who were the opposite and cared about each other. I learned that all relationships were important. |
| Watching my family vote republican every 4 years |
| Getting my first F on an assignment |
| Getting in trouble for things that my brother had done, or being punished because I did not keep him out of trouble |
| Being forced to share my 12th birthday with my little cousin who's birthday was a month prior |
| realizing that my grandma favors my brother over me |
| having my first kiss at 13 |
| My Mexican ""best friend"" telling me I was racist if I tried to stop her from claiming herself as Asian |
| Starting a small house fire doing a biology project with my dad at 4am |
| My mom allowing me to have my first real boyfriend |
| Bringing my boyfriend home to meet my family |
| Having to meet my boyfriends family but they didn't like me because of how quiet I was |
| Sticking up for myself when my friend demanded an unjust apology from me |
| Having to protect my younger siblings alone from an 8.4 Earthquake |
| Cutting all my hair off |
| moving into college and having to meet new friends |
| Having to go through my first break up alone |
| Only having myself when my best friends broke up with me for a few months |
| Getting to have my first sleepover with my boyfriend |
| Having to stand up for my brother when he was getting bullied |
| Getting into the top 40 academically my junior year of highschool |
| Realizing I was not getting into the top 40 my senior year of high school, which destroyed me |
| moving from AP calculus to statistics to avoid my mother being angry at me when I came home |
| My older cousins who I looked up to very much telling me that I was annoying |
| Being told that I was ugly by all of my middle school crush's friends |
| winning a prize in a giveaway and my two ""best friends"" took the prize and didn't invite me over to use it with them |
| confiding to my mom about my mental health for the first time in my life |
| My mother telling me that I would be a good mother |
| crashing my brothers car on the way to my drivers test |
| Getting to be in the pit of a concert |
| My dad taking me to starbucks early one morning before school |
| Violin Practice |
| Hollywood Bowl Performance |
| Walt Disney Concert Hall |
| Playing kickball |
| Falling in mud in second grade |
| Family fallout |
| Hoola Hooping with friends |
| Money Bar competitions |
| Cheerleading Practice |
| Gymnastic Practice |
| My first phone |
| Cleaning on Saturdays |
| Starting basketball at a young age |
| Going to high school |
| Going to college |
| My experience as a competitive chess player is significant to who I am. A distinct memory I have is of winning the CA Kindergarten State Championship and running towards my coach right after. As competitive player I spent countless weekends playing tournaments over the years and being part of the chess community shaped how I think and how I interact with others. |
| My experience as basketball player throughout high school is significant to who I am. I specifically remember a game I made 5 threes in and I remember everything I felt that day as I could see the hours I had put into the courts pay off. The intense multi-hour long conditionings and long tumultuous seasons helped expose me the importance of perservance and grit as well as leadership qualities. |
| My father teaching me how to ride a bike with my sister and other cousins |
| My father teaching me how to shoot a basketball |
| Helping my father with cleaning the house |
| Playing through the campaign of Halo 3 with my cousins when I first got my Xbox 360 |
| Competing in my first Super Smash Bros. Melee (fighting video game) tournament and getting completely destroyed in my bracket |
| Entering my first relationship |
| Experiencing my first break up |
| Losing my virginity |
| Moving in with my current significant other |
| Entering my first job |
| Quitting my first job |
| The time my best friend sexually harassed my current girlfriend behind my back |
| The first time I got high on marijuana and getting really paranoid |
| Withdrawing from UCLA |
| Graduating from LACC |
| Taking magic mushrooms for my first and only time |
| Protecting my mother from my verbally abusing father and nearly physically fighting my father |
| Having my heart sink when I received the text that my mother has breast cancer |
| Feeling relieved when I got the news that my mother beat her cancer |
| Being nominated student body vice-president in high school |
| Reaching ""Supreme"" (one of the highest ranks) in Counter Strike: Global Offensive |
| Playing minecraft for the first time and falling in love with the game so much and then getting addicted to it |
| Having a serious fall down the stairs and dislocating my right shoulder and permanently injuring my rotator cuffs |
| Realizing that the people I play games with depend on me to be the leader |
| My mother telling me ""my son is so smart"" for the first time as an adult |
| My father berating me about how much of a failure I am |
| Feeling hopeless when my girlfriend's family constantly bully her |
| Getting high with my cousins during Christmas and having one the best laughs I've ever had |
| Living in my dorm at UCLA |
| Being homeless for a night and sleeping in my car in a really sketchy area |
| dating my first girlfriend |
| getting my drivers license |
| getting my first car |
| traveling in Hong Kong |
| playing videogames with my sister |
| Jumping off the bed and getting a bruised eye |
| Climbing up a high playground and learning how to get off |
| Parents showing me videos of the consequences of crossing the road when the light is red |
| Breaking up |
| Standing up for my friends |
| Lying |
| Getting a bad grade |
| Studying for a test because I wanted to do well |
| Winning championships in a basketball game |
| Team building exercises with friends during camp |
| Out of country school trips |
| Service activities for the less-developed |
| Passing of a close family |
| Fighting with my younger brother |
| Getting into college |
| Experiencing a mental breakdown |
| Performing in front of a crowd |
| Interacting with locals from a different country |
| Being left out by a friend group |
| Learning multiple languages when I was young |
| Getting my first phone |
| Joining a basketball team outside of school |
| Getting yelled at by the coach during a game |
| Losing a basketball game |
| Resolving a conflict |
| Being told by my friends that I'm a good listener and give good advice |
| Using communication to resolve an issue instead of abandoning it |
| Getting yelled at by my parents |
| Finding out other people talk bad behind my back |
| Bowing to people |
| Tomb-Sweeping Day (Qing Ming festival) in 2010 |
| Travel to Malaysia |
| Attending my teacher's wedding as bridesmaid |
| Being bullied in school |
| Knowing that I'm going have younger siblings |
| Graduation from highschool |
| The first time I kissed a female |
| The first time I had a breakdown |
| Getting my licence a week after getting my permit |
| Having a boxing match with a friend for fun before he left for college. |
| Making new friends after highschool. |
| Finishing highschool |
| Going to grad night |
| Meeting Ate Emilyn |
| Meeting Abril |
| Seeing Xio talk |
| Helping Ashley with her anxiety |
| My first kiss |
| First time working with Angelica |
| Learning I was laid off due to covid |
| High school graduation |
| Bella's Sweet 16 |
| My friends' intervention |
| Quitting my first job |
| Grad Nite at California Adventure |
| My junior year final project |
| My first oral surgery |
| Preventing my sister's suicide attempt |
| My first Bible Studies teaching |
| Performing at the Performing Arts Club |
| Senior Prom |
| My first day of high school |
| My sister being diagnosed with leukemia |
| My cousin being diagnosed with leukemia |
| Picking up Sonia after her car accident |
| My first therapy session |
| Buying my first car |
| Getting my driver's license |
| Teaching Dunckel how to drive |
| My first chess game against my uncle |
| Meeting Jasmine |
| Learning to ride a bike |
| Buying my ukulele |
| Being an executive on my high school ASB board |
| leading my cheer team |
| Pep commissioner |
| Working in retail |
| Working in restaurant |
| Raising a puppy |
| Maintaining relationships |
| Being vulnerable with my boyfriend |
| Traveling the world |
| meeting my childhood best friend in kindergarten |
| learning to drive for the first time |
| graduating highschool |
| When I first started playing volleyball |
| Getting in my first car accident |
| Learning how to play piano |
| Transferring colleges to play volleyball again |
| Graduating High School |
| Getting a cat as my first pet |
| travel |
| weddings |
| mandir |
| I moved schools abruptly and didn't get to say bye to my elementary friends. I was put into a new school where I only knew one person. |
| I chose to go to a public high school rather than a college high school where I can get college credits starting my freshman year. |
| I had my conformation and could then become a special minister of my church. |
| I had many crushes, some which liked me back but I was never mentally ready so I never truly experienced proper dating |
| I didn't want to see my sick uncle in the hospital. He later died and I regretted not seeing him. |
| I joined the football team where I met close friends. |
| I felt horrible depression in my begging of the college years and was close to attempting suicide |
| I was emitted into one of my top choices for university. |
| I met one of my childhood best friends at my birthday in my early years |
| I got my first car at 19 and I felt accomplished |
| Contemplating Suicide |
| Meeting the Love of My Life |
| Healing from Childhood Trauma |
| Learning how to love Myself |
| Learning how to Grow as A Person |
| Meeting my partner |
| Visiting Japan every year |
| Getting a girlfriend helped me understand being mindful and meeting people's needs. |
| Social media has allowed me to understand how quick people jump to conclusions and behaviors with trends and bandwagons. |
| Separating from friends for college made me realize how quick people are to distance themselves from you and how they value you. |
| First time trying vape got me to compare this idea of addiction with other people. |
| College admissions made me feel like a failure and realize that there is a fallacy in this so-called holistic process and that many run by luck. |
| Downloading TikTok allowed me to see the wicked community of youth and how gullible people are. |
| Watching these YouTube videos where casual racist remarks are made became an influence to viewers to tolerate racism more. |
| Showing up late to my first class (Ceramics) in high school everyday made me realize that I shouldn't feel guilty and how the teacher thinks but rather consider where I value my personal decisions. |
| Giving personal life information for school staff struck the revelation that most people do not care about your personal life but rather that this is their line of work and they are more committed to their task over their moral compass. |
| Receiving my one of few gifts ever received from a school therapist gave insight that some people do see little value of me. |
| When I shaved my hair from stress buildup struck a bit of regret but also a strong understanding that ADHD is no laughingstock. |
| Getting bad results/criticism from essay made me realize that not anybody sees things the way you do and that what you understand isn't reflective of what they think. |
| When one of my English teachers told me I deserve a C and he doesn't care about of my personal issues for missing a day of class made me think that some people even adults need behavior and mindfulness discipline |
| When I witnessed one of my friends shoplifting and discovered that loads of classmates also exploited these opportunities. |
| My sessions with my therapist and my hard-headed side that is incapable of change in beliefs, helped understand that therapy is dependent on the patient. People only change when they want to and/or is open to change. Therapy isn't a magic remedy, it is more of emotional regulation. |
| When my parents called me failure for college rejections even though I highly believed that my grades weren't the attribute of my rejection even from my safety schools. This moment caused me to realize how stubborn parents can't be and that they are adamant on what they believe. People tend to focus on the errors than the successes. |
| When I lashed out at my mom trying to scold me because I seemed like I wasn't committed to my homework. It became a sentimental moment as she started tearing up but enlightened me that I should stop being so lenient. |
| During the middle stages of depression, I was trying to elucidate that my lack of attendance and laziness was because of poor mental health but she refused to acknowledge anything I said. This was when I came to concur with the statement that Asian people lack understanding of mental health. |
| When my parents kept yelling at me and making snarky remarks at me for missing days of school, defaming me in front of their relatives and stating that they're convinced I won't graduate every week. Even though it was clear the records indicated that I had a cumulative gpa of 4.0, I was neglected. This event made me understand that I should start caring about what my true objective is. |
| When my aunts tried to humiliate me by comparing my experience with their child's achievements, while trying to exploit me for opportunities and connections for their younger child. Although I remained reserved, I was adamant on redeeming myself and held goals to soon show that I can demonstrate higher academic achievements for the sake of my pride. Even though it doesn't seem to be the righteous decision, I'm keen on redeeming myself. |
| Went to ski with my friend |
| play video game with my friend |
| first time came to U.S |
| Very few words to unfamiliar people |
| My relationship with God shapes my identity |
| Found purpose in my life after being saved by God, going through trials that tested my faith |
| My first job when I was in a lot of overwhelming situations, keeping a very optimistic view |
| Death of Grandparent |
| Having to give away childhood dog |
| Learning to drive |
| First piano recital |
| First time traveling alone to another country |
| Moving away for college |
| First fight at school |
| Breaking my pinkie finger |
| Moving to a new house |
| Running a shop with my Grandparents |
| I was considered about why we born in this world when I was a children. |
| I was considered about other stars has live people or not when I was a primary school student. |
| I want to know how to evaluate a good person when I was did one thing broken. |
| First heartbreak |
| Deciding to go to a festival the day of |
| Failing a class freshmen year |
| Living away from my parents |
| Hanging out with friends outside of school for the first time |
| Getting my drivers license |
| My parents divorce |
| Taking care of my siblings at a young age |
| Getting accepted into college |
| Fighting with my friends |
| Going to my first concert |
| Yelling at my mom during a fight |
| Crying to my mom |
| Crying to my dad |
| Feeling lost during my break up |
| Overcoming my fear of driving |
| Online school during Covid-19 |
| Standing up for myself when no one else would |
| Starting and ending taekwondo |
| Getting back with my ex |
| Getting advice from my mom |
| Seeing my mom cry |
| Going to the gym for the first time |
| Slow dancing for the first time |
| Crying at my moms wedding |
| Partying for the first time |
| Making new friends in college |
| My baby sister being born |
| Seeing my friends go through bad experiences |
| Going to Seattle |
| When I was with my childhood friend watching fireworks |
| Eating food with my uncle who later passed away |
| Going to the beach with friends |
| Traveling to Hawaii |
| Being able to perform in my dance team for more than 6 years |
| Preparing for my Sweet sixteen birthday, which ended up being very extravagent and I thank my parents and family members for all the work they put in |
| Seeing my mom work so hard night and day- kitchen to computer desk...along with my dad taking up the challenge when she got sick to be the best father |
| Family trips-- road trips with cousins and aunts/uncles |
| Great times with my beautiful grandma and grandpa when I was young |
| Childhood-dressing up for Halloween every year and performing at my cousin's wedding |
| My brother and I throwing surprise party for my parents anniversary... and another one for their birthdays |
| W/my best childhood friend: Dulani -- call each other ""sisters"" tdy |
| Travelling to Scotland |
| Getting accepted to 7 colleges |
| Learning to drive |
| Learning to fish |
| Getting suspended from school in elementary |
| Joining theater |
| Playing baseball up until my junior year |
| My first adult beverage |
| My first romantic relationship |
| Receiving my first scholarship |
| Moving to Texas for a period of time |
| Fracturing my spine |
| Falling in love |
| Learning to skate |
| Moving to four different houses in a single year |
| My parents moving away |
| Losing a parent |
| First time dealing with failure |
| Winning my first race |
| My first promotion |
| My first job |
| Losing my first friend |
| Dad moving to Qatar for 2 years |
| First ticket |
| First apartment |
| Living on my own |
| Finding YouTube channels I love |
| Discovering webtoons |
| Important conversations with my mom |
| Getting into college |
| Winning competitions in kendo and kendama |
| Quarantine |
| Drama with friend groups |
| Meeting and getting to know people in my band |
| Band concerts |
| Flunking my first concert |
| First feeling of improvement in things I cared about |
| Going to Korea for the first time |
| Travelling to Europe for a band trip |
| Travelling on my own for the first time |
| Living on my own for the first time |
| Growing up with only one parent in the household |
| growing up poor |
| being raised by my teenage sisters |
| Being in a private school until 5th |
| Moving to public school in 5th grade |
| Becoming best friends with a girl who I mutually disliked |
| Making new friends in 7th grade |
| My 7th grade and 8th grade friend group breaking up |
| Disliking learning Indian classical dance for 12 years but liking it after I quit, so I started learning again |
| Playing video games with new friends |
| Rejecting a guy I liked |
| My best friend moving to Oregon |
| Getting rejected from my dream college |
| Meeting my roommate and college friends |
| Partying with my friends |
| Going home for the first time in 2-3 months after college started |
| Moving out of my childhood home |
| My best friend almost dying in an accident |
| Getting into high school drama which ruined some friendships, becoming one of my #1 regrets |
| Playing minecraft |
| Making my first song and having my parents react to that |
| Byhearting my piano recital song in less than 2 weeks |
| My first piano teacher quitting from the school |
| Getting into a big fight with my brother |
| A girl in 5th grade commenting on my physical appearance |
| Being a 5'11 girl |
| Being Indian |
| getting robbed |
| getting phone stolen |
| family member passing away |
| working hard everyday |
| traveling as a child |
| traveling as a teen |
| my niece being born |
| cousins visiting from Minnesota |
| being nominated for a conference |
| going to the park as a child with my grandma |
| cheerleading growing up |
| going to church on Christmas |
| Christmas as a child |
| going to panaderias with my grandma |
| going to work with my dad |
| shopping at the mall every Friday with my mom |
| going to Vegas with my family every weekend |
| the Santa Monica pair as a child |
| my aunt visiting from Colorado |
| Meeting my High School friends for the first time |
| Moving to California |
| playing basketball every day after school |
| Getting into beef to protect my friend |
| taking the subway to and from school every day before I moved |
| hanging out with my now ex-girlfriend for the first time |
| my first day in my new school after I moved |
| Hanging out in NYC with my friends every day before I moved |
| my first dog dying |
| going to disneyland for the first time |
| working at my second job |
| working at my first job |
| moving into college |
| being stuck in my room everyday after I moved for a year and a half |
| playing basketball with strangers every week |
| going to every star wars and comic book movie on opening day with my dad |
| going to basketball games with my dad |
| hearing certain songs while in specific places that match the mood of the song well |
| going to Romania every summer with my mom |
| visiting NYC after i moved |
| playing video games with my friends every weekend |
| my first time hanging out with some of my high school friends |
| breaking up with my now ex-girlfriend |
| driving my friends around for the first time |
| going to comic con with my dad |
| building LEGO sets |
| sitting alone every day in school after I moved |
| walking through the halls and greeting almost everyone in my grade before I moved |
| going to the deli for lunch every day in middle school |
| playing for my middle school basketball team |
| going to mexico and visiting my parents rural homes |
| helping my dad work to make money |
| having to emotionally support my mom |
| Deceased mother |
| Deceased sister |
| Move-in Day for college |
| Traveling to the US from the Philippines |
| Crashing my plane into my sibling's plane in a particular Wii game |
| Being informally knighted when I graduated kindergarten |
| Patting my current cat on the head for the first time after about four months of feeding her |
| My current cat sleeping in my lap for the first time |
| Reading the first chapter of Warrior Cats Into the Wild |
| Eating snow crab at a restaurant for my father's birthday |
| A coyote watched me walk around |
| I helped my father hop a fence |
| Writing 6 pages of a story in an hour on my mother's laptop |
| Waking up at 7:00 am on a weekend to play a computer game |
| Walking up a long series of stairs in a very windy place to get to ruins at the top of a hill |
| Being followed by a pack of street dogs on a vacation |
| Watching Howl's Moving Castle with my mother several days in a row |
| Getting two cinnamon rolls instead of the one that me and my sibling ordered at a Corner Bakery |
| lost at legoland |
| playing basketball in middle school |
| playing basketball in league |
| Brother coaches me in basketball |
| freshmen year in high school |
| freshmen crush |
| making friends |
| break up #1 |
| making new friends |
| relationship |
| negatives of relationship |
| break up #2 |
| making new friends |
| going to Disneyland |
| auditioning for choir |
| going to Vegas |
| choir concerts |
| choir banquet |
| beach with friends |
| 626 with friends |
| 18 birthday |
| moving to college |
| mall with friends |
| gifts for friends |
| halloween with friends |
| photoshoot with friends |
| telling my friends I love them |
| being homesick at college |
| working at snowy village |
| first paycheck |
| losing my best friend |
| coming to college for soccer |
| almost losing my brother in an accident |
| getting my first job |
| moving to a different team |
| going to Tennessee with my team |
| getting my first phone |
| driving my. car for the first time |
| getting my license |
| getting my dog |
| getting a job at del taco |
| getting in my first car crash |
| my signing day |
| going to high school for the first time |
| graduating from 8th grade |
| graduating from high school |
| getting close to my cousins |
| when my grandpa died |
| when went to cancun |
| meeting my new teammates |
| going to the white house |
| seeing snow fall for the first time |
| going to my new church |
| going on a plane for the first time |
| my first college party |
| my 18th birthday party |
| getting social media |
| my first boyfriend |
| going on my first cruise |
| finding my first real best friend |
| moving to the USA |
| starting school |
| financial struggles |
| Making my first basketball shot |
| Losing my virginity |
| Pledging for a coed fraternity |
| Friend tried to kill themself |
| Starting college |
| First love |
| Visiting Korea |
| Visiting Philippines |
| Renting a theatre with my friends |
| As a kid, I was extremely oblivious to the skin condition I had which was eczema. However, I eventually noticed the pity looks I would receive at events. This was a crucial moment for me because I realized that I wasn’t necessarily “normal.” |
| In elementary school, I liked a boy who I later found out didn’t like me back. My friend asked him what he thought of me, but all he saw me as was “the girl with the ugly skin,” which definitely damaged my perception of myself growing up. |
| Realizing that my dad was an alcoholic. |
| I was with my mom, aunt, and older sister when we got into a freeway accident on the way home. My life literally flashed between my eyes. |
| In high school, I took a class called Transpersonal Psychology. In the class, we did an activity called the Truth Process where we would go around in a circle as a class and share things we wouldn’t normally share. I shared a series of events that filled me with guilt, ultimately reflecting and concluding that I am not my mistakes. It helped with my self growth. |
| Taking ‘Transpersonal Psychology’ in high school, which definitely helped with my perception of myself and self growth. |
| My older brother being diagnosed with schizophrenia. |
| Gradnite during senior year. |
| Celebrating my graduation and realizing how proud people were of me. |
| Going on my very first date. We ate bingsoo, watched “Top Gun”, went on a hike while watching the sun set, and talked for hours. |
| Experiencing my very first heartbreak. |
| Going camping with my family as I deal and process my heartbreak. |
| Realizing I ultimately chose my college for reasons that weren’t necessarily good reasons (but now, I do not regret it!) |
| Hanging out with my best friends before we all leave for college. |
| Celebrating my best friends birthday. |
| Moving into my dorm, with the help of my family. |
| Saying goodbye to the Bay Area and my family. |
| Going to my very first college party with my newly made college friends. |
| Having to pay part of my tuition in order to register for classes. |
| Finding out I was low income as a child |
| Not having running water for a week because we couldn't afford to pay the water bill. |
| Getting rejected from most UCs |
| Getting accepted to UCR |
| Stuck in the slide with best friend |
| Ice skating with my brownie group |
| Moving to Lafayette |
| First day of waterpolo |
| Diagnosis with epilepsy |
| First time driving |
| Moving in to college |
| 18th birthday |
| Shikoku Pilgrimage in Japan |
| First Time Cooking/Watching Cooking Shows |
| Going to Singapore |
| Graduating High School |
| Playing Video Games with Friends |
| Trip to Hawaii |
| Trip to Jamaica for my birthday |
| Going to Arizona for a baseball tournament |
| Going to Las Vegas for a baseball tournament |
| Watching my great aunt pass in the hospital |
| Getting into college |
| My dad's bone marrow transplant |
| My best friend dropping me for his girlfriend |
| Getting into a sorority |
| Becoming the VP Finance |
| I remember running into a wall and scaring my forehead, and now I have a permanent scar. |
| I remember the day and pain from losing my grandfather. |
| I remember the day I got accepted into universities. |
| I also remember the day I was rejected from my dream schools. |
| I remember my first break up. |
| I remember the day my aunt was hospitalized. |
| I remember winning the CIF championship for our tennis team. |
| I remember graduating alongside all my friends. |
| singing in preschool |
| learning to play the cello |
| crashing my bicycle when riding |
| being afraid to speak up back in elementary school |
| creating an original song |
| being left alone in middle school |
| performances |
| My brother being born |
| making friends in elementary school |
| struggling to fit in during middle school |
| parents having issues with each other |
| struggling with situational depression and anxiety during my freshman year of high school |
| being put on medication for the depression and anxiety that I didn't need |
| my friends really helping me through my struggles |
| being taken off of medication |
| reconnecting with my old elementary school friends |
| being sexually assulted |
| having a really strong group I could talk to about anything |
| starting therapy again after a year of not going |
| being in my first relationship |
| having a falling out with many of my close friends due to this new relationship |
| having to eat alone during lunch senior year of high school |
| being in the lowest place mentally even though I had ""everything i ever wanted"" |
| breaking up with my boyfriend |
| severe dissasociation |
| self destructive behavior due to the pain of the breakup |
| finally healing and moving on |
| starting a new relationship and learning my worth as a person |
| starting college |
| making new friends in this new environment |
| learning how to balance school and a social life |
| Being captain of my high school dance team |
| Seeing my parents at every single dance competition since 8 years old |
| Watching/listening to my brother get yelled at by my parents and standing up for him |
| Hearing about my brothers suicidal thoughts |
| Fighting with my parents |
| Moving into college |
| Losing my best friend senior year |
| Teaching dance classes |
| Spending time with myself during quarantine |
| My first boyfriend |
| My middle school friend group and their negative influence on me |
| Attending church all my life, still being pushed to go to church when I was older and didn't want to attend anymore |
| Not being active in my religious beliefs for almost two years during quarantine |
| My mom providing everything for my family and always being there for us |
| Watching my brother be sad on Christmas my sophomore year |
| Going to lake tahoe or mammoth every winter every since elementary school |
| Getting made fun of my asian lunch in elementary school |
| Wanting white friends in middle school |
| Working my first job at an all you can eat sushi restaraunt |
| Family coming over for the holidays |
| My senior year friend group |
| Prioritizing dance over school |
| Watching my friends do long distance |
| Always having to be aware and alert of men's intentions |
| Not feeling safe walking around at night alone |
| Playing video games for the first time |
| Getting a dog |
| Finishing first on a test and getting a 100 |
| Being lost for the first time |
| Getting rejected |
| Getting into ucr |
| The death of my grandparents |
| Win the election and be the president of high school student council. |
| First time saw my father cry. |
| First time went to the boarding school and live by myself. |
| First time cook for my family. |
| First time travel to another region in my country by myself. |
| First time travel to another country by myself. |
| Spending time talk with my family about my major in the University. |
| Trying to install furnitures by myself in another country. |
| Being the captain of my high school volleyball team. |
| My 6th birthday with my dad at church |
| Getting my first puppy at age 8 |
| Throwing up while watching the movie Shark Tales |
| Playing with Webkinz at a sleepover with my best friend |
| Visiting my father in the hospital when he had cancer |
| Going to my father's funeral |
| Visiting my family at Texas at age 11 |
| Visiting Hawaii at age 11 |
| Indoor skydiving and also real skydiving! |
| Snorkeling with my grandma and almost drowned |
| My 21st birthday party at my house |
| My first allergic reaction while eating shrimp tempura |
| Stepping on a wasp while running outside |
| ucr student |
| only daughter |
| buying new car |
| playing with my neighbors and my childhood best friend |
| moving away from my childhood home in 2nd grade |
| my father's death |
| moving to another school again in 3rd grade |
| getting hurt by my church and finally leaving |
| meeting my best friend |
| my first kiss |
| losing my grandparents |
| moving out for college |
| how hard senior year was |
| the day we got my cat |
| my mother's stroke |
| opening college admission decisions at work |
| my first heartbreak |
| Moving to Mexico for 3 years |
| Attending school in Mexico |
| Moving to the USA |
| Attending school in the USA |
| Going to Disneyland for the first time |
| Graduating high school |
| Seeing relatives in the USA |
| Visiting central Mexico |
| Learning how to drive |
| Going to high school homecoming |
| Learning English for the first time |
| Seeing my grandparents for the first time |
| Going to university |
| shopping with friend |
| fathers death |
| going to mexico |
| first kiss |
| falling in love |
| meeting new friend |
| my new job |
| getting accepted into college |
| moving out |
| going to spain |
| learning to drive |
| getting my license |
| having a party |
| meeting my bestfriend |
| doing good on a test |
| getting asked out to prom |
| homecoming dance |
| graduation |
| track team |
| running varsity |
| baby brother coming |
| me meeting a celebrity |
| losing 50 pounds |
| my first car |
| trip to dubai |
| joining soccer |
| living in spain |
| winning $100 |
| trying a hamburger in spain |
| my first phone |
| first trip to disneyland |
| first trip to sixflags |
| first gym visit |
| first kiss |
| first time getting a dog |
| 5th christmas |
| first dance |
| first crush |
| when friends car broke down |
| parents divorce |
| when i stopped talking to my dad |
| when my friend died |
| when i got my license |
| when i graduated from highschool |
| when i lost my virginity |
| when i had my first sleepover |
| first job |
| first time working in a nursing home |
| first time a pet died |
| first time going to mexico |
| first trip to laughlin |
| time i learned how to swim |
| first time buying a car |
| first argument with boyfriend |
| visiting grandmas house during summer |
| when my childhood bully died |
| first time getting nails done |
| spending the night at ucr |
| first time meeting boyfriends family |
| getting the dog i love |
| COVID-19 Pandemic / Quarantine |
| Breakup of my first relationship |
| Seeing the word ""hell"" on a DVD and telling my parents about it which led them to putting me into the corner for saying a bad word even though I was just telling them about the new word I learned. |
| Kicking a guy's genitals because they were making fun of my friends. |
| Doing really well on triple jump and my coach praising me. |
| Freezing in the cold during Freshmen year when I was part of the soccer team. |
| Being out in the rain for a track meet while all the events were still going on. |
| Laughing to the point where I started crying because of all the chaos that was happening during dinner. |
| Feeding a black cat at the temple even though the monk was telling me that they were bad luck. |
| high school graduation |
| first week of university |
| getting food with friends during summer |
| Working on computer science with my dad |
| playing basketball with my life long friends |
| playing fortnite with friends |
| Driving to LA for the first time |
| Enjoying tacos and a local shop |
| Trying different food spots and recording a review |
| Working on stocks every morning |
| Going to new york |
| going to sneakercon |
| Breaking my arm |
| Watching a movie with friends |
| Snowboarding |
| Swim competition |
| Getting stitches on my head |
| Snowboard trip with friends |
| Watching my favorite tv show |
| Roadtrip with mom |
| Skating with friends |
| Fighting friends |
| Growing up with cousins |
| Cooking for children |
| Playing video games with cousins |
| Swim practice |
| Going to Korea |
| Watching my favorite movie in theaters |
| First day of highschool |
| Last day of highschool |
| Highschool graduation |
| First day of college |
| Drinking for the first time |
| Getting a F for the first time |
| Riding rollercoasters |
| Learning to drive |
| Winning a swim competition |
| Meeting my extended family |
| Grad night |
| Visiting my friend at Vegas |
| Failing my math final |
| Getting hungover for the first time |
| Growing up in church, my identity is a child of God. My best memories are in sunday school with all my friends every sunday morning |
| Seeing my parents sacrifice a lot for me motivated me to always do my best. |
| In peru I have seen a lot of stray animals, that makes me love them a lot. |
| Playing soccer. |
| Hanging out with family and friends. |
| Listening to music. |
| Watching sports. |
| Trying new things. |
| Taking walks. |
| Playing with video games. |
| Joining the wrestling team |
| Asking out my first girlfriend |
| Cutting weight for wrestling |
| Road to study |
| The noble people I met |
| A couple of big life moments |
| Joining a soccer team |
| Family outing to the beach |
| Joining a baseball team |
| Elementary school years (kindergarten to fourth grade) |
| Holiday get togethers |
| Parental problems (Marriage problems) |
| Moving houses |
| Grandma's death |
| Baby sister being born |
| Older brother being sent to the hospital for depression |
| high school ""pace program"" |
| immigrating to the US |
| first job as a receptionist |
| current job as a pharmacy technician |
| Living in Mexico |
| Parents divorce |
| Graduating High School |
| Moving out for college |
| Learning how to drive a vehicle |
| Growing up in a Hispanic household |
| Gaining close relationships with my siblings |
| Learning how to be selfless |
| Learning how to have patience with people |
| Falling for a guy and getting hurt |
| My first day of school |
| Buying my first Binder |
| Learning my multiplication tables |
| Joining basketball |
| Joining Martial Arts |
| Joining Rugby |
| Choosing Biomedical Engineering as my major |
| First time trying to use a skate board |
| Watching Bear Grylls |
| Getting Baptized |
| Coming out as bi |
| Coming out as Gay |
| Realizing I'm trans |
| Starting therapy |
| Breaking up with my first girlfriend |
| Using the men's bathroom for the first time |
| My aunt getting cancer and I had to step up and take care to help my family. |
| My childhood dog passing away and it made me feel like I'm leaving behind my childhood and I am entering a new chapter of my life. |
| Overcoming two open heart surgeries |
| Being a first generation, and having my family be so proud when I told them I want to go to college. |
| Working two jobs in high school, while still having soccer practice every day. |
| Going to church every Wednesday and Sunday. |
| Doing community service in High school |
| Going to the gym everyday but the weekends |
| Being with my best friend everyday of the summer. |
| Going to Cabo with my family for my 15th birthday. |
| Got my first car when I turned 18 years old. |
| Learning how to drive with my mom |
| Getting my firs tattoo |
| Going on my first day |
| Getting heartbroken |
| First day of College, very nerve-racking! |
| Visiting my best friend at her college, which is UCI. |
| Buying a dog and naming him Louie. |
| Going to Newport to look at the beautiful houses to get motivation. |
| Investing in buying shoes, because that would make me happy! |
| Trying Sea food for the first time |
| Decorating the Christmas tree with my mom and sister. |
| Becoming a Tia to my first niece. |
| Being stressed every single day over school. |
| Becoming a first time Godmother. |
| Going to the Dodgers game and then seeing fireworks. |
| Going to DisneyLand and it was decorated for Christmas |
| Going to the Drive ins every weekend with friends and watching movies that just came out. |
| Going to the beach and having a bonfire with friends. |
| Having another surgery, which means now I have had three surgeries. |
| Overcoming many obstacles, but now feeling better and a bit accomplished. |
| Being happy within myself ! |
| Going to Mexico for the first time. |
| Getting my first pet |
| learning how to ride a bike |
| Going on my first rollercosters |
| First day of Highschool |
| My 15 birthday party |
| Going to Culican Sinaloa |
| Graduating Highschool |
| Getting Covid for the first time. |
| First day of College. |
| Cracking my head open |
| Meeting people in high school |
| Going to school in Japan |
| meeting my parter for the first time |
| holidays |
| working out |
| meeting my dad for the first time |
| Winning my first badminton tournament |
| My grandfather passing away |
| My 5th birthday party |
| Middle school graduation |
| getting my first dog |
| starting elementary |
| losing my uncle |
| birth of my first nephew |
| starting middle school |
| birth of my first niece |
| senior year of high school |
| prom |
| homecoming dance |
| first boyfriend |
| birth of second niece |
| graduation |
| getting a drivers license |
| visiting family in Mexico |
| college acceptance |
| summer 2022 |
| bad bunny concert |
| starting college |
| moving out of my parents house |
| First Love |
| First Cook by myself |
| First surgery |
| First time being kicked out of school |
| Growing up in a family that had a very poor economic background as well as struggling to bring money into the family |
| My dad had been sick since the day I can remember and I have consistently been in and out of the hospital |
| Seeing my father go through diabetic episodes and having to call the ambulance for him, it made grow to want to take care of my loved ones and notice when somethings wrong |
| Always being outside with other kids and creating memories with them that still feel nostalgic to this day |
| Hanging out with my childhood friends who were older than me and they taught me a lot of mannerisms |
| Building closer relationships with those older friends who I now see as sisters and they really shaped me to who I am today |
| Experiencing my first loss of a friend |
| My first experience with bullying |
| My first experience with racism |
| Training for a sport |
| Watching my parents fight |
| Witnessing death |
| First relationship |
| First breakup |
| First major injury |
| First physical fight |
| Social Media |
| My dog running away |
| Graduating high school |
| Going out with my friends for the first time |
| Playing bass for my worship group |
| Playing video games with my brother |
| Watching movies with my brother |
| Going to concerts |
| Making a speech so I could run for president in elementary school |
| Getting my sister's old iPod when she got a new one |
| Watching my brother skate on his skateboard |
| Watching the worship group practice when I was little |
| Taking care of cats that lived under the house |
| Being president twice |
| I rode my bike off of a ramp, and got impaled in the stomach and it hurt alot when I was young |
| I almost got stabbed in school for making a joke about someones hair |
| I ran a marathon |
| When got really sick for most of my childhood |
| My first B in a class after getting straight A’s my entire life |
| Having a really bad experience with a drug I once tried |
| Feeling loved by everyone around me in my highschool graduation |
| My bestfreind committing suicide |
| Learning to drive |
| Driving alone for the first time |
| Going to the beach for the first time |
| Going camping for the first time |
| Learning how to shoot guns |
| Starting MMA training |
| Discovering K-pop Music |
| Learning how to play tennis for the first time |
| First day of middle school |
| First day of high school |
| First day of college |
| Parents Divorce |
| The day I made my first friend |
| One day when I was seven my mom took me to go see my uncle perform in a band. We went there and I remember being so proud of him and excited to see him perform that day. I saw a small crowd but did not care since I was just focused on my uncle. Once he performed I thought it was so cool that for many years after this I wanted to become a singer just like him. I do not want to be a singer now but I do still want to do something with music in my life. |
| I had an accident a couple years ago that caused me to be hospitalized for a week because my heart had stopped beating. I just woke up from a small coma in a hospital and wondered why I was there. I remember everything feeling like a dream but when I figured out it was real I did not know exactly how to feel. I was told that my heart stopped twice and I technically was clinically ""dead"" twice. I had surgery for the first time in my life which made the event feel more surreal. After this moment I felt so grateful for having a life and live every day with meaning. |
| My friend rented a cabin in Big Bear for our friend group to stay at on night. We had so much fun and I bonded with many of them whom I never got to talk to much before. This showed me how important meeting new people can be for me and how much I enjoy having someone to talk to about anything. |
| moving to the U.S. at 13 |
| receiving my college acceptance letter |
| receiving my diagnosis |
| My first day in kindergarten |
| seeing myself for the first time in the mirror |
| being bullied |
| learning how to love myself at a young age |
| When I got in trouble for doing something at a young age. This was when my dad was washing something in the driveway and I think I bothered him and I cried because I had to sit next to the refrigerator for an hour. |
| Learning bits of the english language from watching Johnny Test on the television. |
| Having a comeback when someone said something mean to me in middle school and then becoming friends with his friends. |
| Being fascinated with games ever since I've seen my family play with the Nintendo DS. |
| Having one of my best friends say he hated me when he first met me because I didn't laugh at his joke. |
| Seeing how when someone gets in a romantic relationship, they just stop doing the things they normally do. |
| When I went to Disneyland at 9 years old with my family and friends for the first time |
| When I first met my dog Hera at 8 weeks old and felt so much joy and company |
| When I took my first test in AP Psychology |
| The piano shaped the majority of my future when I started playing at the age of six. |
| My family granted me the choice to take any pathway I was willing to take for my future. |
| After my oldest brother left to attend for college, I realized that there was a missing family member in the household, which made me slightly more independent than before. |
| After the passings of my grandparents, I realized that it is important to always check upon people who I care about the most. |
| Last year, my closest friend passed away. My life completely changed in a negative manner. |
| Learning different kinds of sports granted me the opportunity to utilize many skills into real-life situations. |
| After entering the college life, I was very homesick. Staying in this type of environment made my mentality stronger. |
| When I got accepted into my college prep high school |
| When I got my first beta fish |
| When I got my first puppy |
| When my first dog passed away |
| When my best friend passed away |
| When my favorite teacher in middle school moved |
| When I began my first piano lessons |
| When I quit my piano lessons |
| When I began piano lessons later on and didn’t quit |
| When I realized who my real friends were |
| When I first fell in love but learned that it wasn’t really love |
| When I was shown actual love and found the person I want to be with |
| When I first dyed my hair with my sister |
| When I went to my first dance with my friends |
| When I started my first sport and found a love for basketball |
| When my little brother was born |
| When I went with my sister to my very first concert |
| When I realized I didn’t feel I was pretty enough as a girl |
| When I started going to the gym |
| When I first lost weight and felt so accomplished |
| When I found out that I had developed an eating disorder but didn’t care |
| When my brother broke my pinky |
| When I got accepted into universities |
| When I moved out of my house to go to school |
| My first job at McDonald’s |
| Friends I made at my jobs |
| Becoming an adult and having responsibilities |
| When my sister moved to a different state for school |
| When I went to a rock festival with my boyfriend and his family |
| All the times I went to Disneyland with my boyfriend |
| Graduating from High school |
| Getting my blue belt in JIu Jitsu |
| Entering the stage in life with my wife and dog |
| Realizing my Father is an addict |
| going to cif |
| acceptance to ucr |
| moving in |
| first kiss |
| Moving to California |
| Winning my first research prize |
| Winning my first writing prize |
| Losing my 6th tooth |
| Calling Santa Claus ""HoHo"" and thought the Carls Jr. Star was Santa. |
| Finding out My Mom provided presents and not Santa Claus |
| First time i got a phone |
| Parents Divorce |
| When i got an important character in 4th grade choir play |
| Getting my 3ds |
| First day of Middle school |
| Discovering Kpop |
| First day of highschool |
| Meeting first close friend in highschool |
| Getting cast in my first highschool musical |
| getting cast as more than ensemble in highschool production |
| My mom and ex boyfriend broke up |
| Getting cast as a supportive character in highschool play |
| Getting cast as lead character in highschool production |
| Announcement of quarantine |
| Getting COVID for the first time |
| spending new years whilst in covid quarantine |
| First Kiss (Stage kiss) |
| Graduation |
| Gradnight |
| First day of College |
| Acceptance to UCR |
| Last day of highschool |
| Winning Dionysus award in senior year |
| Last performance in highschool |
| First day of Senior year |
| Meeting my little cousins for the first time |
| When i lost my retainers |
| When i met my bestfriend |
| basketball |
| education |
| friends |
| Immigrated to the US when I was 13 |
| Helped my sisters with their homework |
| Proofread college essays for my underclassmen friends |
| Made important phone calls for my parents because they didn't know English |
| My oldest half-brother dying. |
| My youngest half-brother dying. |
| Watching my youngest brother die. |
| Watching my grandmother die. |
| My grandfather dying. |
| My uncle dying. |
| Graduating high school. |
| Starting to bake. |
| Realizing I have social anxiety. |
| Getting a cat. |
| My 13 years younger sister being born. |
| Starting college. |
| Being labeled as ""gifted"" young. |
| Having immigrant parents. |
| Going to Palestine (home country) for the first time. |
| Living through COVID-19. |
| Being raised Muslim. |
| Going through the IB Diploma program. |
| Moving to Moreno Valley. |
| My best friend moving to a different state. |
| when my mom talked about her childhood |
| being raised in an highly latino populated area |
| being called a hippo |
| experiencing heartbreak |
| fighting with my parents about my mental health |
| defending my dad about his decision to quit a draining job |
| watching my cousins have everything they wanted |
| having 90% of my family in mexico |
| grieving family's death in a different country |
| graduating highschool |
| going to college away from home |
| my sister defending me from my parents |
| arguing with my other sister continuously |
| camping with my friends in my backyard |
| going to disneyland for the first time |
| getting all the clothes i wanted |
| experiencing love for the first time |
| watching my boyfriend follow his dreams |
| being able to follow my dreams with my boyfriend |
| moving in with my boyfriend |
| my cat dying |
| eating breakfast with my grandpa in mexico |
| going to the plaza with my cousins |
| People always tell me you are a outgoing girl, so now I am a outgoing girl. |
| When I was in primary school, my teacher always said girls are not good at maths, so I believed for a time that my math is bad because I am a girl. But now I changed this thought. |
| My mother is a kind woman, she influence me a lot. I am kind too. |
| when my parent talk about divorce infront of me |
| learning new language |
| change country to live, experiencing different culture |
| Getting accepted to UCR. |
| Graduating High school. |
| The day that I stopped going over to my dad's house. |
| Meeting my mom's boyfriend and him becoming my stepdad. |
| Meeting my best friend freshman year. |
| Getting my dog Ruffus. |
| Getting my dog Kenai. |
| Getting my bird Rio. |
| Getting my fish Krispy. |
| Graduating as highest honors in High School. |
| Learning how to drive a car. |
| Getting my license. |
| Going to many job interviews and hearing no over and over. |
| Finally getting my first job at Yogurtland. |
| Covid affecting my mental health. |
| Being depressed during covid time and feeling alone. |
| Texting some random boy from school. |
| That random boy becomes my boyfriend. |
| Being with my boyfriend for a year. |
| My boyfriend helped me get through my depression. |
| Eating out with my grandparents every Friday. |
| Going to a church that was very Judgemental. |
| Getting tattoos and piercings. |
| Being told by my dad that if I was a boy he would have fought harder for custody for me. |
| Being able to see my mom struggle because she had me at 17. |
| Seeing my mom try her absolute best for me. |
| My sister being born. |
| My brother being born. |
| My other brother being born. |
| Struggling with handling school and work at the same time. |
| I won a few piano recitals back in elementary school |
| I attended middle school in LA without knowing a single phrase in english |
| I met my first boyfriend for almost 2 years |
| I drank alcohol for the first time in 9th grade |
| I went to a party for the first time soon after my highschool graduation |
| I had a part time job for about 2 months to save up some money |
| I visited my home country in 6 years, this summer. |
| I used to be like a tomboy in my home country until I became kind of passive eversince I moved to LA |
| I used to climb trees and playground equipments |
| travel with my parents |
| meet my friends |
| learning new language |
| Volunteering in Nepal |
| Get bullied in primary school |
| Learned instruments |
| Went to international school |
| Made friends in high school |
| Go traveled around the world during every holiday |
| Play video games with friends online |
| Did plastic surgery |
| Learned English |
| Learned Japanese |
| Decided to study abroad |
| Meeting an online friend for the first time |
| The creation of my longest lasting group chat |
| The beginning of high school |
| Senior year of high school |
| College orientation |
| My current friend group sharing deep secrets |
| Moving houses in 2015 |
| Middle school |
| Living in Georgia for 3 months in 2019 |
| Quarantine/Lockdown |
| Living in Georgia for 3 months in 2021 |
| The loss of a soulmate |
| Finding my twin flame |
| Discovering my favorite anime |
| My dad being sick with cancer |
| Moving to England |
| Graduating high school |
| College orientation |
| Getting accepted to my top college |
| Turning 18 |
| Graduating with my two best friends |
| Going to Disneyland for the first time |
| Getting my first job |
| Getting my license |
| Handling a snake |
| Getting my most recent dog |
| Going to Mexico every weekend when I was 9 |
| 16th Birthday |
| Drivers license |
| brother being born |
| first day of school |
| riding a bike |
| first sleep over |
| first time on a flight |
| seeing snow for the first time |
| first day of high school |
| My 15 birthday party |
| My first car |
| My High School Graduation |
| moving to africa |
| attending religious studies |
| having my own journey with religion |
| experiencing anxiety from a young age |
| learning how much words hold power |
| I was walking my dog and I found a lizard. I brought it home and let it go in my backyard. |
| I drove alone for the first time. |
| 1st degree black belt test |
| 2nd degree black belt test |
| 3rd degree black belt test |
| catching my first fish on my own (lost grandpa was big fisherman) |
| getting accepted into a UC |
| qualifying for team cif golf i shot a +3 on 18 holes that brought my team into the next round |
| skiing through what felt like a blizzard. It was very windy and the snow stung on my cheeks |
| gaining large amounts of weight in highschool |
| loosing more than half that weight in recent years |
| not much more i can remember or would like to keep private |
| graduating high school |
| making a guy cry in high school |
| Graduating high school |
| Holidays with my family |
| Getting my drivers license |
| relationships |
| family |
| friends |
| School |
| kids |
| i am asian |
| i am korean |
| i am a male |
| when i first moved to america |
| the first time i got bullied (good thing) |
| getting my first pair of shoes |
| getting my first tuxedo |
| my first band class |
| my first band concert |
| my first marching band parade |
| my first time going to the gym |
| my first time getting into gaming |
| my first time building a computer |
| graduating middle school |
| graduating high school |
| moving into my college dorm |
| when I was admitted into 3 mental hospitals |
| My first meeting with a therapist |
| The times my father walked out, only to return a few hours later |
| When I was SA'd |
| When I was diagnosed with BPD |
| My 4th relationship - positive self reflection |
| My Grandpa Taking Me to School |
| Visting Mexico |
| Having a Great 4/5th Grade Teacher |
| Going to Middle School |
| Grandpa Passing |
| Meeting New Friends |
| Promoting to High School |
| Meeting My Lifelong Friends |
| Visiting Florida |
| Catholic Confirmation |
| Senior Year |
| Graduating High School |
| Being Accepted into Universities |
| First Day of Univeristy |
| meeting my best friends of 7 years |
| first time listening to freudian by daniel caesar |
| first heartbreak |
| In 6th grade elementary school, I was the best trombone player in school, got designated one of the top 2 band players, and got to play a solo during a band performance. |
| In 7th grade middle school, I was really bad at debate and had a partner who sucked even more, but during one debate I actually managed to convince some people in my class of my position. However, I goofed up and lost all support when I suggested something related to intentionally sacrificing US troops during war. |
| In spring of this year, I beat one of the hardest Mario levels called ""Champion's Road"" by myself without any in-game ""power-ups."" |
| One day around 2 years ago, me and my mom drove around and did several Pokemon Go boss battles and won around 6-7 times because of my strategies. It made me feel proud of my planning skills. |
| At the very start 9th grade, I finally decided to leave behind my toxic middle school friends who would constantly belittle my interests and peer pressure me into doing embarrassing things. |
| During my first week of 9th grade, I met new friends through a class acquiantaince who were more similar to me because they were focused on studies and accepting of my hobbies. |
| In 2019 February, I ran a 10k in Death Valley in just under an hour. |
| After years of slowly losing interest in it, I finally left behind the religion of Islam because I just didn't believe in any of it and had no passion for it. |
| One day when I was in Grand Teton National Park, I became obsessed with the Jalapeno Kettle Brand Chips that my brothers were eating. Ever since then, they have made me much more passionate about snacking. |
| In October of senior year of high school, I tried asking out this girl in my class, but she rejected me because she was a Muslim. It definitely hurt me inside, but I was able to peacefully take the loss. |
| When I ate food with meat from Taco Bell that wouldn't be permissible for a Muslim to eat, I felt like I was finally starting to become independent. |
| I worked at the medical records section of a clinic for a few months, and it helped me realize the value of working hard for your own money. |
| When I was in around 2nd grade, I finally was able to steadily ride on a bike after practicing a lot to balance myself. Soon, I became good enough to where I could kick off on my own without training wheels. |
| A few months ago, I was able to beat an entire Mario game without using any power-ups or game assistance tools. |
| Back in May, I was able to get a 4 and a 5 on my 2 AP exams. It made me appreciate the value of taking practice tests and studying. |
| Back in August, I started watching this Disney Cartoon called ""Amphibia"". I initially thought it was kind of boring, but soon came to appreciate its lessons about how you should always try to grow as a person. |
| Back in August of 2021, I passed my Driver's License Test on my first try. It made me proud of my ability to accomplish big feats on my own. |
| Just a few weeks ago, I got my mom to start watching the cartoon ""Avatar: The Last Airbender"" with me. It helped me realize that even with how different we all are, it is possible to get my family members interested in my hobbies. |
| When my mom went to take care of her mom in India, I was able to become more independent by driving out on my own to buy groceries and meals for the rest of my family. |
| making friends at a new school |
| winning a tournament with my friends |
| getting an A on an essay for the first time in college |
| making my parents happy when I showed them my grades |
| saving up for my first computer |
| Experiencing my first anxiety attack. |
| Every time I participate in traditions of mu culture. |
| Graduating high school. |
| Going to college. |
| Moving out of my home and dorming on campus. |
| The Syrian Civil War was one of my earliest memories that shaped who I am. I remember the sound of gunshots and the echos of bombs to this day, and I remember how that experience made me grow up faster and realize the injustices of the world. |
| Moving to the United States and living with my Aunt for a couple of months and getting to know my cousin better and assimilating into American Culture. I remember getting off the plane and sitting next to my cousin who I am very close to now on the way to their house, being amazed by the roads and the houses we drove by. |
| My first day in an American school. I felt like an outcast since my English wasn't very good and found it frustrating to communicate with others, I also felt really behind compared to other students since I did not speak fluent English. I remember walking around by myself in the playground and trying to get used to everything. |
| Graduating from ELA. I was so happy to finish the English learners program in fourth grade and I remember my teacher jumping, screaming, and hugging me with joy because she was really happy for me and I felt proud of myself to have accomplished that. |
| My first day of middle school. I remember how I struggled to figure out how to open a locker and my older brother taught to me how to open one and how I was late to my first class with a teacher I did not like because I couldn't open my locker. |
| I remember attending summer camp for the first time in sixth grade. I really did not want to go, and I developed really bad social anxiety during that time. At first, I felt really uncomfortable and I just wanted to leave but then I grew to really like it and made really good friends there. I attended it every summer up until quarantine. |
| When my social anxiety got bad in middle school, I remember counting all the navy and white shirts in class everyday and if the shirt I was wearing is a color that was in the minority I would feel insecure for the rest of the day. |
| Not being friends with the friend I had since elementary school. I found out his friend was talking bad about me to others and was just over all really toxic towards me for the past few years, and I remember how freeing it was when I told her that I knew and walked away. |
| Grad night in middle school. I had a lot of fun and got to go on rides at six flags with my friends and laugh all night together. |
| first day of high school. I felt really nervous but I was really excited as well, and I got closer with someone who I knew from middle school but was not super close to and now were still best friends. |
| The arabic show. We do this show every year for my arabic class and the first year was so fun, I met two of my other best friends and we practiced doing traditional dances, songs, and plays. It was so fun and I felt super connected to my culture and felt like those around me were like my family in that class. |
| My grandpa's stroke. It was hard to see him go through that and to see my mom hurting from it. |
| The pandemic. When covid hit and we all had to quarantine it was really crazy and the last day before where everyone was nervous and unsure what's going on, we did not know that we weren't going to see each other for another year and a half. getting used to wearing masks, staying at home, social distancing and all was really hard. |
| My dad's cardiac arrest. Watching my dad go through dad in front of me and being in a coma for a while was really hard and one of the most life changing experiences. I was there when it happened and the image of him foaming at the mouth was hard to picture. I had to be there for my family, start working at our family ice cream shop, and pick up a lot of responsibilities as well as checking up on my dad (although I could not visit him because of covid) |
| Joining the IB program and specifically talking with my IB coordinator. When I talked to him, he was so understanding and supported and I felt that support was really important. |
| doing a summer program at ucla health. This program solidified my interest in pursing a career in medicine and I remember how fun learning different techniques like suturing was. |
| first day back to in person school. It felt really weird and so did the masks, trying to put online people to actual people was also weird. |
| College apps. Taught me perseverance and I remember working on them on halloween where I dressed up as pitbull, making me reflect on how much I grew from being social anxious to showing up to school in a bald cap. |
| IB Exams, hell on earth but also taught me perseverance and a lot of knowledge |
| College acceptances and rejections. Broke me down for an entire month in tears, but eventually I changed my perspective on things and I grew from that disappointment. |
| Graduation and the IB Banquet. It was hard to say bye to everyone but I was excited for a new chapter. I remember driving in the car screaming to music with my friends. |
| Graduation and the IB Banquet. It was hard to say bye to everyone but I was excited for a new chapter. I remember driving in the car screaming to music with my friends. |
| Grad night as Disneyland. Was extremely fun and chaotic, one last time to say goodbye and have fun with friends. |
| UCR Orientation. Hell on earth because I got my period and they wouldn't let me change until I begged them. Although, met some really cool friends! |
| Kidney infection. Turns out the pain during orientation was also due to me having a kidney infection and I had to go to the emergency room. |
| Moving in! It was so fun and I was so excited, although I was stressed because I thought I lost a key. |
| First lecture. went really well and I loved my professor! |
| First frat party at ucla during halloween. really fun although extremely chaotic |
| Taking an extended spring break in sophomore year of highschool |
| Signing up and applying to college |
| Graduating highschool |
| Thanksgiving breaks in the pas 3 years |
| Playing varsity soccer for senior year of highschool |
| Playing video games with my brother |
| Getting baptized |
| Move in day college |
| I was riding in a Maybach in Russia and I had sex with 2 prostitutes |
| I was in Medellin Colombia smoking marijuana with the cab driver and I lost my phone |
| I was in London and I swam in Serpentine Lake. |
| I was skateboarding at night on the streets of Berlin |
| I was riding a Bird scooter in Madrid and I fell. |
| I did my first stage dive in Austin Texas at a Braid concert |
| I was driving the boat in Cuba. |
| I was in Paris eating at this Indian restaurant by the train station |
| I took the train back to London and I was listening to Lil Yachty |
| I bought a Faygo soda at the gas station |
| I had sex with two Brazilian prostitutes at the same time in London |
| I was in New York City smoking marijuana in central park |
| I was on the beach at night in Barcelona |
| I remember the girl with the huge breasts that I was fond of. |
| I got drunk on the plane from Germany to Iceland. |
| I was skating the streets of Seattle at midnight with best friend. |
| I made love to a Russian prostitute in Moscow |
| I was out in Tijuana with my other best friend. |
| I was on a train from Madrid to Barcelona |
| I was snorkeling in some island in Papa New Guinea and got sunburned real bad |
| I was at the Whole foods in London |
| I went to Tim Hortons in Calgary, Canada. |
| I was smoking marijuana with a prostitute in Colombia |
| I did cocaine in Colombia |
| I stopped at the WaWa in New Jersey |
| I was in the swimming pool at the gym. |
| I noticed the Texaco gas station in Medellin on the way back to airport |
| I took a flight out to Spain |
| I was driving a Range Rover in the mountains. |
| I was skateboarding in San Francisco. |
| Reading through a whole mini-library in 4th grade |
| Experiencing subtle racism from elementary school to middle school |
| Being in toxic friendships throughout middle school |
| Becoming emotional support for friends throughout high school |
| Losing love for reading and books in highschool |
| Joining Scouts BSA in 2016 until leaving in 2022 |
| Devoting time to playing tennis throughout high school |
| Playing nintendo games throughout my childhood and pre-teen years |
| learning to drive |
| first date |
| first prom |
| grandma passing away |
| meeting my half-brother |
| first heartbreak |
| moving into college |
| started going to the gym consistently |
| meeting roommates |
| paying for a trip all on my own |
| finding classes |
| being away from home for more than a day |
| ucr orientation |
| receiving a family heirloom |
| working and having my own money to spend |
| helping my parents pay for my tuition |
| on-the-phone interview |
| I did gymnastic for 10 years. |
| I've done track since I was 8, and I am now doing it in college. |
| My dad was the one who worked, while my mom spent more time with my sister and I. |
| I am a younger sibling with an older sister. |
| I was the therapist friend, because I liked helping friends with their problems. |
| I fell in a race at a national meet when i was 12. |
| I didn't get my first computer until 6th grade, and i didn't get my girst phone until 9th grade. |
| My family was very ethnically diverse, but I grew up in a very white town. |
| I grew up surrounded by a lot of family in California. |
| My first dog passed away when I was about 5. |
| In elementary school I accidentally went into the girls bathroom and was bullied |
| I wasn't invited to a birthday party because I was ""too weird"" in elementary |
| I was very hyper in the 6th grade which was off putting for people |
| In the 8th grade I calmed down a bit and was more grounded, and saw that people liked me |
| My dad screaming at me for bad grades |
| My sister giving me advice everyday after school |
| Boys Lockeroom in highschool id always get messed with |
| Got put through private catholic highschool to turn out better |
| Being good at saving money up as a kid and realizing other people were not |
| Realizing I spend too much time on my phone |
| Going to the gym and gaining confidence |
| I didn't get my birthday celebrated due to bad grades and being disrespectful one time |
| Going through 3 months of football practice |
| getting my first real friend group in jr year highschool |
| Being very good at socializing at school |
| Going to my white friend's birthday party |
| Listening to music which made me question my religious views |
| Being raised on Mexico |
| Moving to U.S. |
| Sharing a room with my mom, my sister and 3 cousins |
| Moving and sharing a room with my sister and my mom |
| Moving to an apartment |
| My first day in a school at U.S |
| Being on a shelter |
| My last day of high school |
| Prom |
| Going to Disney |
| Going to Tijuana for a camp |
| Going back to my hometown for the first time |
| Sharing a room with my roommate |
| Getting an iPhone |
| Buying my own computer |
| Going to L.A. with friends |
| Going for trips in the middle of the night with friends |
| Getting drunk for the first time |
| Learning how to ride a bike |
| Going to the San Pablo Library with my Dad on Mondays |
| My Dad picking me up from elementary school in his big work van |
| Eating cut up corn dogs with ketchup while watching my nickelodeon cds |
| Signing up for my first singing class when I was six years old at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts |
| Playing soccer as a kid and absolutely hating it |
| Going to church with my parents and slowly growing out of the religion as I got older |
| Went to church to watch my dad play volleyball and eventually I started playing and continued to teach myself how to play and get better through the years |
| Going to work with my mom and spending time with her client Cathy and her home at the park |
| Making up dances and singing songs with my cousins to perform to our family when we were younger |
| Going over to my cousin's house where our Grandma would babysit us and we would have the most fun time in the backyard playing with bugs and messing with the chicken that my cousin had in their backyard |
| Playing Wii with my cousins. WiiSports, WiiPlay, Just Dance, Disney Karaoke |
| Obsessing over my Nintendo DS and playing games like Cooking Mama and one where it was like a math game and the dude's head is huge and floating. |
| Performing for the first time at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts. |
| Getting into the Diploma Program at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts. |
| Constantly worked on my volleyball skills in my backyard and supported my girls volleyball team during their seasons. |
| Becoming an uncle at the age of four. Now I have two nephews and three nieces. |
| The passing of my Grandpa before starting my first year of high school. |
| Joining the vocal ensemble Voices of Reason at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts |
| Opening myself up to a guy in March of 2021. |
| Graduating High School. |
| Getting accepted to and attending college. |
| Played my first year of high school volleyball my senior year for another school |
| The pandemic. |
| Smoking weed for the first time. |
| First day of middle school. |
| My first fight in elementary |
| My first real fight in middle school |
| Graduating High School |
| Smoking for the first time |
| My first sleep over at my friends house |
| My 13th birthday |
| Getting yelled at by my little league baseball coach |
| playing basketball with my friends at rec centers |
| My first kiss |
| When I asked out my current girlfriend |
| Thanksgiving 2016 (all my family came for the first time) |
| Ditching my Avid class senior year to hang out in the counselors office |
| Recording my first song in my friends basement |
| Playing video games and watching anime simultaneously during covid |
| Random clips I made from playing Rainbow Six Seige and NBA2k20 |
| Going on walks at lake with my Grandma |
| Playing a big game of Cops and Robbers around City Heights with my Neighbors |
| My first High School House party |
| My Driver's license tests (both the one that I passed and failed) |
| Cooking chicken alfredo with my girlfriend |
| Taking my first college final (over the summer quarter of 2022) |
| Going to the Red Woods with my family |
| Moving into my current home in 2016 |
| My Mom divorcing my dad |
| Telling my mom how her absence affected me |
| The French Vocabulary test I took in 1st grade |
| Getting my ears pierced |
| This video of me being passed around in freshman p.e. |
| My last fight with my brother |
| When me and my sister finally became friends |
| Growing up dancing in the studio around 10 hours a week every year since I was 3 |
| The time I cried after my mother refused to pull over to give the homeless man money in Washington DC |
| Being responsible for a living thing - getting my first ever pet when I was four |
| me crying on my first day of kindergarten because i had to leave my mom |
| meeting my older cousin at her grandmas house |
| 3rd grade when i had my first teacher who i was scared to ask to use the bathroom |
| getting bullied in the 3rd grade |
| transferring to a new school for 4th grade |
| crying at my first day of school of 4th grade |
| having a crush on the same boy from 5th-8th grade |
| starting high school with high and strong motivation |
| covid hitting sophomore year and still doing well academically |
| joining my schools IB program junior year and struggling |
| dropping the IB program after my first semester |
| beginning senior year |
| getting into my first relationship senior year |
| losing my uncle over the summer |
| moving to UCR |
| losing my first love |
| having depressive episodes during week 5-7 |
| Smashed my pinky finger in the door. |
| Brother helped me out of the crib when I was crying to get out |
| My first pet passing away. |
| My bulldog passing away on Valentine’s Day. |
| Making dirt pies. |
| Playing tetherball during the summer. |
| Summer school water fight |
| Moving to a new school. |
| Making my high school volleyball team. |
| Grandmother passing away |
| Losing my first phone. |
| Having a movie date with my mom. |
| Going to my first concert |
| Going to the zoo with all of my cousins |
| Moving in with my aunt |
| Dying my hair for the first time |
| Purchasing a gift for my parents for the first time. |
| Falling off the bike and cutting my leg |
| Arguing with my brothers |
| First Friendsgiving with friends |
| First secret Santa with friends |
| Making friends in college |
| Experiencing my first anxiety attack |
| Peeing myself in public |
| Running around outside at night for the first time by myself |
| Experiencing college and feeling so alone |
| Cutting my foot by stepping on a shard of glass |
| Swimming by myself on the deep end |
| Getting my painting hung up for the first time |
| Fighting with my parents |
| when i was around 9, my older sister was 18 and would get paid to babysit myself and my younger siblings, 7 and 3. She would sleep while i would attempt to make food and take care of the youngest. |
| i shaved my head the year before college started through impulse |
| the older i get, the more fond i am of kid shows |
| if there isnt a plan or if it changes i get stressed |
| i played waterpolo, soccer, swim, dance |
| The continued racism I went through |
| Bullying throughout my life |
| bullying |
| racism |
| Moving |
| becoming an older sister |
| losing my grandparents |
| learning how to drive |
| Meeting my best friend |
| Deciding to become a doctor |
| Learning to play the piano |
| Being bullied for being fat as a kid |
| Dad yelling at me for not knowing how to do homework |
| Friends leaving me in high school |
| Growing up christian |
| Growing up in a suburban community |
| growing up with only one present parent |
| only child for majority of life |
| Moving across the country |
| losing a friend to suicide |
| my younger sister developing cancer |
| attending college |
| friends and family influence |
| growing up as the oldest daughter and grandchild |
| sexual assault at 5 years old |
| self harming at 11 |
| first suicide attempt at 14 |
| first romantic experience with a girl from volleyball |
| my mom telling me to kill myself |
| my grandma passing away at the beginning of freshman year of college |
| adopting cats |
| having really good sex with someone who i viewed as temporary |
| meeting jonathan |
| getting a septum |
| getting drunk/high alone |
| going to the gym |
| The first time that I played tennis |
| The first time I went to the gym |
| The day my best friend died |
| The beginning of covid |
| The month I moved into my new house in Riverside |
| The nexplanon implant that I received |
| Getting close with my friend Claire |
| Working as a camp counselor for many summers |
| Starting college at UCR |
| Starting college tennis |
| I'm an actress |
| I'm an artist |
| I'm a writer |
| I love reading |
| I did cheer in freshmen of high school |
| I went to a boarding school |
| My dog is my best friend |
Transformative Experiences and Counterfactuals
Should I become a vampire?
Should I move to a different country?
Should I get married?
Should I have a child?
Should I take this job?
Transformative Experiences
Certain experiences we cannot know what experience will be like– and it’s consequences– until we undergo the experience; an epistemic challenge
But also, many new/unknown experiences are personally transformative; will change your life and what it is like to be you
Epistemic Transformation
Experiencing color for the first time can’t be fully anticipated until it has been experienced; can’t learn it by being told, have to experience it
Knowledge of what something is like and subjective point-of-view changes
Understand things in new way, gain new information
Depends on how much one already knows, and the experience involved
Stories, testimony, and theories aren’t enough to teach you what it is like
Personal Transformation
Some experiences can change your point of view, and by extension, your personal preferences, and perhaps even change the kind of person that you are or at least take yourself to be.
horrific physical attack, gaining a new sensory ability, having a traumatic accident, undergoing major surgery, winning an Olympic gold medal, participating in a revolution, having a religious conversion, having a child, experiencing the death of a parent, making a major scientific discovery, or experiencing the death of a child.
Two Forms of Transformation
- Can be epistemically transformative, giving you new information in virtue of your experience.
- Can be personally transformative, changing how you experience being who you are.
- Some experiences may be epistemically transformative while not being personally transformative, like tasting a durian for the first time. Some experiences may be personally transformative without being epistemically transformative.
Both Epistemic and Personally Transformative
- Having a transformative experience (both personal and epistemic) teaches you something new, something that you could not have known before having the experience, while also changing you as a person.
- Choices involving transformative experiences, that is, your transformative choices, allow you to causally form what it will be like to be you in your future.
Autobiographical Memory: Episodic and Semantic
Endel Tulving distinguished between episodic and semantic memory (Tulving, 1983)
Episodic Memory: mental representation of the self as the agent or patient of some action, or as the stimulus or experiencer of some state
- I gave a present to Lucy on her birthday and Lucy made me very happy yesterday
Semantic Memory: is more generic, context-free knowledge about the world. Doesn’t necessarily have to be in self-reference.
- Apples are red, green, or yellow fruits or I am a member of the middle class, I am more than 6 feet tall, and I am a neurotic extravert.
Associative Network Models of Memory
Episodic Memories as a Causal Structure
Associativist models assume undirected relation
Also, to my knowledge, associativist models of self as memory have been primarily theoretical/verbal
Present works attempts to formally model episodic memories as causal/directed
Further, attempts to provide link between causal structure and “transformation”
Hypotheses
Network Hypotheses
H1: People will evaluate more positively, less negatively (i.e., more favorably) on memories with more downstram dependents.
H2: People will be more certain in memories with more downstream dependents.
H3: Memories with more dependents will be more clearly defined and accessible.
H4: Memories with more dependents will be farther back in time.
H5: Memories with more dependents will be more fundamental to how people see themselves, and if they were changed, would change the person.
H6: Memories with more dependents will be more important to the person.
H7: Time will be associated with the number of implications, such that experiences farther back in time will have caused more other experiences.
H8: How broad/specific an experience is may be associated with some perceptions or moderate various associations– One example may be that broader memories will have more implications.
H9: People’s self-report of retrospected emotions during an experience will be associated with how positively or negatively they perceive the experience.
H10: Memories with lower network constraint will be more differentiated. (pretty exploratory)
H11: People think more often about memories with more memories causing them
Method
Participants indicate up to 30 episodic experiences/personal memories
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Self-Reported Measures
- This experience is important to me.
- The experience is important to others.
- How do you feel about this experience? 0-100 [Positive/Negative]
- During this experience, I felt… [PANAS]
Self-Reported Measures
- This experience is clearly-defined and easy to recall in my memory.
- This experience is representative of who I am.
- If I did not have this experience, I would be a fundamentally different person.
- This experience changed me.
Self-Reported Measures
- This experience is distinct and different from my other memories.
- How certain do you feel about the details of this experience?
- How often do you think about this experience?
- How specific or broad was this experience?
Self-Reported Measures
- To what extent does this experience involve yourself or others? 0-100 [Self/Others]
- How long ago was this experience?
Individual Differences
- Self-Esteem
- Self-Concept Clarity
- Need for Cognition
- Dialectical Self
- Depression
Individual Differences
- Interoception
- Sense of Self
- Self-Ambivalence
- Dark Triad
Results
Wordcloud of Frequently Used Words
Table of Experiences
Examples
Descriptives
Descriptives for Outward Implications
vars n mean sd median trimmed mad min max range skew kurtosis se
X1 1 2356 1.87 2.11 1 1.5 1.48 0 15 15 1.89 4.87 0.04Descriptives for Inward Causes
vars n mean sd median trimmed mad min max range skew kurtosis se
X1 1 2356 1.87 2.26 1 1.48 1.48 0 29 29 4.32 30.76 0.05Descriptives for Number of Words
vars n mean sd median trimmed mad min max range skew kurtosis se
X1 1 2356 9.21 12.58 6 6.79 4.45 1 192 191 6.47 63.38 0.26Number of Inward Causes Predict Positivity
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| outdegree | -0.29 | -1.1, 0.56 | 0.5 |
| indegree | 1.0 | 0.14, 1.9 | 0.024 |
| numID | -0.03 | -0.29, 0.24 | 0.8 |
| scale(length) | -0.89 | -2.4, 0.61 | 0.2 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No Effect for Negativity
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| outdegree | 0.26 | -0.73, 1.3 | 0.6 |
| indegree | -1.1 | -2.3, 0.10 | 0.070 |
| numID | 0.21 | -0.11, 0.52 | 0.2 |
| scale(length) | 0.73 | -1.1, 2.6 | 0.4 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
VADER Classified Positive Sentiment
| value |
|---|
| holidays |
| friends |
| friends |
| Celebrating my best friends birthday. |
| First love |
| First Love |
| cheerleading growing up |
| Meeting my best friend |
| meeting my best friend |
| Meeting my best friend |
| winning $100 |
| making friends |
| college acceptance |
| Partying with my friends |
| first kiss |
| countless adventures with my good friends |
| first kiss |
| first kiss |
| first kiss |
| First Kiss (Stage kiss) |
| Katrina best high school friend |
| Play dates with my childhood best friend |
| Playing with my friends |
| playing fortnite with friends |
| Play snowball |
| Celebrated 18th birthday with friends |
| creating an original song |
| Winning my first research prize |
| Winning my first writing prize |
| Cheerleading Practice |
| my first love |
| I love reading |
| losing my best friend |
| Eating delicious food |
| my kindergarten best friend moving away |
| My best friend moving to Oregon |
| finding my first real best friend |
| When my best friend passed away |
| Meeting my best friend freshman year. |
| My dog is my best friend |
| Hanging out with childhood best friends |
| telling my friends I love them |
| Graduating with my two best friends |
| Playing kickball |
| Playing minecraft |
| Playing soccer. |
| Creating a friend group that still holds strong |
| Winning Dionysus award in senior year |
| graduating with honors |
| Becoming a tia |
| becoming cheer captain |
| graduating highest honors |
| Winning championships in a basketball game |
| Playing soccer with my friends |
| Playing basketball with my friends |
| Playing Video Games with Friends |
| winning a tournament with my friends |
| Falling in love |
| falling in love |
| shopping with friend |
| meeting new friend |
| my college friends |
| My friends' intervention |
| making new friends |
| making new friends |
| beach with friends |
| 626 with friends |
| mall with friends |
| gifts for friends |
| halloween with friends |
| photoshoot with friends |
| Skating with friends |
| meet my friends |
| Meeting New Friends |
| playing with my neighbors and my childhood best friend |
| Bella's Sweet 16 |
| acceptance to ucr |
| Acceptance to UCR |
| meeting my childhood best friend in kindergarten |
| Becoming emotional support for friends throughout high school |
| meeting my best friends of 7 years |
| My first kiss |
| My first kiss |
| play video game with my friend |
| my first kiss |
| My first kiss |
| Play video games with friends online |
| having a party |
| Holiday get togethers |
| Losing my best friend senior year |
| Playing with Webkinz at a sleepover with my best friend |
| Promoting 8th grade |
| Fighting friends |
| Stuck in the slide with best friend |
| My best friend dropping me for his girlfriend |
| My best friend moving to a different state. |
| Playing video games with my friends |
| Playing video games with new friends |
| Going to the gym and gaining confidence |
| First feeling of improvement in things I cared about |
| My current friend group sharing deep secrets |
| Getting into beef to protect my friend |
| Celebrate my friend Step's 18 birthday in Boston |
| Watching movie ""Smile"" with my friend Irene |
| Winning my first race |
| Winning a swim competition |
| The day my best friend died |
| Getting made fun of |
| leading my cheer team |
| Overcoming many obstacles, but now feeling better and a bit accomplished. |
| Meeting my first friend |
| Drama with friend groups |
| Being with my best friend everyday of the summer. |
| I was the therapist friend, because I liked helping friends with their problems. |
| Finding my love for music |
| Committed to UCR |
| Learning how to love Myself |
| Finding YouTube channels I love |
| getting the dog i love |
| handout with my friends |
| Stay at friends home |
| Eating food with friends |
| Hoola Hooping with friends |
| Snowboard trip with friends |
| Meeting My Lifelong Friends |
| First Friendsgiving with friends |
| Making friends in college |
| friends and family influence |
| My great grandma passing away. |
| Receiving college acceptance letters. |
| working at sweet rendezvous |
| Playing bass for my worship group |
| Discovering my favorite anime |
| Being happy within myself ! |
| playing basketball with my life long friends |
| Getting accepted to my top colleges |
| Getting accepted to my top college |
| I got good grades |
| I ate good food |
| Mother always supporting me |
| becoming a cheerleader |
| starting high school with high and strong motivation |
| Visiting my best friend at her college, which is UCI. |
| I was out in Tijuana with my other best friend. |
| Meeting my best friends that I made in high school |
| My best friend almost dying in an accident |
| losing my first love |
| My first romantic relationship |
| my first college party |
| my 18th birthday party |
| My 15 birthday party |
| My 5th birthday party |
| My 15 birthday party |
| winning a prize in a giveaway and my two ""best friends"" took the prize and didn't invite me over to use it with them |
| Made 3 free throws to win a Varsity basketball game |
| Maintaining long term friendships |
| Holidays with my family |
| Celebrated Chinese Lunar new year with friends in Hong Kong |
| Winning my first badminton tournament |
| Growing up christian |
| Meeting the Love of My Life |
| experiencing love for the first time |
| Promoting from Middle School |
| Promoting to High School |
| visiting my great grandfather with Alzheimers |
| W/my best childhood friend: Dulani -- call each other ""sisters"" tdy |
| Having a Great 4/5th Grade Teacher |
| First lecture. went really well and I loved my professor! |
| playing video games with my friends every weekend |
| Devoting time to playing tennis throughout high school |
| playing basketball with my friends at rec centers |
| Grad night having a fun night with my friends for like the last time |
| Being told by my friends that I'm a good listener and give good advice |
| When I first fell in love but learned that it wasn’t really love |
| Giving CPR to someone |
| festival at church at night |
| giving my commencement speech |
| my dad becoming my friend |
| Great times with my beautiful grandma and grandpa when I was young |
| My senior year friend group |
| Visiting my friend at Vegas |
| Resolving a conflict |
| I remember winning the CIF championship for our tennis team. |
| being in competitive cheerleading for four years |
| Took yoga class with friends |
| Standing up for my friends |
| Making new friends after highschool. |
| Making new friends in college |
| making friends in elementary school |
| Watching a movie with friends |
| Made friends in high school |
| Going to L.A. with friends |
| First secret Santa with friends |
| Celebrating my graduation and realizing how proud people were of me. |
| Getting awards for my gpa |
| Receiving my UCR acceptance letter |
| Life is interest for me |
| Becoming best friends with a girl who I mutually disliked |
| Watching my favorite tv show |
| The noble people I met |
| receiving my college acceptance letter |
| my friends really helping me through my struggles |
| Moving to Arkansas beginning of 9th grade and leaving my best friend |
| I was skating the streets of Seattle at midnight with best friend. |
| The loss of a soulmate |
| doing good on a test |
| Hanging out with my best friends before we all leave for college. |
| Meeting Brandon, who was my first love |
| Getting accepted to colleges. |
| Getting accepted into college |
| getting accepted to college |
| getting accepted to UCR |
| Getting accepted into college |
| Getting accepted to UCR |
| getting accepted into college |
| Getting accepted to UCR. |
| Being Accepted into Universities |
| Losing my first friend |
| Fighting with my friends |
| Winning competitions in kendo and kendama |
| Enjoying tacos and a local shop |
| going to my first party |
| Having a party at home |
| Feeling loved by everyone around me in my highschool graduation |
| I found friends that made me become a better person, socially |
| Getting cast as a supportive character in highschool play |
| Doing really well on triple jump and my coach praising me. |
| First time a child hugged me (my baby cousin) - made me feel warm and loved |
| Partying for the first time |
| Went to night markets with friend |
| My first sleepover with my friend |
| Went to ski with my friend |
| Kicking a guy's genitals because they were making fun of my friends. |
| Meeting first close friend in highschool |
| Getting close with my friend Claire |
| My life is okay |
| Going to Newport to look at the beautiful houses to get motivation. |
| Growing up having a strong relationship with my grandma & having her care for me has made me more sympathetic to old people. |
| Went to Philippine with friends twice |
| Wen to a concert with friends |
| Going to the beach with friends |
| Making new friends in 7th grade |
| Meeting my roommate and college friends |
| Renting a theatre with my friends |
| Wanting white friends in middle school |
| Watching my friends do long distance |
| getting food with friends during summer |
| Hanging out with family and friends. |
| Friends I made at my jobs |
| making friends at a new school |
| Friends leaving me in high school |
| driving to best friend's house everyday in quarantine |
| Playing with my brother |
| playing family at preschool |
| my acceptance letters to the universities |
| Watching my sister play softball |
| Playing youth league basketball. |
| Learning how to play piano |
| playing basketball in league |
| learning to play the cello |
| Watching my favorite movie in theaters |
| Playing with video games. |
| My 4th relationship - positive self reflection |
| Learning to play the piano |
| feeling weird around friends because they wanted to drink |
| Watching my great aunt pass in the hospital |
| Grad Nite at California Adventure |
| when my friend died |
| Growing up with cousins |
| Receiving most valuable athlete in high school. |
| I met one of my childhood best friends at my birthday in my early years |
| Spending my whole summer with friends & relying on going out made me value friendship more than before. |
| having my first kiss at 13 |
| Gaining close relationships with my siblings |
| Sharing a room with my roommate |
| Seeing my parents sacrifice a lot for me motivated me to always do my best. |
| having supportive parents and siblings |
| My siblings doing random things for fun |
| Found purpose in my life after being saved by God, going through trials that tested my faith |
| Going to my very first college party with my newly made college friends. |
| Becoming a Tia to my first niece. |
| Graduating as highest honors in High School. |
| The time my best friend sexually harassed my current girlfriend behind my back |
| Having a boxing match with a friend for fun before he left for college. |
| having to emotionally support my mom |
| watching my boyfriend follow his dreams |
| My first High School House party |
| Learning more about a subject I enjoy. |
| Graduating High school in the honor role |
| Being left out by a friend group |
| Tomb-Sweeping Day (Qing Ming festival) in 2010 |
| when friends car broke down |
| The day I made my first friend |
| Being very good at socializing at school |
| Getting high with my cousins during Christmas and having one the best laughs I've ever had |
| Growing up in church, my identity is a child of God. My best memories are in sunday school with all my friends every sunday morning |
| Being accepted into 6 Universities |
| Getting accepted to 7 colleges |
| learning how to love myself at a young age |
| Seeing my mom try her absolute best for me. |
| getting accepted into a UC |
| I made love to a Russian prostitute in Moscow |
| My mother is a kind woman, she influence me a lot. I am kind too. |
| Family coming over for the holidays |
| making a lot of friends in college |
| Going to knott's berry farm with friends |
| Sneaking into my friends house at night |
| Participated Leadership program with friends in 2019 |
| Lived in Boston University dormitory with friends |
| Team building exercises with friends during camp |
| I remember graduating alongside all my friends. |
| reconnecting with my old elementary school friends |
| making new friends in this new environment |
| Proofread college essays for my underclassmen friends |
| camping with my friends in my backyard |
| I was in 8th grade, me and my best friend at the time were going back home and I remember we always laughed and had a good time, I remember this because it was a happy pure memory |
| Grad night as Disneyland. Was extremely fun and chaotic, one last time to say goodbye and have fun with friends. |
| Graduating from ELA. I was so happy to finish the English learners program in fourth grade and I remember my teacher jumping, screaming, and hugging me with joy because she was really happy for me and I felt proud of myself to have accomplished that. |
| First frat party at ucla during halloween. really fun although extremely chaotic |
| Only having myself when my best friends broke up with me for a few months |
| My 15 big birthday party that was special for my family and I |
| I got accepted into all-stars softball after years of playing |
| Losing love for reading and books in highschool |
| I found I was good at math |
| Transferring colleges to play volleyball again |
| i played waterpolo, soccer, swim, dance |
| Getting my first straight A's |
| Getting my first straight A's |
| I remember the girl with the huge breasts that I was fond of. |
| losing my friends in middle school |
| The arabic show. We do this show every year for my arabic class and the first year was so fun, I met two of my other best friends and we practiced doing traditional dances, songs, and plays. It was so fun and I felt super connected to my culture and felt like those around me were like my family in that class. |
| I did cheer in freshmen of high school |
| Helping Ashley with her anxiety |
| Getting my first kiss outside my house |
| Rejecting a guy I liked |
| When i got an important character in 4th grade choir play |
| gaining large amounts of weight in highschool |
| Enjoying some unexpected time alone more compared to going out all the time with friends |
| Meeting an online friend for the first time |
| My great grandpa taught me how to ride a bike |
| Playing sports with my family |
| Deciding to quit playing soccer. |
| playing my first video game |
| playing videogames with my sister |
| Important conversations with my mom |
| playing basketball in middle school |
| My 21st birthday party at my house |
| Playing video games with cousins |
| Going to my white friend's birthday party |
| Playing tetherball during the summer. |
| Having personal conversations with my two closest friends |
| Going to New York with three other friends |
| driving my friends around for the first time |
| Investing in buying shoes, because that would make me happy! |
| When I realized who my real friends were |
| My first sleep over at my friends house |
| Recording my first song in my friends basement |
| When me and my sister finally became friends |
| my sister helping me with everything |
| Experiencing my first loss of a friend |
| My eighth memory was when I reviewed my first piano as a gift from my father. I was self taught and value my talent to play it today |
| Reaching ""Supreme"" (one of the highest ranks) in Counter Strike: Global Offensive |
| The first time I kissed a female |
| Being in toxic friendships throughout middle school |
| This girl I liked, I knew she liked someone else, and that completely changed me. |
| Convincing my dad to get me a speed racer novel that I never read, I thought the title looked cool |
| When my favorite teacher in middle school moved |
| My 1st best friend in elementary school threatened to choke me out in 6th grade. |
| Being fascinated with games ever since I've seen my family play with the Nintendo DS. |
| When I was shown actual love and found the person I want to be with |
| I got accepted into UC Riverside |
| fight with friend night before leaving taiwan |
| When I got accepted into universities |
| Getting accepted to and attending college. |
| Friend tried to kill themself |
| Learning how to get better at a game |
| growing up poor |
| first day of high school. I felt really nervous but I was really excited as well, and I got closer with someone who I knew from middle school but was not super close to and now were still best friends. |
| I won a few piano recitals back in elementary school |
| making my parents happy when I showed them my grades |
| Getting my first job and being promoted to manager, felt like someone finally believed me |
| The death of a close friend |
| getting a drive from a friend met in class |
| Making my promposal for my ex with my friend |
| Eating with my family together and laughing with them |
| Deciding to go to a festival the day of |
| Taking care of my siblings at a young age |
| When I was with my childhood friend watching fireworks |
| Taking care of cats that lived under the house |
| Grad night in middle school. I had a lot of fun and got to go on rides at six flags with my friends and laugh all night together. |
| The first time that I played tennis |
| Went to church to watch my dad play volleyball and eventually I started playing and continued to teach myself how to play and get better through the years |
| Making the wrong decision with a friend |
| Having one of my best friends say he hated me when he first met me because I didn't laugh at his joke. |
| While I hate my ex now, I remember being first asked out after our choir performances. It taught me how you can connect with someone with similar initial interests and what first love felt like. However, our couple of breakups, the reasons why, and my nights of crying to sleep (sometimes even during work shifts) really taught me what an unhealthy relationship looked like and what values I truly wanted (honesty not out of controlling but out of just respect and that deep friend connection, similar/the same conceptualizations of what cheating is, true inclusivity in shared friend groups (not just tolerance), prioritization in deep conversations (not solely just in giving gifts, physical affection, and dates. I wanted a balance in love languages), healthy work/life boundaries (aka respecting no call times during school/work), and the same future goals (Ex: marriage, no children but pets, etc.) as well as open-mindedness to differing political beliefs. |
| moving into college and having to meet new friends |
| Meeting my High School friends for the first time |
| Going out with my friends for the first time |
| Go traveled around the world during every holiday |
| first romantic experience with a girl from volleyball |
| When I started my first sport and found a love for basketball |
| Graduation, such a surreal feeling |
| Helping my father with cleaning the house |
| helping my dad work to make money |
| Getting made fun of my asian lunch in elementary school |
| Getting appendicitis - made me create more healthy habits, watch what I eat, be more hygienic |
| Seeing my friends go through bad experiences |
| Playing peter pan with my neighbors |
| Playing the Wii with my brother's |
| When I first started playing volleyball |
| playing basketball every day after school |
| playing basketball with strangers every week |
| Playing video games with my brother |
| Playing video games with my brother |
| Falling in love for the first time - realizing the extent to how much I could care about someone who wasn't family |
| having a really strong group I could talk to about anything |
| Obsessing over my Nintendo DS and playing games like Cooking Mama and one where it was like a math game and the dude's head is huge and floating. |
| Running into a friend I haven't seen in a while |
| My 7th grade and 8th grade friend group breaking up |
| getting my first real friend group in jr year highschool |
| My third memory happens to be in second grade when my best friend from kindergarten in which I have not seen since then came to visit me in class.This moment might have been the greatest satisfaction of having to see someone for a long time. |
| Entering college - scared but also eager after seeing how large the campus was and the workload and amount of learning needed to be successful |
| Taking ‘Transpersonal Psychology’ in high school, which definitely helped with my perception of myself and self growth. |
| losing a friend to suicide |
| came back and decided to get married to long time best friend(complicated relationship) |
| My relationship with God shapes my identity |
| Win the election and be the president of high school student council. |
| I joined the football team where I met close friends. |
| Going to the beach and having a bonfire with friends. |
| Having a comeback when someone said something mean to me in middle school and then becoming friends with his friends. |
| When I went to my first dance with my friends |
| When I first lost weight and felt so accomplished |
| helping my parents pay for my tuition |
| Learning different kinds of sports granted me the opportunity to utilize many skills into real-life situations. |
| My sister giving me advice everyday after school |
| Growing up in an Asian household |
| Growing up in a Hispanic household |
| Growing up in a suburban community |
| When I was little me and my brothers would play forts, it's such a comforting memory because we were all little kids and that's all we were happy kids. |
| doing a summer program at ucla health. This program solidified my interest in pursing a career in medicine and I remember how fun learning different techniques like suturing was. |
| when we went to disneyworld for make a wish |
| being able to follow my dreams with my boyfriend |
| My Mexican ""best friend"" telling me I was racist if I tried to stop her from claiming herself as Asian |
| My avid banquet when I got to get my sash and got to spend time with my friends |
| When I was around 10 years old, I got hurt by running into a wall. My family and cousins saw this and tried to help me as best they could. I then understood that people really do care about me and that I should also be like this toward my friends and family too. I learned to not be selfish. |
| Feeling my dads car to see if it is warm after playing outside. If it was warm that meant he just got home from the bar. |
| hearing certain songs while in specific places that match the mood of the song well |
| Got put through private catholic highschool to turn out better |
| Purchasing a gift for my parents for the first time. |
| Making videos with my little brother around the house and just being funny and laughing is a pure memory I have |
| struggling to fit in during middle school |
| My aunt getting cancer and I had to step up and take care to help my family. |
| My brother and I throwing surprise party for my parents anniversary... and another one for their birthdays |
| having really good sex with someone who i viewed as temporary |
| getting rejected from dream schools |
| When I witnessed one of my friends shoplifting and discovered that loads of classmates also exploited these opportunities. |
| In the 8th grade I calmed down a bit and was more grounded, and saw that people liked me |
| My fourth memory is the times I spent in 3rd to 5th grade with my best friend who had a disability speaking issue. This moment made me value those who have disabilities even more. |
| Back in August of 2021, I passed my Driver's License Test on my first try. It made me proud of my ability to accomplish big feats on my own. |
| My grandparents helping me through out my childhood. |
| People always tell me you are a outgoing girl, so now I am a outgoing girl. |
| Freshman year of high school getting a new group of friends |
| Sticking up for myself when my friend demanded an unjust apology from me |
| Hanging out with friends outside of school for the first time |
| When I found out that I had developed an eating disorder but didn’t care |
| Going for trips in the middle of the night with friends |
| My 16th birthday party because it was the last time I really saw all my friends and family before the shutdown |
| Playing minecraft for the first time and falling in love with the game so much and then getting addicted to it |
| playing at the park with my cousins |
| my 14th birthday party with my grandmother, parents, and siblings |
| the feeling of becoming an adult |
| Talking with my father about the principles of being a strong man |
| Convinced parents to let me go to public high school |
| Moving in with my current significant other |
| Playing baseball up until my junior year |
| playing for my middle school basketball team |
| Moving into my dorm, with the help of my family. |
| Playing video games for the first time |
| Learning how to play tennis for the first time |
| The creation of my longest lasting group chat |
| Going out on solo trips by myself - made me realize I don't need to go out places with friends all the time to enjoy things, can enjoy me time, time alone is therapy |
| when the dodgers won the world series during a bad year |
| When my grandma passed away, one truly painful memory |
| My mother telling me that I would be a good mother |
| I got my first car at 19 and I felt accomplished |
| Realizing I ultimately chose my college for reasons that weren’t necessarily good reasons (but now, I do not regret it!) |
| In 6th grade elementary school, I was the best trombone player in school, got designated one of the top 2 band players, and got to play a solo during a band performance. |
| Moving in! It was so fun and I was so excited, although I was stressed because I thought I lost a key. |
| the older i get, the more fond i am of kid shows |
| The death of a loved one- made me value people more and the time I have left with everyone around me |
| Recently, I hosted a wedding in Redland's citrus grove and a retirement event in the mountains at a farm for my brother's photobooth business. Those experiences grounded me with peace and allowed me to appreciate others' kindness (Ex: food giving, bug spray, etc.). Plus, it gave me perspective and possibilities for the future while also allowing me to gain wisdom from older individuals that have more life experience. Plus, it taught me the importance of taking a break in nature. |
| the first time i got bullied (good thing) |
| During my first week of 9th grade, I met new friends through a class acquiantaince who were more similar to me because they were focused on studies and accepting of my hobbies. |
| Feeling relieved when I got the news that my mother beat her cancer |
| growing up with only one present parent |
| Hanging out in NYC with my friends every day before I moved |
| my first time hanging out with some of my high school friends |
| Sharing a room with my mom, my sister and 3 cousins |
| Moving and sharing a room with my sister and my mom |
| Talking with my mother about the importance of being selfless |
| being cured, and finally having a painless life again |
| Separating from friends for college made me realize how quick people are to distance themselves from you and how they value you. |
| Watching the worship group practice when I was little |
| Getting rejected from my dream college |
| Avalanche - natural disaster, made me be more careful around terrain I'm not familiar with |
| Joining the IB program and specifically talking with my IB coordinator. When I talked to him, he was so understanding and supported and I felt that support was really important. |
| Graduation party where I realized that high school was really done |
| My dad always giving effort to be around us and having fun even though he would get home from long shifts of work |
| Seeing my father go through diabetic episodes and having to call the ambulance for him, it made grow to want to take care of my loved ones and notice when somethings wrong |
| When I lashed out at my mom trying to scold me because I seemed like I wasn't committed to my homework. It became a sentimental moment as she started tearing up but enlightened me that I should stop being so lenient. |
| When I realized I didn’t feel I was pretty enough as a girl |
| When I went to a rock festival with my boyfriend and his family |
| My mom telling me to get a better education cause she didn't |
| Uploading singing/piano covers and originals on youtube from 13-18 was an integral memory that made me realize my top value of emotional expression and open communication. Plus, it taught me perseverance and dedication/commitment as well as to pursue my dreams no matter what people said. |
| I remember the day I got accepted into universities. |
| In peru I have seen a lot of stray animals, that makes me love them a lot. |
| My friend rented a cabin in Big Bear for our friend group to stay at on night. We had so much fun and I bonded with many of them whom I never got to talk to much before. This showed me how important meeting new people can be for me and how much I enjoy having someone to talk to about anything. |
| covid hitting sophomore year and still doing well academically |
| Playing varsity soccer for senior year of highschool |
| I remember my research methods professor in community college would give me internships and career advice during office hours but also during her class at the end of the semester. Also, I remember she said that even after her class, we can always reach out to her. In fact, she was one of the most generous and caring professors I had, but she also taught me that it's ok to ask for advice/help and it's ok to not have the whole future planned out. She taught me that I need to get involved in different opportunities to solidify my true passions. which I'm currently planning to do for next quarter by applying for work study and/or maybe a lab. |
| Learning from my elementary teachers the importance of treating others the way you want to be treated |
| My middle school friend group and their negative influence on me |
| realizing that my grandma favors my brother over me |
| Being a first generation, and having my family be so proud when I told them I want to go to college. |
| Using communication to resolve an issue instead of abandoning it |
| I want to know how to evaluate a good person when I was did one thing broken. |
| Always having to be aware and alert of men's intentions |
| I loved and hated my high school experience. I met lots of good people and had great experiences but I also developed a lot of physical and mental health issues. |
| growing up as the oldest daughter and grandchild |
| When I first met my dog Hera at 8 weeks old and felt so much joy and company |
| Starting college, I'm in a journey to discover who I am. I feel like I don't fit in here at UCR. It has made me feel lonely and depressed, but I am pushing through in hopes of making my parents proud. |
| My experience as a competitive chess player is significant to who I am. A distinct memory I have is of winning the CA Kindergarten State Championship and running towards my coach right after. As competitive player I spent countless weekends playing tournaments over the years and being part of the chess community shaped how I think and how I interact with others. |
| Feeling lost during my break up |
| After the passings of my grandparents, I realized that it is important to always check upon people who I care about the most. |
| Experiencing college and feeling so alone |
| Having to protect my younger siblings alone from an 8.4 Earthquake |
| I remember singing ""This girl is on Fire"" by Alicia Keys in class and two of my fellow classmates complimenting me, then encouraging me to join my 5th grade's talent show. After their encouragement, I sang ""Just Give Me a Reason"" at the 5th grade talent show and my brother posted it on Youtube. This is a very fundamental memory for me because it shaped my continual development as a blossoming singer and made me realize/enjoy the feeling of bringing/entertaining people as a whole at events. |
| In elementary school, I liked a boy who I later found out didn’t like me back. My friend asked him what he thought of me, but all he saw me as was “the girl with the ugly skin,” which definitely damaged my perception of myself growing up. |
| Studying for a test because I wanted to do well |
| When I got accepted into my college prep high school |
| going to my favorite english teacher in high school Mr. Perez's classroom during lunch |
| On the other hand, getting rejected from auditions (honor choir, solo songs in middle school, and my county's holiday music fair) taught me that it's ok to accept failure and mistakes, then to work on them rather than dwell on it. As a person, it taught me how to accept constructive criticism with grace and how to implement feedback. It also taught me the importance of adaptation to different contexts (sometimes you need to sing classical and other times, pop holiday music. The same could be said about life. Sometimes it's best to do things one way, but other times a new approach is needed). |
| I had a part time job for about 2 months to save up some money |
| meeting new people and figuring out if I like them or not |
| My ex-girlfriend, whom I was best friends with for two years prior to dating, completely stopped talking to me after a month and I never heard from them again for another two years. |
| not much more i can remember or would like to keep private |
| UCR Orientation. Hell on earth because I got my period and they wouldn't let me change until I begged them. Although, met some really cool friends! |
| First real/best/good friend - made me have a different perspective of life, taught me things I didn't know about myself and the world, shaped my life for the better |
| I stood up for myself by cutting contact with a very needy but emotionally unavailable friend in eighth grade. |
| In high school, I took a class called Transpersonal Psychology. In the class, we did an activity called the Truth Process where we would go around in a circle as a class and share things we wouldn’t normally share. I shared a series of events that filled me with guilt, ultimately reflecting and concluding that I am not my mistakes. It helped with my self growth. |
| Playing nintendo games throughout my childhood and pre-teen years |
| Playing video games and watching anime simultaneously during covid |
| watching mom and dad fight growing up |
| Tutoring online for the DRC at my community college as well as the workshops required influenced me to become a more diversity accepting person and open minded person to learning from others. Plus, it taught me the power of being able to manage my own work schedule and how freedom in decisions is a huge value of mine in the workplace. Besides that, it's taught me that |
| I didn't get my birthday celebrated due to bad grades and being disrespectful one time |
| I was surprised to realize that some of my friends truly believed in God and that made me question religion twice. However, I still don't believe in God, but now I understand why people do. |
| Seeing my brother enlist in the military; making want to do something important with my life |
| When I went to the Natural History Museum with my 5th grade class and we were running up this hill and it started raining but we were all just happy to be there |
| Helping my cousin when her dog go sprayed by a skunk. |
| Preparing for my Sweet sixteen birthday, which ended up being very extravagent and I thank my parents and family members for all the work they put in |
| My art teacher giving me a C for an anatomy assignment but giving another kid who drew the head way too big an A |
| giving a homeless man money after my dad told me not to |
| Graduation and the IB Banquet. It was hard to say bye to everyone but I was excited for a new chapter. I remember driving in the car screaming to music with my friends. |
| Graduation and the IB Banquet. It was hard to say bye to everyone but I was excited for a new chapter. I remember driving in the car screaming to music with my friends. |
| growing up in mexico as a full chinese descendant |
| Growing up with only one parent in the household |
| having a falling out with many of my close friends due to this new relationship |
| College admissions made me feel like a failure and realize that there is a fallacy in this so-called holistic process and that many run by luck. |
| Meeting my closest friends gave me another sense of self-realization. In my early high school years I felt as if I was straying away from who I really was and tried to become a ""people pleaser."" When I met my close friends, I felt myself returning to normal. I was in a situation where I felt most comfortable and began learning more about myself. |
| Taking my drivers test and being so nervous, then at the end pulling into a parking spot and the lady telling me I passed and being filled with relief and excitement. |
| I had my conformation and could then become a special minister of my church. |
| I went to a party for the first time soon after my highschool graduation |
| Being good at saving money up as a kid and realizing other people were not |
| A true memory I really love is when I first meet my now current boyfriend at my local grocery store when he asked if I needed help finding items in the baking aisle. He taught me how true connections can be made even in the most mundane contexts and that life is full of surprises, but also I found someone who has similar values and respects my boundaries. Plus, he's exposed me to different cultural customs since he's italian/german/hispanic and made me realize that the right person will go the extra step not just to surprise you with gifts, but to nurture you in your not so best times and accept you in them. |
| Going to the Drive ins every weekend with friends and watching movies that just came out. |
| the girls on my block playing spice girls. |
| Being told that I was ugly by all of my middle school crush's friends |
| walking through the halls and greeting almost everyone in my grade before I moved |
| Waking up at 7:00 am on a weekend to play a computer game |
| My bestfreind committing suicide |
| I used to be like a tomboy in my home country until I became kind of passive eversince I moved to LA |
| when I was admitted into 3 mental hospitals |
| When I was in high school and I had a couple of friends who treated me badly. they never thought of me as a friend, rather used me instead. I later learned that some people don't care about relationships and just do things that benefit themselves. |
| My mother telling me ""my son is so smart"" for the first time as an adult |
| I remember attending summer camp for the first time in sixth grade. I really did not want to go, and I developed really bad social anxiety during that time. At first, I felt really uncomfortable and I just wanted to leave but then I grew to really like it and made really good friends there. I attended it every summer up until quarantine. |
| I wasn't invited to a birthday party because I was ""too weird"" in elementary |
| Being placed into my 5th grade ELD class, even when I spoke perfect English, simply because I was Middle Eastern. |
| One day when I was in Grand Teton National Park, I became obsessed with the Jalapeno Kettle Brand Chips that my brothers were eating. Ever since then, they have made me much more passionate about snacking. |
| Last year, my closest friend passed away. My life completely changed in a negative manner. |
| Disliking learning Indian classical dance for 12 years but liking it after I quit, so I started learning again |
| starting a new relationship and learning my worth as a person |
| On my 7th birthday, I cried and I don't remember exactly why but I remember my family comforting me |
| One day around 2 years ago, me and my mom drove around and did several Pokemon Go boss battles and won around 6-7 times because of my strategies. It made me feel proud of my planning skills. |
| Played my first year of high school volleyball my senior year for another school |
| Seeing my mom work so hard night and day- kitchen to computer desk...along with my dad taking up the challenge when she got sick to be the best father |
| Ditching my Avid class senior year to hang out in the counselors office |
| My fifth memory was the time I recieved my first pet cat around my middle school years who I still have today, and I appreciate and value her very much. |
| When I went to Disneyland at 9 years old with my family and friends for the first time |
| Back in May, I was able to get a 4 and a 5 on my 2 AP exams. It made me appreciate the value of taking practice tests and studying. |
| Getting into the top 40 academically my junior year of highschool |
| I was emitted into one of my top choices for university. |
| Playing Wii with my cousins. WiiSports, WiiPlay, Just Dance, Disney Karaoke |
| Random clips I made from playing Rainbow Six Seige and NBA2k20 |
| Competing in my first Super Smash Bros. Melee (fighting video game) tournament and getting completely destroyed in my bracket |
| Me helping out my cousins when they seem they are in trouble. |
| In October of senior year of high school, I tried asking out this girl in my class, but she rejected me because she was a Muslim. It definitely hurt me inside, but I was able to peacefully take the loss. |
| Hanging out with my childhood friends who were older than me and they taught me a lot of mannerisms |
| Not being friends with the friend I had since elementary school. I found out his friend was talking bad about me to others and was just over all really toxic towards me for the past few years, and I remember how freeing it was when I told her that I knew and walked away. |
| Realizing that the people I play games with depend on me to be the leader |
| When I shaved my hair from stress buildup struck a bit of regret but also a strong understanding that ADHD is no laughingstock. |
| Playing soccer as a kid and absolutely hating it |
| Getting bullied by my own cousin when I was being taken care of by their own mother |
| feeling bullied by my fifth grade teacher |
| I remember in 8th grade I won an MVP award/medal for top grades and performance/personality as a student by my favorite history teacher named miss Brown. Personally, I never really like history (especially 1800s, civil wars, and geography). However, this memory makes me tear up sometimes because I was the last student she gave an award to before she got fired and rumors spread around about her absence (""she became ill and needed surgery,"" etc.). I never knew what happened to her and sometimes I miss the deep life talks I had with her (Ex: how to get involved in high school? Should I join certain clubs or classes if I feel I'm not well-suited for them? What's your best advice for high school and beyond?), but just the thought that a teacher had so much faith and hope in me as a student really influences me today when I experience imposter syndrome as an undergrad. I remember that I still have those basic qualities of a top student (perfect attendance, detailed notes, on time assignments mostly, and always asking questions) and I belong in academia. |
| Made important phone calls for my parents because they didn't know English |
| Auditioning for my high school's top madrigals choir and getting accepted was the start of my journey as a soprano section leader as well as the choir's top contra soprano to sing descants. It was a time of travel to the Mission Inn's church, Sizzler, Redland's University, and Cal State Fullerton where I sang carols/classical music and admired other choirs in competition. Also, it led me to sing the alma mater for my school's online graduation during Covid. These experiences shaped me as a musician and encouraged me to further hone these skills in college (and beyond if I audition for the Voice). However, it all started from a simple audition into it and acceptance, which I will never forget. |
| When my parents kept yelling at me and making snarky remarks at me for missing days of school, defaming me in front of their relatives and stating that they're convinced I won't graduate every week. Even though it was clear the records indicated that I had a cumulative gpa of 4.0, I was neglected. This event made me understand that I should start caring about what my true objective is. |
| My first job when I was in a lot of overwhelming situations, keeping a very optimistic view |
| I almost got stabbed in school for making a joke about someones hair |
| Getting my heart broken/rejected - realizing how much it hurts, experiencing a different type of sadness, but thankful I'm able to experience that much sadness over a relationship |
| My first B in a class after getting straight A’s my entire life |
| Growing up in a family that had a very poor economic background as well as struggling to bring money into the family |
| One day when I was seven my mom took me to go see my uncle perform in a band. We went there and I remember being so proud of him and excited to see him perform that day. I saw a small crowd but did not care since I was just focused on my uncle. Once he performed I thought it was so cool that for many years after this I wanted to become a singer just like him. I do not want to be a singer now but I do still want to do something with music in my life. |
| Being responsible for a living thing - getting my first ever pet when I was four |
| I also remember the day I was rejected from my dream schools. |
| At the very start 9th grade, I finally decided to leave behind my toxic middle school friends who would constantly belittle my interests and peer pressure me into doing embarrassing things. |
| Showing up late to my first class (Ceramics) in high school everyday made me realize that I shouldn't feel guilty and how the teacher thinks but rather consider where I value my personal decisions. |
| Going over to my cousin's house where our Grandma would babysit us and we would have the most fun time in the backyard playing with bugs and messing with the chicken that my cousin had in their backyard |
| Getting into high school drama which ruined some friendships, becoming one of my #1 regrets |
| Seeing how when someone gets in a romantic relationship, they just stop doing the things they normally do. |
| Moving to the United States and living with my Aunt for a couple of months and getting to know my cousin better and assimilating into American Culture. I remember getting off the plane and sitting next to my cousin who I am very close to now on the way to their house, being amazed by the roads and the houses we drove by. |
| My 15th birthday which was the last day of my freshman year and when I also had my first kiss |
| My mom having to pick me up from girl scout camp because I had attachment issues. |
| Laughing to the point where I started crying because of all the chaos that was happening during dinner. |
| Feeding a black cat at the temple even though the monk was telling me that they were bad luck. |
| skiing through what felt like a blizzard. It was very windy and the snow stung on my cheeks |
| Relatedly, I remember when my community college English 1B professor gave voice audio feedback on my semester paper to say that I should publish it in the school's journal/research portal because it was that well written. Also, I remember the fact that she literally edited my UCR essays in a couple days by 12 am and that her quote was ""Don't let perfection be the enemy of the good."" The very first part boosted my self-esteem as a writer and even influenced me to seek out research labs now. Also, it's reinforced my dream to possibly write a book and publish it or at least write my original songs for youtube. However, as someone with ADD and major procrastination issues due to heightened anxiety over having everything perfect, her quote has become my moto during tough times now as a student and again, her grading my essays really late made me realize that while we shouldn't override boundaries and be more responsible, you should have the minimum expectation that your faculty and colleagues want you to succeed because you're a good enough scholar/worker/person! |
| Being depressed during covid time and feeling alone. |
| Diving for the first time and bellyflopping onto the pool |
| When my parents told me they were getting divorced it felt like my life was over and I thought I would never be happy again, but I am okay now. |
| Building closer relationships with those older friends who I now see as sisters and they really shaped me to who I am today |
| Playing a big game of Cops and Robbers around City Heights with my Neighbors |
| After entering the college life, I was very homesick. Staying in this type of environment made my mentality stronger. |
| My second episodic memory was when it was my fifth birthday and I had very little consciousness on what was going on, however in that moment I felt the greatest sense of satisfaction of obtaining gifts, cake, and a large gathering of people I knew, knowing it couldn't get any better than this. |
| Constantly worked on my volleyball skills in my backyard and supported my girls volleyball team during their seasons. |
| Getting to see Harry Styles in concert, he told me thank you for bringing him flowers, this is a core memory for me one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Being able to look up to someone for 12 years and counting and getting that interaction with them. |
| Learning to use acrylic paint and color pencils to create texture on a canvas at age 14. |
| Always being outside with other kids and creating memories with them that still feel nostalgic to this day |
| I was forced to leave my old high school because all the people that I was friends with stopped talking to me. |
| When I was little I always looked forward to my dad coming home and getting to hug him. He worked a lot because we needed money. |
| Being forced to share my 12th birthday with my little cousin who's birthday was a month prior |
| Feeling hopeless when my girlfriend's family constantly bully her |
| Growing up in the same town and learning so much about others and their situations |
| Growing up and hearing stories from my parents of what they had to go through |
| I moved schools abruptly and didn't get to say bye to my elementary friends. I was put into a new school where I only knew one person. |
| My attendance to my Aunt's church in Riverside where the pastor engaged others' in biblical discussions and cited the importance of particular verses to our lives followed by pop church bands/musicians really changed my perspective on religion. In fact, I haven't been to church since Covid, but I have always told myself that I want to buy a bible from harvest church and go back to find a church that suits me. This is because I realized religion and spirituality doesn't have to be mundane and one dimensional in interpretation/view. It can be engaging an down to earth like real life. |
| Giving personal life information for school staff struck the revelation that most people do not care about your personal life but rather that this is their line of work and they are more committed to their task over their moral compass. |
| My family granted me the choice to take any pathway I was willing to take for my future. |
| My experience as basketball player throughout high school is significant to who I am. I specifically remember a game I made 5 threes in and I remember everything I felt that day as I could see the hours I had put into the courts pay off. The intense multi-hour long conditionings and long tumultuous seasons helped expose me the importance of perservance and grit as well as leadership qualities. |
| Playing through the campaign of Halo 3 with my cousins when I first got my Xbox 360 |
| The piano shaped the majority of my future when I started playing at the age of six. |
| My father giving me and brother a life lecture about not giving up in life no matter how hard things get |
| Going to church with my parents and slowly growing out of the religion as I got older |
| Growing up dancing in the studio around 10 hours a week every year since I was 3 |
| My first day of Kindergarten, I cried and felt like I was extremely attached to my mom. I didn't want to let go |
| I chose to go to a public high school rather than a college high school where I can get college credits starting my freshman year. |
| When my aunts tried to humiliate me by comparing my experience with their child's achievements, while trying to exploit me for opportunities and connections for their younger child. Although I remained reserved, I was adamant on redeeming myself and held goals to soon show that I can demonstrate higher academic achievements for the sake of my pride. Even though it doesn't seem to be the righteous decision, I'm keen on redeeming myself. |
| Last 8th grade field trip to Medieval times, everyone in my 8th grade was super close to everyone and to see it was our last field trip before our lives changed going into high school will always stay with me |
| My parents not being around as much growing up because they had to work most of the time. |
| My childhood dog passing away and it made me feel like I'm leaving behind my childhood and I am entering a new chapter of my life. |
| my dad and uncle engaging in an argument due to my uncle being drunk and difficult in front of my grandmother |
| Back in August, I started watching this Disney Cartoon called ""Amphibia"". I initially thought it was kind of boring, but soon came to appreciate its lessons about how you should always try to grow as a person. |
| When my parents called me failure for college rejections even though I highly believed that my grades weren't the attribute of my rejection even from my safety schools. This moment caused me to realize how stubborn parents can't be and that they are adamant on what they believe. People tend to focus on the errors than the successes. |
| In 7th grade middle school, I was really bad at debate and had a partner who sucked even more, but during one debate I actually managed to convince some people in my class of my position. However, I goofed up and lost all support when I suggested something related to intentionally sacrificing US troops during war. |
| Receiving my one of few gifts ever received from a school therapist gave insight that some people do see little value of me. |
| Realizing I was not getting into the top 40 my senior year of high school, which destroyed me |
| When I ate food with meat from Taco Bell that wouldn't be permissible for a Muslim to eat, I felt like I was finally starting to become independent. |
| When my mom went to take care of her mom in India, I was able to become more independent by driving out on my own to buy groceries and meals for the rest of my family. |
| After years of slowly losing interest in it, I finally left behind the religion of Islam because I just didn't believe in any of it and had no passion for it. |
| I worked at the medical records section of a clinic for a few months, and it helped me realize the value of working hard for your own money. |
| Not having running water for a week because we couldn't afford to pay the water bill. |
| In high school, people didn't take relationships very seriously. They would just do what they wanted regardless of what others thought was right or wrong. When I moved in for college, I met so many new people who were the opposite and cared about each other. I learned that all relationships were important. |
| While chaotic, I remember crying while taking an online midterm last year and how I still passed with an A/B. This taught me how strong/resilient I am as an academic scholar and how I'm able to persevere in the most difficult times through my inner motivating voice/thoughts. It taught me coping mechanisms for how to calm myself down really quick in contexts. |
| when i was around 9, my older sister was 18 and would get paid to babysit myself and my younger siblings, 7 and 3. She would sleep while i would attempt to make food and take care of the youngest. |
| I had an intense fear of death in elementary school. So much so that I had turned to religion (christianity for 5 years) before I decided it wasn't for me and just accepted nothingness after death. |
| Walking up a long series of stairs in a very windy place to get to ruins at the top of a hill |
| Brandon breaking my heart, it was my first heartbreak and it felt like my heart literally broke into pieces, one of the most hurting things I experienced |
| My first episodic memory I can remember was when I got in trouble in kindergarten for getting in a fight with another kid. My mom did not hit me but was emotionally disappointed in me which forever changed me as a person in a way where I became more considerate of others. |
| I had an accident a couple years ago that caused me to be hospitalized for a week because my heart had stopped beating. I just woke up from a small coma in a hospital and wondered why I was there. I remember everything feeling like a dream but when I figured out it was real I did not know exactly how to feel. I was told that my heart stopped twice and I technically was clinically ""dead"" twice. I had surgery for the first time in my life which made the event feel more surreal. After this moment I felt so grateful for having a life and live every day with meaning. |
| My grandpa passing away while I was in 6th grade, I heard it from my friend at school about his passing since she overheard my mom and teacher on the phone. experienced loss young and had to find out from someone else |
| Watching these YouTube videos where casual racist remarks are made became an influence to viewers to tolerate racism more. |
| I had many crushes, some which liked me back but I was never mentally ready so I never truly experienced proper dating |
| When I was in around 2nd grade, I finally was able to steadily ride on a bike after practicing a lot to balance myself. Soon, I became good enough to where I could kick off on my own without training wheels. |
| Going on my very first date. We ate bingsoo, watched “Top Gun”, went on a hike while watching the sun set, and talked for hours. |
| My sessions with my therapist and my hard-headed side that is incapable of change in beliefs, helped understand that therapy is dependent on the patient. People only change when they want to and/or is open to change. Therapy isn't a magic remedy, it is more of emotional regulation. |
| My dad beating up my uncle at Christimas time at his moms house.. Having to leave behind my favorite shoes. My grandma, my cousin and myself hiding in the restroom and my dad barging into the door and grabbing me and pushing my grandma down. |
| Just a few weeks ago, I got my mom to start watching the cartoon ""Avatar: The Last Airbender"" with me. It helped me realize that even with how different we all are, it is possible to get my family members interested in my hobbies. |
| College acceptances and rejections. Broke me down for an entire month in tears, but eventually I changed my perspective on things and I grew from that disappointment. |
| My sixth memory was when I visited my aunt in the hospital who have some sort of heart problem around 2010 I believe. I felt very scared thinking of what would become of her is she wasn't cured. (luckily she was and is doing good today) |
| Playing basketball made me realize my potential as a leader and realize that everyone can work together to reach a common goal no matter the differences. It made me view people in a different light, I would tend to judge my teammates based on how I saw them on the outside without getting to know them on a more personal level. |
| One day in sixth grade, I became so overwhelmed that I started crying during P.E. and continued crying for another 45 minutes until I went back home. |
| I was with my mom, aunt, and older sister when we got into a freeway accident on the way home. My life literally flashed between my eyes. |
| My first day in an American school. I felt like an outcast since my English wasn't very good and found it frustrating to communicate with others, I also felt really behind compared to other students since I did not speak fluent English. I remember walking around by myself in the playground and trying to get used to everything. |
| My dad's cardiac arrest. Watching my dad go through dad in front of me and being in a coma for a while was really hard and one of the most life changing experiences. I was there when it happened and the image of him foaming at the mouth was hard to picture. I had to be there for my family, start working at our family ice cream shop, and pick up a lot of responsibilities as well as checking up on my dad (although I could not visit him because of covid) |
| When I was in high school and my cousin was diagnosed with cancer |
| When my boyfriend asked me to be his girlfriend |
| I have experienced chronic migraines as far as I can remember. |
| When my oldest brother got surgery on his appendix, it was a sad day |
| Going every Sunday morning to watch my brothers soccer games |
| When I was six, it was a Saturday afternoon and I remember making bracelets with my mom, it's such a heart-whelming memory |
| 2010 Christmas, all my cousins were getting gifts but me and my brothers didn't get any because my dad didn't have enough money for gifts, it was a very sad thing as a kid but I understood my family was poor |
| Crying a lot in front of the bathroom mirror when I was 14 because I felt so insecure about myself |
| When me and my family got evicted from home and we were homeless for months |
| First day of High School, I felt out of place |
| March 13, 2020; life was never the same |
| The first day I began journalism to deal with my trauma and pain |
| The first day of senior year, which was the day we came back to campus in person for the first time in over an year |
| Gradnite, one last trip before my life was going to completely change once again |
| Move in day for college, saying goodbye to my family |
| My first communion |
| Meeting my siblings for the first time |
| Applying for college |
| Going to Vegas for the first time |
| Going to children's court |
| Getting on my first rollercoaster |
| High school graduation |
| High school prom |
| Meeting my boyfriend |
| When I lost my first tooth |
| First heartbreak |
| Moving out |
| Adopting a cat |
| My dad going to rehab |
| Visiting the family graveyard |
| Writing short stories |
| Reading manga |
| Watching tv |
| Arguing online |
| My seventh memory was when I met my girlfriend in middle school. she has made me a more social person overall. |
| Taking a depression test during a checkup at the doctors. |
| Going to a field trip with my little sister and mom. |
| My trip to Florida. |
| Constantly moving homes during elementary school. |
| Graduating high school, concluded for me that life was about to get serious. I was lost and still am but high school is what made me realize that reality hit and the road ahead of me is going to be hard. |
| The death of my grandma, it hit me hard since it was during covid, and I wasn't allowed to see her. Even till this day I have trouble understanding the situation It haunts me and I am trying to overcome it. |
| My aunt teaching me how to tie my shoes. |
| Getting lost at Disneyland. |
| Missing my first soccer game to go to Sea World. |
| Reading for the first time as a hobby. |
| Having someone close to me passing away. |
| My dad taking me to trips. |
| My aunt talking me to different colleges. |
| My aunt and uncle talking about how I should go to college to earn a degree. |
| At highschool when I recieved the news about Covid. |
| graduation high school and wannting to further my education. |
| The separation of my parents at a young age |
| Getting in trouble for hanging out with the worng group. |
| Being bullied for my hair and race |
| Being devalued by my parents for being a drug user (weed), in my teenage years |
| Being peer pressured into fitting in on a regular basis starting in middle school, and ended after I got arrested multiple times in highshcool |
| Getting my High school Diploma |
| My first day of college |
| Going to my first concert |
| Turning 18/becoming an adult |
| My first job |
| going to cousin's house every weekend |
| grandma's house every weekend |
| house getting raided |
| dad and mom divorcing |
| dad picking me up from school everyday |
| going to a predominantly Mexican elementary school |
| 1st period sophomore year of high school |
| dad crying at the local park |
| walking to dad's house after middle school |
| first dog dying |
| first heartbreak |
| when my father and I stopped speaking to each other |
| grandma forgetting my name for the first time |
| first car accident |
| getting a brand new car |
| quarantine walks |
| summer after high school |
| being the youngest of 5 |
| finding out i'm actually the youngest of 6 |
| my stepdad becoming my dad |
| grandma getting alzheimer's |
| dad being on house arrest |
| dad hitting mom for the first time |
| dad's overall abuse |
| getting my first job |
| being independent |
| being involved in softball for more than 6 years |
| Deciding that I couldn't play softball anymore because it made me anxious and not fun anymore |
| March 13th 2020 when the shutdown first began |
| When I broke both of my wrists at the same time and couldn't really do anything |
| when my younger sister was born |
| My 18th birthday going to Disneyland with my family |
| My mother teaching traditional Egyptian recipes and serving them to my family. |
| moving to the us from korea |
| Singing in church |
| Moving to the US |
| First Day of Kindergarten |
| Birthday Celebration at my elementary school |
| Moved elementary school's |
| Getting my first period |
| First day of Middle School |
| Becoming choir and band president |
| First day of high school |
| Met my longtime boyfriend |
| Began dating my boyfriend |
| losing my virginity |
| worse depression, anxiety of my life, problems at home |
| COVID-19 |
| Being at home with my family |
| Going back to school senior year |
| three year anniversary with my boyfriend |
| was gifted my first car |
| gradnite |
| graduation |
| summer break before college |
| college orientation |
| purchasing my own first car |
| first day of college |
| I did a lot of sports |
| I saw one piece |
| I decided to go to ucr |
| I started to procrastinate during covid |
| I am disappointed by the fact I am controlled by my fear. |
| Learning to Skate |
| Moving to Long Beach |
| Moved to a new school (multiple memories) |
| Parents divorcing |
| Watching my first Tarantino film |
| Separated parents |
| Absent father |
| First time meeting my baby brother |
| Visiting Mexico when I was younger |
| Reunited both families at my Quince |
| Being bullied for my skin color |
| I graduated highschool with a high GPA |
| I got my first car |
| Graduating high school |
| My dad becoming a single dad |
| Meeting my boyfriend |
| Going to the beach with my grandma |
| Walking to school with nana |
| My sister being born |
| starting college |
| Grandma passing away |
| Learning how to cook with my mom |
| Talking about life with my dad while walking my dog at night |
| My first trip by myself |
| Learning how to knit with my grandmother |
| Moving in by myself for the first time; calling my new place ""home"" for the first time instead of calling my parent's house ""home"" |
| My first day at work |
| Starting my first college assignment |
| Getting my first low grade on a college test |
| Discovering grief with my dog passing away |
| Going on my first vacation with my boyfriend |
| speaking spanish throughout my whole life and people being suprised when they see me |
| moving around several times for elementary from to different countries |
| being bullied for my weight |
| leading youth group at church |
| piano lessons in 1-2 grade |
| church summer camp |
| leaving school early to come to america |
| Christmas performances for church, in taiwan and america |
| summer camp back at taiwan with american youths |
| not great interaction with some classmates first year |
| binge reading starting from 4th grade- read entire harry potter series |
| 1st crush in 4th grade |
| mortifying christmas perfromance in 4th grade |
| promotion in 5th grade |
| psychology class in junior year learning about episodic memory |
| high school graduation |
| hearing covid news, school pausing |
| dealing with younger sister's suicide confession and coming out |
| first day of college at cpp |
| first day moving in apartment after transferring to ucr |
| First time riding my bike without training wheels |
| First time driving a car |
| Losing my first tooth |
| Moving out |
| Moving to California |
| Leaving High School |
| First major breakup |
| Dealing with SA |
| Deciding to go to UCR |
| Being hospitalized |
| Coming out |
| Defending myself in a toxic work environment |
| Taking my first psychology class |
| Realizing what actually happened in my childhood |
| Christmas eve and Christmas day 2017 |
| Having a single mother |
| Being Low income |
| Not have many opportunities as others |
| Life threatening sickness with my stomach |
| Getting in trouble with the authorities |
| getting put into counseling because of my grades |
| getting out of counseling because of my overall change in academics, and performances. |
| Getting an academic grade in 8th grade because of my grades turning around |
| Entering High School with the thought of a new beginning |
| Joining my first sport Wrestling |
| Choosing UCR as my final Decision |
| Completing my first week in UCR |
| Feeding The Homeless |
| Seeing Drug Addicts |
| Visiting The Prison |
| meeting my baby sister |
| the first day of middle school |
| getting sand dumped in my hair by my cousin at age 4 |
| graduating 8th grade |
| first band camp |
| first band competiton |
| YALE summer camp |
| covid at the end of senior year |
| moving into dorms |
| moving into an apartment |
| falling into a fountain at a plaza |
| tearing my acl |
| driving my car for the first time |
| Becoming captain of my high school xc team. |
| Running my first college xc race. |
| Graduating high school. |
| Being MVP of my high school soccer team. |
| Overcoming mental health issues. |
| Going to a Bad Bunny concert. |
| Painting in my room during covid. |
| Doing an internship over the summer. |
| Passing my drivers test. |
| Moving into my college dorm. |
| Asking a girl who had no friends to hang out with me. |
| Learning about the gaming community. |
| Moving to the untied stated |
| High school Graduation |
| Getting married |
| First child born |
| Second child born |
| getting a divorce |
| moving to Arizona |
| working at the airport |
| getting remarried |
| having marriage problems |
| birthing my third chid |
| my fourth child |
| my fifth child birth |
| my twins borns |
| my pregnancy with the twins |
| my illness during pregnancy |
| my separation from my husband |
| going back to school |
| covid |
| daughter missing |
| finding my daughter |
| daughter wedding |
| being selected as the commencement speaker |
| first day UCR |
| working for college Corp |
| filling for a divorce |
| dating after 18 years |
| The time I impaled my arm and got stiches |
| Not being able to see my mom because she worked when I got back from school when in elementary |
| Many of my relatives passing away at young ages |
| Sitting in the living room crying |
| My parents struggling and working to provide for us |
| My parents separated when I was 3 |
| I rolled my sister's bike in a cowpie in the rain |
| Hit a granny shot in a basketball game and went to a buffet after |
| Skating around town at 3 am |
| Attempting self harm 4 years ago and my dad came to my house |
| Sitting outside my ex's house to talk through our problems at 12 am |
| Breaking the window to the laundry room with a tennis ball |
| My brother farted in my sister's face with his pants down when he was 9 |
| My dad would jump on my bed and wake me up when it was my birthday |
| I attended junior college classes with my dad in 1st grade |
| Taking my ex stargazing at 4 am |
| After interacting with more and more liberal media, I have found myself shifting more and more towards conservatism. |
| Moving back to the US and also moving from the US were both impactful experiences. |
| When i graduated high school |
| When I watched anime with my siblings when i was younger |
| When i failed my first class |
| When I first started listening to music with my dad |
| When I first learned to drive |
| When I left Colorado and moved out to California |
| The last month or two of my first year in high school |
| When my little brother was born |
| My first performance |
| My first audition |
| My first acting workshop |
| Getting my first sketchbook |
| My first day of elementary school |
| Bringing my first dog home |
| Bringing my second dog home |
| Learning to drive |
| Learning to ride a bike |
| Moving to college |
| Working as an RBT |
| Training in Boxing |
| Spending time with family |
| Taking the iniative to try new things |
| Going to anime conventions |
| Going to many concerts |
| Traveling to another state and country |
| Signing up on social media |
| Los Alamitos |
| Covid |
| Church |
| San Diego |
| Oxford |
| Moving to America |
| Making Varsity basketball team |
| Getting dinner with family |
| Going early morning lake fishing with my father when I was 9 years old |
| My grandfather reading me ""where the wild things are"" before I went to bed |
| me and my little brother climbing an oak tree in my backyard |
| early morning birdwatching with my brother |
| spending the days surrounding new years with my aunt and cousins |
| visiting an art museum with my parents |
| taking music classes |
| attending my first concert |
| adapting to my disabilities at a young age |
| countless lectures my parents would give me as a kid |
| school and everything about it, especially throughout elementary |
| competing against other people through sports or academics |
| 5/6 going to the snow in Tahoe area and then visiting the decorated Christmas houses while staying with my grandparents in Nevada City, Ca. |
| my mom picking me up from Kindergarten on friday and running to the bank to pull out money before my dad used it all at the bar.. |
| visiting my grandfather at 11 in the ICU and him not being responsive. He died and my first funeral |
| My dad smacking my older sister for not playing well in a softball game. she has 14. |
| My grandfather I was closest too dying- the summer he died he taught me to gut a fish. They lived in the mountains near Tahoe. |
| Leaving the church I was brought up in and attending another church. |
| hanging out with my neighbors and drinking with them. I was 12, they were 27. |
| spending the summers with my grandma going camping up north. |
| getting picked on severly in middle school eating lunch in nurses office. |
| my uncle dying suddenly. It took a long time for the mortuary to pick him up. |
| my dad became sober when I was in highschool- |
| going to the church where my mom worked-turnedout to be a cult- moved to alabama with their ministry |
| husband made us go to a new church-i hated it(had to be the submissive wife) |
| my dad started drinking and using pills- shortly after I had my first daughter-which was traumatic pregnancy and birth |
| moving to yet another church I did not like- fundamental- not fitting in |
| husband leaving to Princeton for the summer-left me and my daughter for a couple of months. |
| him graduating undergrad and getting into phd program |
| getting pregnant with my son.-finding out my husband had an affair- he wildin' out- left me and my children when baby was 6 months-financially abused me, emotionally abuse and verbally, psychological abuse |
| husband no longer Christian- he returned home |
| being able to transfer to UCR and getting in |
| When one of the people who were renting one of the rooms in my house started yelling at me at 5:30 in the morning when I was going to swimming class |
| When a cat pooped on my couch and I found out early in the morning before swim practice |
| When my parents got mad at me for breaking a piece of glass |
| Losing my very first swimming race. |
| First time going to Disneyland |
| First time trying In and Out |
| Getting my first dog |
| Loosing my first dog |
| My first day of high school |
| My last day of high school |
| Graduating High school |
| Going to Prom |
| Learning how to drive |
| Getting License |
| Moving out of my house |
| Moving into my dorm |
| flying in an airplane for the first time |
| going to Mexico for the first time |
| Experiencing a car accident |
| Getting my first car |
| Learning how to do lash extententions |
| my first job |
| First time I went to Sri Lanka |
| First time I drove a car |
| Realizing I've mastered a difficult skill, specifically Algebra which used to be difficult until I put in the practice and effort |
| making varsity waterpolo and tennis |
| learning to ride a bike |
| learning to drive |
| getting into UCR |
| passing all my AP classes |
| my parents arguing |
| my brother and sister in the hospital at the same time |
| my parents separating for a little |
| my sister going in and out of the hospital |
| my sister passing away |
| when I got my first car |
| when I got my first job |
| the time I balanced 2 jobs and sports, and school |
| when I re did my room all by myself |
| putting together legos with my family |
| eating dinner talking about our day with my family |
| train park |
| stuck in elevator |
| trying ice cream for the first time |
| eating biriyani |
| getting my chin split open |
| getting hit on my head with a guitar |
| watching mostober |
| watching spongebob |
| listening to one direction |
| one direction concert |
| roy woods concert |
| post malone concert |
| hiking in hawaii |
| working at express |
| working at yumi yogurt |
| going to the city SF |
| riding the cal train |
| going to turkey |
| going on a hot air balloon |
| going to dubai |
| going to pakistan |
| going to italy |
| riding a gondola |
| going to canada |
| watching corpse bride |
| watching titanic for the first time |
| meeting the captain of Pakistan's cricket team |
| visiting family in pakistan |
| going on a rollercoaster for the first time |
| Something happened about 7 years ago |
| commucate with other people |
| listen to my parent when they are talking |
| take to my workmate |
| My sister being born |
| Taking a trip to Thailand |
| Taking a trip to Latvia |
| Taking a trip to Mexico |
| My parents telling me they are getting divorced |
| One on one conversations with my father |
| One on one conversations with my mother |
| One on one conversations with my grandmothers |
| One on one conversations with my grandfathers |
| Standing up for my religious heritage |
| Standing up for my cultural heritage |
| My grandfather passing away |
| Skiing with my father |
| Having personal conversations with my sister |
| Graduating high school |
| Went to Japan with family for several times |
| Went to Macau in 2020 |
| Went to kindergarten in Cerrtios |
| Learned piano for 8 years |
| Went to Boracay with family |
| Went to Guam with family twice |
| Took Mexico Cruise when I was little |
| Watched the Phantom of the Opera |
| Went to Time Square twice |
| Visited the Central Park Tower and watched 131st floor view |
| Went to Bali Island with family |
| Visited Harvard and MIT |
| Going to summer camp by myself (11) |
| Flying to US alone (12) |
| Trip to japan with my family |
| Schedule by myself a trip to Orlando |
| First time drive car |
| Try to ride a bike |
| Skipping class in high school |
| Owning a dog |
| Exercise for a week |
| Went to exo's concert |
| Teach my grandpa how to use cellphone |
| Going to Tokyo Disney with my sister |
| Take a walk with my grandma |
| Give my mom bouquet in mother's day |
| I have a mask up 18's birthday |
| My high school graduation ceremony |
| Last week of high school |
| Take train to Boston |
| High school prom |
| Have ear piercing |
| Visit MIT and Harvard |
| Moving to California when I was 4 |
| Moving multiple time in California |
| Moving to Germany when I was about 8-9 |
| Moving back to the US at 11 |
| traveling around Europe |
| Moving each year of high school |
| final year of high school |
| graduating |
| Being a role model to my sister |
| Being an older sister throughout my entire life |
| Having a baby sitter until I was in the 8th grade |
| Starting Taekwondo in 6th grade |
| Being able to manage writing a research paper for my english class in community college while working 9 days a week (a little over part-time) taught me the power of time confetti and pomodoro, which I still use in my studying. |
| Waking up in the hospital |
| stealing a pencil sharpener in first grade |
| getting my first job at 16 |
| getting my first car at 16 |
| getting into my first accident at 18 |
| seeing my mom get divorced |
| having my first boyfriend at 16 |
| getting cheated on at 18 |
| getting bullied by my peers through high school |
| getting an athlete career ruining injury at 18 |
| being in private gymnastics for three years |
| traveling to france |
| traveling to italy |
| COVID-19 |
| seeing my dad pay for my ice cream almost entirely of pennies |
| becoming an older sister to a new baby |
| seeing my mom struggle with her illnesses |
| having talks with my dad about existence |
| talking to my mom about her death someday |
| arguing with my grandfather on political beliefs |
| getting bullied in elementary school |
| going to church |
| getting fed by my grandparents |
| being a child actor |
| Disneyland |
| Big bear |
| Family passing away |
| Dating my first time |
| Holding hands |
| Going to movies |
| Christmas time |
| Biking |
| Sports |
| Going to gym for first time |
| dance |
| highschool |
| Getting Ran over by an ATV |
| Cutting open my foot on bike |
| Moving schools frequently |
| Being a Army Brat |
| Meeting my dad for the first time |
| Graduating Highschool |
| I tried to overdose on Acetaminophen medication that I stole from a Big Lots on May 6, 2019. |
| I was sent to a psychiatric ward on December 3, 2018 because of self-harming concerns. |
| I figured out that my ex-boyfriend never cared about me and was only using me for his own personal agenda. |
| In 3rd grade, I came home to my mom crying about being bullied and hated by all the kids at school. She didn't believe me. |
| My two older brothers would constantly tell me that I was annoying and sometimes would tell me to shut up. |
| My dad going to jail during my sophomore year of high school and me having to balance everything alone at home |
| My boyfriend of two years cheating on me and me finding out on my own |
| Moving out of my parents house because my mom is controlling |
| The day I failed my arc class |
| The day I met my girlfriend |
| The day of graduation |
| The day my mom stopped working |
| The day my brother passed |
| The day that I got baptized |
| The day that my brother got arrested |
| When I lost my closest uncle to cancer |
| The day that I got cramps in both of my legs at a soccer game |
| The day I graduated for high school |
| When my family got really sick with covid |
| Joined high school football |
| Moving day at UCR |
| Moved homes at 11 years old |
| Getting my first laptop |
| Learning how to use the internet |
| Feeding ducks at the park |
| Piano and swimming classes |
| Getting into college |
| My first girlfriend |
| Watching my family vote republican every 4 years |
| Getting my first F on an assignment |
| Getting in trouble for things that my brother had done, or being punished because I did not keep him out of trouble |
| Starting a small house fire doing a biology project with my dad at 4am |
| My mom allowing me to have my first real boyfriend |
| Bringing my boyfriend home to meet my family |
| Having to meet my boyfriends family but they didn't like me because of how quiet I was |
| Cutting all my hair off |
| Having to go through my first break up alone |
| Getting to have my first sleepover with my boyfriend |
| Having to stand up for my brother when he was getting bullied |
| moving from AP calculus to statistics to avoid my mother being angry at me when I came home |
| My older cousins who I looked up to very much telling me that I was annoying |
| confiding to my mom about my mental health for the first time in my life |
| crashing my brothers car on the way to my drivers test |
| Getting to be in the pit of a concert |
| My dad taking me to starbucks early one morning before school |
| Violin Practice |
| Hollywood Bowl Performance |
| Walt Disney Concert Hall |
| Falling in mud in second grade |
| Family fallout |
| Money Bar competitions |
| Gymnastic Practice |
| My first phone |
| Cleaning on Saturdays |
| Starting basketball at a young age |
| Going to high school |
| Going to college |
| My father teaching me how to ride a bike with my sister and other cousins |
| My father teaching me how to shoot a basketball |
| Entering my first relationship |
| Experiencing my first break up |
| Losing my virginity |
| Entering my first job |
| Quitting my first job |
| The first time I got high on marijuana and getting really paranoid |
| Withdrawing from UCLA |
| Graduating from LACC |
| Taking magic mushrooms for my first and only time |
| Protecting my mother from my verbally abusing father and nearly physically fighting my father |
| Having my heart sink when I received the text that my mother has breast cancer |
| Being nominated student body vice-president in high school |
| Having a serious fall down the stairs and dislocating my right shoulder and permanently injuring my rotator cuffs |
| My father berating me about how much of a failure I am |
| Living in my dorm at UCLA |
| Being homeless for a night and sleeping in my car in a really sketchy area |
| dating my first girlfriend |
| getting my drivers license |
| getting my first car |
| traveling in Hong Kong |
| Jumping off the bed and getting a bruised eye |
| Climbing up a high playground and learning how to get off |
| Parents showing me videos of the consequences of crossing the road when the light is red |
| Breaking up |
| Lying |
| Getting a bad grade |
| Out of country school trips |
| Service activities for the less-developed |
| Passing of a close family |
| Fighting with my younger brother |
| Getting into college |
| Experiencing a mental breakdown |
| Performing in front of a crowd |
| Interacting with locals from a different country |
| Learning multiple languages when I was young |
| Getting my first phone |
| Joining a basketball team outside of school |
| Getting yelled at by the coach during a game |
| Losing a basketball game |
| Getting yelled at by my parents |
| Finding out other people talk bad behind my back |
| Bowing to people |
| Travel to Malaysia |
| Attending my teacher's wedding as bridesmaid |
| Being bullied in school |
| Knowing that I'm going have younger siblings |
| Graduation from highschool |
| The first time I had a breakdown |
| Getting my licence a week after getting my permit |
| Finishing highschool |
| Going to grad night |
| Meeting Ate Emilyn |
| Meeting Abril |
| Seeing Xio talk |
| First time working with Angelica |
| Learning I was laid off due to covid |
| High school graduation |
| Quitting my first job |
| My junior year final project |
| My first oral surgery |
| Preventing my sister's suicide attempt |
| My first Bible Studies teaching |
| Performing at the Performing Arts Club |
| Senior Prom |
| My first day of high school |
| My sister being diagnosed with leukemia |
| My cousin being diagnosed with leukemia |
| Picking up Sonia after her car accident |
| My first therapy session |
| Buying my first car |
| Getting my driver's license |
| Teaching Dunckel how to drive |
| My first chess game against my uncle |
| Meeting Jasmine |
| Learning to ride a bike |
| Buying my ukulele |
| Being an executive on my high school ASB board |
| Pep commissioner |
| Working in retail |
| Working in restaurant |
| Raising a puppy |
| Maintaining relationships |
| Being vulnerable with my boyfriend |
| Traveling the world |
| learning to drive for the first time |
| graduating highschool |
| Getting in my first car accident |
| Graduating High School |
| Getting a cat as my first pet |
| travel |
| weddings |
| mandir |
| I didn't want to see my sick uncle in the hospital. He later died and I regretted not seeing him. |
| I felt horrible depression in my begging of the college years and was close to attempting suicide |
| Contemplating Suicide |
| Healing from Childhood Trauma |
| Learning how to Grow as A Person |
| Meeting my partner |
| Visiting Japan every year |
| Getting a girlfriend helped me understand being mindful and meeting people's needs. |
| Social media has allowed me to understand how quick people jump to conclusions and behaviors with trends and bandwagons. |
| First time trying vape got me to compare this idea of addiction with other people. |
| Downloading TikTok allowed me to see the wicked community of youth and how gullible people are. |
| Getting bad results/criticism from essay made me realize that not anybody sees things the way you do and that what you understand isn't reflective of what they think. |
| When one of my English teachers told me I deserve a C and he doesn't care about of my personal issues for missing a day of class made me think that some people even adults need behavior and mindfulness discipline |
| During the middle stages of depression, I was trying to elucidate that my lack of attendance and laziness was because of poor mental health but she refused to acknowledge anything I said. This was when I came to concur with the statement that Asian people lack understanding of mental health. |
| first time came to U.S |
| Very few words to unfamiliar people |
| Death of Grandparent |
| Having to give away childhood dog |
| Learning to drive |
| First piano recital |
| First time traveling alone to another country |
| Moving away for college |
| First fight at school |
| Breaking my pinkie finger |
| Moving to a new house |
| Running a shop with my Grandparents |
| I was considered about why we born in this world when I was a children. |
| I was considered about other stars has live people or not when I was a primary school student. |
| First heartbreak |
| Failing a class freshmen year |
| Living away from my parents |
| Getting my drivers license |
| My parents divorce |
| Going to my first concert |
| Yelling at my mom during a fight |
| Crying to my mom |
| Crying to my dad |
| Overcoming my fear of driving |
| Online school during Covid-19 |
| Standing up for myself when no one else would |
| Starting and ending taekwondo |
| Getting back with my ex |
| Getting advice from my mom |
| Seeing my mom cry |
| Going to the gym for the first time |
| Slow dancing for the first time |
| Crying at my moms wedding |
| My baby sister being born |
| Going to Seattle |
| Eating food with my uncle who later passed away |
| Traveling to Hawaii |
| Being able to perform in my dance team for more than 6 years |
| Family trips-- road trips with cousins and aunts/uncles |
| Childhood-dressing up for Halloween every year and performing at my cousin's wedding |
| Travelling to Scotland |
| Learning to drive |
| Learning to fish |
| Getting suspended from school in elementary |
| Joining theater |
| My first adult beverage |
| Receiving my first scholarship |
| Moving to Texas for a period of time |
| Fracturing my spine |
| Learning to skate |
| Moving to four different houses in a single year |
| My parents moving away |
| Losing a parent |
| First time dealing with failure |
| My first promotion |
| My first job |
| Dad moving to Qatar for 2 years |
| First ticket |
| First apartment |
| Living on my own |
| Discovering webtoons |
| Getting into college |
| Quarantine |
| Meeting and getting to know people in my band |
| Band concerts |
| Flunking my first concert |
| Going to Korea for the first time |
| Travelling to Europe for a band trip |
| Travelling on my own for the first time |
| Living on my own for the first time |
| being raised by my teenage sisters |
| Being in a private school until 5th |
| Moving to public school in 5th grade |
| Going home for the first time in 2-3 months after college started |
| Moving out of my childhood home |
| Making my first song and having my parents react to that |
| Byhearting my piano recital song in less than 2 weeks |
| My first piano teacher quitting from the school |
| Getting into a big fight with my brother |
| A girl in 5th grade commenting on my physical appearance |
| Being a 5'11 girl |
| Being Indian |
| getting robbed |
| getting phone stolen |
| family member passing away |
| working hard everyday |
| traveling as a child |
| traveling as a teen |
| my niece being born |
| cousins visiting from Minnesota |
| being nominated for a conference |
| going to the park as a child with my grandma |
| going to church on Christmas |
| Christmas as a child |
| going to panaderias with my grandma |
| going to work with my dad |
| shopping at the mall every Friday with my mom |
| going to Vegas with my family every weekend |
| the Santa Monica pair as a child |
| my aunt visiting from Colorado |
| Moving to California |
| taking the subway to and from school every day before I moved |
| hanging out with my now ex-girlfriend for the first time |
| my first day in my new school after I moved |
| my first dog dying |
| going to disneyland for the first time |
| working at my second job |
| working at my first job |
| moving into college |
| being stuck in my room everyday after I moved for a year and a half |
| going to every star wars and comic book movie on opening day with my dad |
| going to basketball games with my dad |
| going to Romania every summer with my mom |
| visiting NYC after i moved |
| breaking up with my now ex-girlfriend |
| going to comic con with my dad |
| building LEGO sets |
| sitting alone every day in school after I moved |
| going to the deli for lunch every day in middle school |
| going to mexico and visiting my parents rural homes |
| Deceased mother |
| Deceased sister |
| Move-in Day for college |
| Traveling to the US from the Philippines |
| Crashing my plane into my sibling's plane in a particular Wii game |
| Being informally knighted when I graduated kindergarten |
| Patting my current cat on the head for the first time after about four months of feeding her |
| My current cat sleeping in my lap for the first time |
| Reading the first chapter of Warrior Cats Into the Wild |
| Eating snow crab at a restaurant for my father's birthday |
| A coyote watched me walk around |
| I helped my father hop a fence |
| Writing 6 pages of a story in an hour on my mother's laptop |
| Being followed by a pack of street dogs on a vacation |
| Watching Howl's Moving Castle with my mother several days in a row |
| Getting two cinnamon rolls instead of the one that me and my sibling ordered at a Corner Bakery |
| lost at legoland |
| Brother coaches me in basketball |
| freshmen year in high school |
| freshmen crush |
| break up #1 |
| relationship |
| negatives of relationship |
| break up #2 |
| going to Disneyland |
| auditioning for choir |
| going to Vegas |
| choir concerts |
| choir banquet |
| 18 birthday |
| moving to college |
| being homesick at college |
| working at snowy village |
| first paycheck |
| coming to college for soccer |
| almost losing my brother in an accident |
| getting my first job |
| moving to a different team |
| going to Tennessee with my team |
| getting my first phone |
| driving my. car for the first time |
| getting my license |
| getting my dog |
| getting a job at del taco |
| getting in my first car crash |
| my signing day |
| going to high school for the first time |
| graduating from 8th grade |
| graduating from high school |
| getting close to my cousins |
| when my grandpa died |
| when went to cancun |
| meeting my new teammates |
| going to the white house |
| seeing snow fall for the first time |
| going to my new church |
| going on a plane for the first time |
| getting social media |
| my first boyfriend |
| going on my first cruise |
| moving to the USA |
| starting school |
| financial struggles |
| Making my first basketball shot |
| Losing my virginity |
| Pledging for a coed fraternity |
| Starting college |
| Visiting Korea |
| Visiting Philippines |
| As a kid, I was extremely oblivious to the skin condition I had which was eczema. However, I eventually noticed the pity looks I would receive at events. This was a crucial moment for me because I realized that I wasn’t necessarily “normal.” |
| Realizing that my dad was an alcoholic. |
| My older brother being diagnosed with schizophrenia. |
| Gradnite during senior year. |
| Experiencing my very first heartbreak. |
| Going camping with my family as I deal and process my heartbreak. |
| Saying goodbye to the Bay Area and my family. |
| Having to pay part of my tuition in order to register for classes. |
| Finding out I was low income as a child |
| Getting rejected from most UCs |
| Ice skating with my brownie group |
| Moving to Lafayette |
| First day of waterpolo |
| Diagnosis with epilepsy |
| First time driving |
| Moving in to college |
| 18th birthday |
| Shikoku Pilgrimage in Japan |
| First Time Cooking/Watching Cooking Shows |
| Going to Singapore |
| Graduating High School |
| Trip to Hawaii |
| Trip to Jamaica for my birthday |
| Going to Arizona for a baseball tournament |
| Going to Las Vegas for a baseball tournament |
| Getting into college |
| My dad's bone marrow transplant |
| Getting into a sorority |
| Becoming the VP Finance |
| I remember running into a wall and scaring my forehead, and now I have a permanent scar. |
| I remember the day and pain from losing my grandfather. |
| I remember my first break up. |
| I remember the day my aunt was hospitalized. |
| singing in preschool |
| crashing my bicycle when riding |
| being afraid to speak up back in elementary school |
| being left alone in middle school |
| performances |
| My brother being born |
| parents having issues with each other |
| struggling with situational depression and anxiety during my freshman year of high school |
| being put on medication for the depression and anxiety that I didn't need |
| being taken off of medication |
| being sexually assulted |
| starting therapy again after a year of not going |
| being in my first relationship |
| having to eat alone during lunch senior year of high school |
| being in the lowest place mentally even though I had ""everything i ever wanted"" |
| breaking up with my boyfriend |
| severe dissasociation |
| self destructive behavior due to the pain of the breakup |
| finally healing and moving on |
| starting college |
| learning how to balance school and a social life |
| Being captain of my high school dance team |
| Seeing my parents at every single dance competition since 8 years old |
| Watching/listening to my brother get yelled at by my parents and standing up for him |
| Hearing about my brothers suicidal thoughts |
| Fighting with my parents |
| Moving into college |
| Teaching dance classes |
| Spending time with myself during quarantine |
| My first boyfriend |
| Attending church all my life, still being pushed to go to church when I was older and didn't want to attend anymore |
| Not being active in my religious beliefs for almost two years during quarantine |
| My mom providing everything for my family and always being there for us |
| Watching my brother be sad on Christmas my sophomore year |
| Going to lake tahoe or mammoth every winter every since elementary school |
| Working my first job at an all you can eat sushi restaraunt |
| Prioritizing dance over school |
| Not feeling safe walking around at night alone |
| Getting a dog |
| Finishing first on a test and getting a 100 |
| Being lost for the first time |
| Getting rejected |
| Getting into ucr |
| The death of my grandparents |
| First time saw my father cry. |
| First time went to the boarding school and live by myself. |
| First time cook for my family. |
| First time travel to another region in my country by myself. |
| First time travel to another country by myself. |
| Spending time talk with my family about my major in the University. |
| Trying to install furnitures by myself in another country. |
| Being the captain of my high school volleyball team. |
| My 6th birthday with my dad at church |
| Getting my first puppy at age 8 |
| Throwing up while watching the movie Shark Tales |
| Visiting my father in the hospital when he had cancer |
| Going to my father's funeral |
| Visiting my family at Texas at age 11 |
| Visiting Hawaii at age 11 |
| Indoor skydiving and also real skydiving! |
| Snorkeling with my grandma and almost drowned |
| My first allergic reaction while eating shrimp tempura |
| Stepping on a wasp while running outside |
| ucr student |
| only daughter |
| buying new car |
| moving away from my childhood home in 2nd grade |
| my father's death |
| moving to another school again in 3rd grade |
| getting hurt by my church and finally leaving |
| losing my grandparents |
| moving out for college |
| how hard senior year was |
| the day we got my cat |
| my mother's stroke |
| opening college admission decisions at work |
| my first heartbreak |
| Moving to Mexico for 3 years |
| Attending school in Mexico |
| Moving to the USA |
| Attending school in the USA |
| Going to Disneyland for the first time |
| Graduating high school |
| Seeing relatives in the USA |
| Visiting central Mexico |
| Learning how to drive |
| Going to high school homecoming |
| Learning English for the first time |
| Seeing my grandparents for the first time |
| Going to university |
| fathers death |
| going to mexico |
| my new job |
| moving out |
| going to spain |
| learning to drive |
| getting my license |
| meeting my bestfriend |
| getting asked out to prom |
| homecoming dance |
| graduation |
| track team |
| running varsity |
| baby brother coming |
| me meeting a celebrity |
| losing 50 pounds |
| my first car |
| trip to dubai |
| joining soccer |
| living in spain |
| trying a hamburger in spain |
| my first phone |
| first trip to disneyland |
| first trip to sixflags |
| first gym visit |
| first time getting a dog |
| 5th christmas |
| first dance |
| first crush |
| parents divorce |
| when i stopped talking to my dad |
| when i got my license |
| when i graduated from highschool |
| when i lost my virginity |
| when i had my first sleepover |
| first job |
| first time working in a nursing home |
| first time a pet died |
| first time going to mexico |
| first trip to laughlin |
| time i learned how to swim |
| first time buying a car |
| first argument with boyfriend |
| visiting grandmas house during summer |
| when my childhood bully died |
| first time getting nails done |
| spending the night at ucr |
| first time meeting boyfriends family |
| COVID-19 Pandemic / Quarantine |
| Breakup of my first relationship |
| Seeing the word ""hell"" on a DVD and telling my parents about it which led them to putting me into the corner for saying a bad word even though I was just telling them about the new word I learned. |
| Freezing in the cold during Freshmen year when I was part of the soccer team. |
| Being out in the rain for a track meet while all the events were still going on. |
| high school graduation |
| first week of university |
| Working on computer science with my dad |
| Driving to LA for the first time |
| Trying different food spots and recording a review |
| Working on stocks every morning |
| Going to new york |
| going to sneakercon |
| Breaking my arm |
| Snowboarding |
| Swim competition |
| Getting stitches on my head |
| Roadtrip with mom |
| Cooking for children |
| Swim practice |
| Going to Korea |
| First day of highschool |
| Last day of highschool |
| Highschool graduation |
| First day of college |
| Drinking for the first time |
| Getting a F for the first time |
| Riding rollercoasters |
| Learning to drive |
| Meeting my extended family |
| Grad night |
| Failing my math final |
| Getting hungover for the first time |
| Listening to music. |
| Watching sports. |
| Trying new things. |
| Taking walks. |
| Joining the wrestling team |
| Asking out my first girlfriend |
| Cutting weight for wrestling |
| Road to study |
| A couple of big life moments |
| Joining a soccer team |
| Family outing to the beach |
| Joining a baseball team |
| Elementary school years (kindergarten to fourth grade) |
| Parental problems (Marriage problems) |
| Moving houses |
| Grandma's death |
| Baby sister being born |
| Older brother being sent to the hospital for depression |
| high school ""pace program"" |
| immigrating to the US |
| first job as a receptionist |
| current job as a pharmacy technician |
| Living in Mexico |
| Parents divorce |
| Graduating High School |
| Moving out for college |
| Learning how to drive a vehicle |
| Learning how to be selfless |
| Learning how to have patience with people |
| Falling for a guy and getting hurt |
| My first day of school |
| Buying my first Binder |
| Learning my multiplication tables |
| Joining basketball |
| Joining Martial Arts |
| Joining Rugby |
| Choosing Biomedical Engineering as my major |
| First time trying to use a skate board |
| Watching Bear Grylls |
| Getting Baptized |
| Coming out as bi |
| Coming out as Gay |
| Realizing I'm trans |
| Starting therapy |
| Breaking up with my first girlfriend |
| Using the men's bathroom for the first time |
| Overcoming two open heart surgeries |
| Working two jobs in high school, while still having soccer practice every day. |
| Going to church every Wednesday and Sunday. |
| Doing community service in High school |
| Going to the gym everyday but the weekends |
| Going to Cabo with my family for my 15th birthday. |
| Got my first car when I turned 18 years old. |
| Learning how to drive with my mom |
| Getting my firs tattoo |
| Going on my first day |
| Getting heartbroken |
| First day of College, very nerve-racking! |
| Buying a dog and naming him Louie. |
| Trying Sea food for the first time |
| Decorating the Christmas tree with my mom and sister. |
| Being stressed every single day over school. |
| Becoming a first time Godmother. |
| Going to the Dodgers game and then seeing fireworks. |
| Going to DisneyLand and it was decorated for Christmas |
| Having another surgery, which means now I have had three surgeries. |
| Going to Mexico for the first time. |
| Getting my first pet |
| learning how to ride a bike |
| Going on my first rollercosters |
| First day of Highschool |
| Going to Culican Sinaloa |
| Graduating Highschool |
| Getting Covid for the first time. |
| First day of College. |
| Cracking my head open |
| Meeting people in high school |
| Going to school in Japan |
| meeting my parter for the first time |
| working out |
| meeting my dad for the first time |
| My grandfather passing away |
| Middle school graduation |
| getting my first dog |
| starting elementary |
| losing my uncle |
| birth of my first nephew |
| starting middle school |
| birth of my first niece |
| senior year of high school |
| prom |
| homecoming dance |
| first boyfriend |
| birth of second niece |
| graduation |
| getting a drivers license |
| visiting family in Mexico |
| summer 2022 |
| bad bunny concert |
| starting college |
| moving out of my parents house |
| First Cook by myself |
| First surgery |
| First time being kicked out of school |
| My dad had been sick since the day I can remember and I have consistently been in and out of the hospital |
| My first experience with bullying |
| My first experience with racism |
| Training for a sport |
| Watching my parents fight |
| Witnessing death |
| First relationship |
| First breakup |
| First major injury |
| First physical fight |
| Social Media |
| My dog running away |
| Graduating high school |
| Watching movies with my brother |
| Going to concerts |
| Making a speech so I could run for president in elementary school |
| Getting my sister's old iPod when she got a new one |
| Watching my brother skate on his skateboard |
| Being president twice |
| I rode my bike off of a ramp, and got impaled in the stomach and it hurt alot when I was young |
| I ran a marathon |
| When got really sick for most of my childhood |
| Having a really bad experience with a drug I once tried |
| Learning to drive |
| Driving alone for the first time |
| Going to the beach for the first time |
| Going camping for the first time |
| Learning how to shoot guns |
| Starting MMA training |
| Discovering K-pop Music |
| First day of middle school |
| First day of high school |
| First day of college |
| Parents Divorce |
| moving to the U.S. at 13 |
| receiving my diagnosis |
| My first day in kindergarten |
| seeing myself for the first time in the mirror |
| being bullied |
| When I got in trouble for doing something at a young age. This was when my dad was washing something in the driveway and I think I bothered him and I cried because I had to sit next to the refrigerator for an hour. |
| Learning bits of the english language from watching Johnny Test on the television. |
| When I took my first test in AP Psychology |
| After my oldest brother left to attend for college, I realized that there was a missing family member in the household, which made me slightly more independent than before. |
| When I got my first beta fish |
| When I got my first puppy |
| When my first dog passed away |
| When I began my first piano lessons |
| When I quit my piano lessons |
| When I began piano lessons later on and didn’t quit |
| When I first dyed my hair with my sister |
| When my little brother was born |
| When I went with my sister to my very first concert |
| When I started going to the gym |
| When my brother broke my pinky |
| When I moved out of my house to go to school |
| My first job at McDonald’s |
| Becoming an adult and having responsibilities |
| When my sister moved to a different state for school |
| All the times I went to Disneyland with my boyfriend |
| Graduating from High school |
| Getting my blue belt in JIu Jitsu |
| Entering the stage in life with my wife and dog |
| Realizing my Father is an addict |
| going to cif |
| moving in |
| Moving to California |
| Losing my 6th tooth |
| Calling Santa Claus ""HoHo"" and thought the Carls Jr. Star was Santa. |
| Finding out My Mom provided presents and not Santa Claus |
| First time i got a phone |
| Parents Divorce |
| Getting my 3ds |
| First day of Middle school |
| Discovering Kpop |
| First day of highschool |
| Getting cast in my first highschool musical |
| getting cast as more than ensemble in highschool production |
| My mom and ex boyfriend broke up |
| Getting cast as lead character in highschool production |
| Announcement of quarantine |
| Getting COVID for the first time |
| spending new years whilst in covid quarantine |
| Graduation |
| Gradnight |
| First day of College |
| Last day of highschool |
| Last performance in highschool |
| First day of Senior year |
| Meeting my little cousins for the first time |
| When i lost my retainers |
| When i met my bestfriend |
| basketball |
| education |
| Immigrated to the US when I was 13 |
| Helped my sisters with their homework |
| My oldest half-brother dying. |
| My youngest half-brother dying. |
| Watching my youngest brother die. |
| Watching my grandmother die. |
| My grandfather dying. |
| My uncle dying. |
| Graduating high school. |
| Starting to bake. |
| Realizing I have social anxiety. |
| Getting a cat. |
| My 13 years younger sister being born. |
| Starting college. |
| Being labeled as ""gifted"" young. |
| Having immigrant parents. |
| Going to Palestine (home country) for the first time. |
| Living through COVID-19. |
| Being raised Muslim. |
| Going through the IB Diploma program. |
| Moving to Moreno Valley. |
| when my mom talked about her childhood |
| being raised in an highly latino populated area |
| being called a hippo |
| experiencing heartbreak |
| fighting with my parents about my mental health |
| defending my dad about his decision to quit a draining job |
| watching my cousins have everything they wanted |
| having 90% of my family in mexico |
| grieving family's death in a different country |
| graduating highschool |
| going to college away from home |
| my sister defending me from my parents |
| arguing with my other sister continuously |
| going to disneyland for the first time |
| getting all the clothes i wanted |
| moving in with my boyfriend |
| my cat dying |
| eating breakfast with my grandpa in mexico |
| going to the plaza with my cousins |
| When I was in primary school, my teacher always said girls are not good at maths, so I believed for a time that my math is bad because I am a girl. But now I changed this thought. |
| when my parent talk about divorce infront of me |
| learning new language |
| change country to live, experiencing different culture |
| Graduating High school. |
| The day that I stopped going over to my dad's house. |
| Meeting my mom's boyfriend and him becoming my stepdad. |
| Getting my dog Ruffus. |
| Getting my dog Kenai. |
| Getting my bird Rio. |
| Getting my fish Krispy. |
| Learning how to drive a car. |
| Getting my license. |
| Going to many job interviews and hearing no over and over. |
| Finally getting my first job at Yogurtland. |
| Covid affecting my mental health. |
| Texting some random boy from school. |
| That random boy becomes my boyfriend. |
| Being with my boyfriend for a year. |
| My boyfriend helped me get through my depression. |
| Eating out with my grandparents every Friday. |
| Going to a church that was very Judgemental. |
| Getting tattoos and piercings. |
| Being told by my dad that if I was a boy he would have fought harder for custody for me. |
| Being able to see my mom struggle because she had me at 17. |
| My sister being born. |
| My brother being born. |
| My other brother being born. |
| Struggling with handling school and work at the same time. |
| I attended middle school in LA without knowing a single phrase in english |
| I met my first boyfriend for almost 2 years |
| I drank alcohol for the first time in 9th grade |
| I visited my home country in 6 years, this summer. |
| I used to climb trees and playground equipments |
| travel with my parents |
| learning new language |
| Volunteering in Nepal |
| Get bullied in primary school |
| Learned instruments |
| Went to international school |
| Did plastic surgery |
| Learned English |
| Learned Japanese |
| Decided to study abroad |
| The beginning of high school |
| Senior year of high school |
| College orientation |
| Moving houses in 2015 |
| Middle school |
| Living in Georgia for 3 months in 2019 |
| Quarantine/Lockdown |
| Living in Georgia for 3 months in 2021 |
| Finding my twin flame |
| My dad being sick with cancer |
| Moving to England |
| Graduating high school |
| College orientation |
| Turning 18 |
| Going to Disneyland for the first time |
| Getting my first job |
| Getting my license |
| Handling a snake |
| Getting my most recent dog |
| Going to Mexico every weekend when I was 9 |
| 16th Birthday |
| Drivers license |
| brother being born |
| first day of school |
| riding a bike |
| first sleep over |
| first time on a flight |
| seeing snow for the first time |
| first day of high school |
| My first car |
| My High School Graduation |
| moving to africa |
| attending religious studies |
| having my own journey with religion |
| experiencing anxiety from a young age |
| learning how much words hold power |
| I was walking my dog and I found a lizard. I brought it home and let it go in my backyard. |
| I drove alone for the first time. |
| 1st degree black belt test |
| 2nd degree black belt test |
| 3rd degree black belt test |
| catching my first fish on my own (lost grandpa was big fisherman) |
| qualifying for team cif golf i shot a +3 on 18 holes that brought my team into the next round |
| loosing more than half that weight in recent years |
| graduating high school |
| making a guy cry in high school |
| Graduating high school |
| Getting my drivers license |
| relationships |
| family |
| School |
| kids |
| i am asian |
| i am korean |
| i am a male |
| when i first moved to america |
| getting my first pair of shoes |
| getting my first tuxedo |
| my first band class |
| my first band concert |
| my first marching band parade |
| my first time going to the gym |
| my first time getting into gaming |
| my first time building a computer |
| graduating middle school |
| graduating high school |
| moving into my college dorm |
| My first meeting with a therapist |
| The times my father walked out, only to return a few hours later |
| When I was SA'd |
| When I was diagnosed with BPD |
| My Grandpa Taking Me to School |
| Visting Mexico |
| Going to Middle School |
| Grandpa Passing |
| Visiting Florida |
| Catholic Confirmation |
| Senior Year |
| Graduating High School |
| First Day of Univeristy |
| first time listening to freudian by daniel caesar |
| first heartbreak |
| In spring of this year, I beat one of the hardest Mario levels called ""Champion's Road"" by myself without any in-game ""power-ups."" |
| In 2019 February, I ran a 10k in Death Valley in just under an hour. |
| A few months ago, I was able to beat an entire Mario game without using any power-ups or game assistance tools. |
| getting an A on an essay for the first time in college |
| saving up for my first computer |
| Experiencing my first anxiety attack. |
| Every time I participate in traditions of mu culture. |
| Graduating high school. |
| Going to college. |
| Moving out of my home and dorming on campus. |
| The Syrian Civil War was one of my earliest memories that shaped who I am. I remember the sound of gunshots and the echos of bombs to this day, and I remember how that experience made me grow up faster and realize the injustices of the world. |
| My first day of middle school. I remember how I struggled to figure out how to open a locker and my older brother taught to me how to open one and how I was late to my first class with a teacher I did not like because I couldn't open my locker. |
| When my social anxiety got bad in middle school, I remember counting all the navy and white shirts in class everyday and if the shirt I was wearing is a color that was in the minority I would feel insecure for the rest of the day. |
| My grandpa's stroke. It was hard to see him go through that and to see my mom hurting from it. |
| The pandemic. When covid hit and we all had to quarantine it was really crazy and the last day before where everyone was nervous and unsure what's going on, we did not know that we weren't going to see each other for another year and a half. getting used to wearing masks, staying at home, social distancing and all was really hard. |
| first day back to in person school. It felt really weird and so did the masks, trying to put online people to actual people was also weird. |
| College apps. Taught me perseverance and I remember working on them on halloween where I dressed up as pitbull, making me reflect on how much I grew from being social anxious to showing up to school in a bald cap. |
| IB Exams, hell on earth but also taught me perseverance and a lot of knowledge |
| Kidney infection. Turns out the pain during orientation was also due to me having a kidney infection and I had to go to the emergency room. |
| Taking an extended spring break in sophomore year of highschool |
| Signing up and applying to college |
| Graduating highschool |
| Thanksgiving breaks in the pas 3 years |
| Getting baptized |
| Move in day college |
| I was riding in a Maybach in Russia and I had sex with 2 prostitutes |
| I was in Medellin Colombia smoking marijuana with the cab driver and I lost my phone |
| I was in London and I swam in Serpentine Lake. |
| I was skateboarding at night on the streets of Berlin |
| I was riding a Bird scooter in Madrid and I fell. |
| I did my first stage dive in Austin Texas at a Braid concert |
| I was driving the boat in Cuba. |
| I was in Paris eating at this Indian restaurant by the train station |
| I took the train back to London and I was listening to Lil Yachty |
| I bought a Faygo soda at the gas station |
| I had sex with two Brazilian prostitutes at the same time in London |
| I was in New York City smoking marijuana in central park |
| I was on the beach at night in Barcelona |
| I got drunk on the plane from Germany to Iceland. |
| I was on a train from Madrid to Barcelona |
| I was snorkeling in some island in Papa New Guinea and got sunburned real bad |
| I was at the Whole foods in London |
| I went to Tim Hortons in Calgary, Canada. |
| I was smoking marijuana with a prostitute in Colombia |
| I did cocaine in Colombia |
| I stopped at the WaWa in New Jersey |
| I was in the swimming pool at the gym. |
| I noticed the Texaco gas station in Medellin on the way back to airport |
| I took a flight out to Spain |
| I was driving a Range Rover in the mountains. |
| I was skateboarding in San Francisco. |
| Reading through a whole mini-library in 4th grade |
| Experiencing subtle racism from elementary school to middle school |
| Joining Scouts BSA in 2016 until leaving in 2022 |
| learning to drive |
| first date |
| first prom |
| grandma passing away |
| meeting my half-brother |
| first heartbreak |
| moving into college |
| started going to the gym consistently |
| meeting roommates |
| paying for a trip all on my own |
| finding classes |
| being away from home for more than a day |
| ucr orientation |
| receiving a family heirloom |
| working and having my own money to spend |
| on-the-phone interview |
| I did gymnastic for 10 years. |
| I've done track since I was 8, and I am now doing it in college. |
| My dad was the one who worked, while my mom spent more time with my sister and I. |
| I am a younger sibling with an older sister. |
| I fell in a race at a national meet when i was 12. |
| I didn't get my first computer until 6th grade, and i didn't get my girst phone until 9th grade. |
| My family was very ethnically diverse, but I grew up in a very white town. |
| I grew up surrounded by a lot of family in California. |
| My first dog passed away when I was about 5. |
| In elementary school I accidentally went into the girls bathroom and was bullied |
| I was very hyper in the 6th grade which was off putting for people |
| My dad screaming at me for bad grades |
| Boys Lockeroom in highschool id always get messed with |
| Realizing I spend too much time on my phone |
| Going through 3 months of football practice |
| Listening to music which made me question my religious views |
| Being raised on Mexico |
| Moving to U.S. |
| Moving to an apartment |
| My first day in a school at U.S |
| Being on a shelter |
| My last day of high school |
| Prom |
| Going to Disney |
| Going to Tijuana for a camp |
| Going back to my hometown for the first time |
| Getting an iPhone |
| Buying my own computer |
| Getting drunk for the first time |
| Learning how to ride a bike |
| Going to the San Pablo Library with my Dad on Mondays |
| My Dad picking me up from elementary school in his big work van |
| Eating cut up corn dogs with ketchup while watching my nickelodeon cds |
| Signing up for my first singing class when I was six years old at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts |
| Going to work with my mom and spending time with her client Cathy and her home at the park |
| Making up dances and singing songs with my cousins to perform to our family when we were younger |
| Performing for the first time at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts. |
| Getting into the Diploma Program at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts. |
| Becoming an uncle at the age of four. Now I have two nephews and three nieces. |
| The passing of my Grandpa before starting my first year of high school. |
| Joining the vocal ensemble Voices of Reason at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts |
| Opening myself up to a guy in March of 2021. |
| Graduating High School. |
| The pandemic. |
| Smoking weed for the first time. |
| First day of middle school. |
| My first fight in elementary |
| My first real fight in middle school |
| Graduating High School |
| Smoking for the first time |
| My 13th birthday |
| Getting yelled at by my little league baseball coach |
| When I asked out my current girlfriend |
| Thanksgiving 2016 (all my family came for the first time) |
| Going on walks at lake with my Grandma |
| My Driver's license tests (both the one that I passed and failed) |
| Cooking chicken alfredo with my girlfriend |
| Taking my first college final (over the summer quarter of 2022) |
| Going to the Red Woods with my family |
| Moving into my current home in 2016 |
| My Mom divorcing my dad |
| Telling my mom how her absence affected me |
| The French Vocabulary test I took in 1st grade |
| Getting my ears pierced |
| This video of me being passed around in freshman p.e. |
| My last fight with my brother |
| The time I cried after my mother refused to pull over to give the homeless man money in Washington DC |
| me crying on my first day of kindergarten because i had to leave my mom |
| meeting my older cousin at her grandmas house |
| 3rd grade when i had my first teacher who i was scared to ask to use the bathroom |
| getting bullied in the 3rd grade |
| transferring to a new school for 4th grade |
| crying at my first day of school of 4th grade |
| having a crush on the same boy from 5th-8th grade |
| joining my schools IB program junior year and struggling |
| dropping the IB program after my first semester |
| beginning senior year |
| getting into my first relationship senior year |
| losing my uncle over the summer |
| moving to UCR |
| having depressive episodes during week 5-7 |
| Smashed my pinky finger in the door. |
| Brother helped me out of the crib when I was crying to get out |
| My first pet passing away. |
| My bulldog passing away on Valentine’s Day. |
| Making dirt pies. |
| Summer school water fight |
| Moving to a new school. |
| Making my high school volleyball team. |
| Grandmother passing away |
| Losing my first phone. |
| Having a movie date with my mom. |
| Going to my first concert |
| Going to the zoo with all of my cousins |
| Moving in with my aunt |
| Dying my hair for the first time |
| Falling off the bike and cutting my leg |
| Arguing with my brothers |
| Experiencing my first anxiety attack |
| Peeing myself in public |
| Running around outside at night for the first time by myself |
| Cutting my foot by stepping on a shard of glass |
| Swimming by myself on the deep end |
| Getting my painting hung up for the first time |
| Fighting with my parents |
| i shaved my head the year before college started through impulse |
| if there isnt a plan or if it changes i get stressed |
| The continued racism I went through |
| Bullying throughout my life |
| bullying |
| racism |
| Moving |
| becoming an older sister |
| losing my grandparents |
| learning how to drive |
| Deciding to become a doctor |
| Being bullied for being fat as a kid |
| Dad yelling at me for not knowing how to do homework |
| only child for majority of life |
| Moving across the country |
| my younger sister developing cancer |
| attending college |
| sexual assault at 5 years old |
| self harming at 11 |
| first suicide attempt at 14 |
| my mom telling me to kill myself |
| my grandma passing away at the beginning of freshman year of college |
| adopting cats |
| meeting jonathan |
| getting a septum |
| getting drunk/high alone |
| going to the gym |
| The first time I went to the gym |
| The beginning of covid |
| The month I moved into my new house in Riverside |
| The nexplanon implant that I received |
| Working as a camp counselor for many summers |
| Starting college at UCR |
| Starting college tennis |
| I'm an actress |
| I'm an artist |
| I'm a writer |
| I went to a boarding school |
VADER Classified Negative Sentiment
| value |
|---|
| Lying |
| bullying |
| racism |
| Contemplating Suicide |
| Getting heartbroken |
| being bullied |
| fathers death |
| Grandma's death |
| Witnessing death |
| First heartbreak |
| first heartbreak |
| First heartbreak |
| experiencing heartbreak |
| first heartbreak |
| first heartbreak |
| Getting rejected |
| Arguing online |
| Parental problems (Marriage problems) |
| severe dissasociation |
| financial struggles |
| when my childhood bully died |
| worse depression, anxiety of my life, problems at home |
| daughter missing |
| dad's overall abuse |
| Death of Grandparent |
| my father's death |
| My dad being sick with cancer |
| Preventing my sister's suicide attempt |
| watching corpse bride |
| my first heartbreak |
| bad bunny concert |
| Visiting The Prison |
| getting phone stolen |
| freshmen crush |
| first crush |
| Experiencing my first anxiety attack. |
| Experiencing my first anxiety attack |
| first car accident |
| First major injury |
| my parents arguing |
| grieving family's death in a different country |
| Being bullied in school |
| My bestfreind committing suicide |
| losing a friend to suicide |
| having marriage problems |
| losing my virginity |
| Losing my virginity |
| Losing a parent |
| Losing my virginity |
| losing my grandparents |
| losing 50 pounds |
| losing my uncle |
| First physical fight |
| Watching my grandmother die. |
| Bullying throughout my life |
| losing my grandparents |
| when my grandpa died |
| Making dirt pies. |
| self harming at 11 |
| Getting a bad grade |
| Not feeling safe walking around at night alone |
| lost at legoland |
| growing up poor |
| first suicide attempt at 14 |
| When I lost my closest uncle to cancer |
| seeing my mom struggle with her illnesses |
| Failing my math final |
| my younger sister developing cancer |
| almost losing my brother in an accident |
| Being Low income |
| Experiencing a car accident |
| Crying to my mom |
| Crying to my dad |
| Seeing my mom cry |
| being bullied for my weight |
| getting bullied in elementary school |
| My first experience with racism |
| Get bullied in primary school |
| My dad screaming at me for bad grades |
| stuck in elevator |
| Falling for a guy and getting hurt |
| Arguing with my brothers |
| getting drunk/high alone |
| Experiencing my very first heartbreak. |
| The death of my grandparents |
| My first experience with bullying |
| Watching my youngest brother die. |
| Healing from Childhood Trauma |
| self destructive behavior due to the pain of the breakup |
| my illness during pregnancy |
| Hearing about my brothers suicidal thoughts |
| first time a pet died |
| Losing my first tooth |
| Losing a basketball game |
| First fight at school |
| Watching my parents fight |
| Losing my 6th tooth |
| Summer school water fight |
| Losing my first phone. |
| I felt horrible depression in my begging of the college years and was close to attempting suicide |
| Flunking my first concert |
| Fighting with my parents |
| first argument with boyfriend |
| Fighting with my parents |
| Feeling hopeless when my girlfriend's family constantly bully her |
| getting cheated on at 18 |
| Failing a class freshmen year |
| First time dealing with failure |
| Getting rejected from most UCs |
| Being bullied for my skin color |
| struggling with situational depression and anxiety during my freshman year of high school |
| getting bullied in the 3rd grade |
| The continued racism I went through |
| Being depressed during covid time and feeling alone. |
| Fighting friends |
| getting an athlete career ruining injury at 18 |
| Overcoming my fear of driving |
| my mom telling me to kill myself |
| Crying at my moms wedding |
| Getting lost at Disneyland. |
| sexual assault at 5 years old |
| Friend tried to kill themself |
| I remember the day and pain from losing my grandfather. |
| Visiting the family graveyard |
| Going to a Bad Bunny concert. |
| working hard everyday |
| when my friend died |
| Being bullied for my hair and race |
| Life threatening sickness with my stomach |
| I didn't want to see my sick uncle in the hospital. He later died and I regretted not seeing him. |
| getting rejected from dream schools |
| When i failed my first class |
| My first fight in elementary |
| Resolving a conflict |
| I am disappointed by the fact I am controlled by my fear. |
| feeling bullied by my fifth grade teacher |
| Fighting with my younger brother |
| Going to my father's funeral |
| dad crying at the local park |
| Sitting in the living room crying |
| Getting in my first car accident |
| Getting suspended from school in elementary |
| First time saw my father cry. |
| stealing a pencil sharpener in first grade |
| dad being on house arrest |
| Snorkeling with my grandma and almost drowned |
| Learning how to shoot guns |
| arguing with my other sister continuously |
| In elementary school I accidentally went into the girls bathroom and was bullied |
| getting bullied by my peers through high school |
| Being bullied for being fat as a kid |
| when i lost my virginity |
| When i lost my retainers |
| being homesick at college |
| dealing with younger sister's suicide confession and coming out |
| When my brother broke my pinky |
| talking to my mom about her death someday |
| The first day I began journalism to deal with my trauma and pain |
| The day I failed my arc class |
| Getting rejected from my dream college |
| Getting in trouble with the authorities |
| The death of a close friend |
| getting in my first car crash |
| Discovering grief with my dog passing away |
| My boyfriend helped me get through my depression. |
| Losing my very first swimming race. |
| My last fight with my brother |
| losing my uncle over the summer |
| having depressive episodes during week 5-7 |
| Deciding that I couldn't play softball anymore because it made me anxious and not fun anymore |
| getting into my first accident at 18 |
| In 3rd grade, I came home to my mom crying about being bullied and hated by all the kids at school. She didn't believe me. |
| The day that my brother got arrested |
| Picking up Sonia after her car accident |
| Rejecting a guy I liked |
| making a guy cry in high school |
| Falling off the bike and cutting my leg |
| visiting my grandfather at 11 in the ICU and him not being responsive. He died and my first funeral |
| When my family got really sick with covid |
| Experiencing subtle racism from elementary school to middle school |
| husband made us go to a new church-i hated it(had to be the submissive wife) |
| Flying to US alone (12) |
| arguing with my grandfather on political beliefs |
| Losing my first friend |
| Cutting weight for wrestling |
| Fighting with my friends |
| being put on medication for the depression and anxiety that I didn't need |
| Visiting my father in the hospital when he had cancer |
| getting hurt by my church and finally leaving |
| Getting drunk for the first time |
| Being vulnerable with my boyfriend |
| not great interaction with some classmates first year |
| My mom and ex boyfriend broke up |
| Older brother being sent to the hospital for depression |
| When I lost my first tooth |
| Being lost for the first time |
| when friends car broke down |
| the first time i got bullied (good thing) |
| Protecting my mother from my verbally abusing father and nearly physically fighting my father |
| Watching these YouTube videos where casual racist remarks are made became an influence to viewers to tolerate racism more. |
| When got really sick for most of my childhood |
| Getting in trouble for things that my brother had done, or being punished because I did not keep him out of trouble |
| Not have many opportunities as others |
| Finding out other people talk bad behind my back |
| Yelling at my mom during a fight |
| Seeing my friends go through bad experiences |
| My first real fight in middle school |
| Realizing I have social anxiety. |
| Downloading TikTok allowed me to see the wicked community of youth and how gullible people are. |
| Feeling lost during my break up |
| losing my first love |
| Experiencing college and feeling so alone |
| College acceptances and rejections. Broke me down for an entire month in tears, but eventually I changed my perspective on things and I grew from that disappointment. |
| Taking a depression test during a checkup at the doctors. |
| Playing soccer as a kid and absolutely hating it |
| getting pregnant with my son.-finding out my husband had an affair- he wildin' out- left me and my children when baby was 6 months-financially abused me, emotionally abuse and verbally, psychological abuse |
| I had many crushes, some which liked me back but I was never mentally ready so I never truly experienced proper dating |
| 1st crush in 4th grade |
| being left alone in middle school |
| Being stressed every single day over school. |
| Driving alone for the first time |
| watching mom and dad fight growing up |
| Sticking up for myself when my friend demanded an unjust apology from me |
| Getting into high school drama which ruined some friendships, becoming one of my #1 regrets |
| my dad and uncle engaging in an argument due to my uncle being drunk and difficult in front of my grandmother |
| The day my mom stopped working |
| Having a really bad experience with a drug I once tried |
| Making the wrong decision with a friend |
| Cutting all my hair off |
| Having to stand up for my brother when he was getting bullied |
| struggling to fit in during middle school |
| Laughing to the point where I started crying because of all the chaos that was happening during dinner. |
| Brandon breaking my heart, it was my first heartbreak and it felt like my heart literally broke into pieces, one of the most hurting things I experienced |
| the girls on my block playing spice girls. |
| Getting into a big fight with my brother |
| When I was in high school and my cousin was diagnosed with cancer |
| husband no longer Christian- he returned home |
| losing my friends in middle school |
| When I shaved my hair from stress buildup struck a bit of regret but also a strong understanding that ADHD is no laughingstock. |
| fighting with my parents about my mental health |
| My 1st best friend in elementary school threatened to choke me out in 6th grade. |
| My parents struggling and working to provide for us |
| how hard senior year was |
| joining my schools IB program junior year and struggling |
| The day my best friend died |
| Crying a lot in front of the bathroom mirror when I was 14 because I felt so insecure about myself |
| moving from AP calculus to statistics to avoid my mother being angry at me when I came home |
| Watching my brother be sad on Christmas my sophomore year |
| crying at my first day of school of 4th grade |
| experiencing anxiety from a young age |
| Going camping with my family as I deal and process my heartbreak. |
| Reaching ""Supreme"" (one of the highest ranks) in Counter Strike: Global Offensive |
| First time traveling alone to another country |
| The loss of a soulmate |
| I drove alone for the first time. |
| me crying on my first day of kindergarten because i had to leave my mom |
| Helping Ashley with her anxiety |
| I had an intense fear of death in elementary school. So much so that I had turned to religion (christianity for 5 years) before I decided it wasn't for me and just accepted nothingness after death. |
| Falling in mud in second grade |
| fight with friend night before leaving taiwan |
| when i stopped talking to my dad |
| Having my heart sink when I received the text that my mother has breast cancer |
| My first allergic reaction while eating shrimp tempura |
| Feeling relieved when I got the news that my mother beat her cancer |
| Struggling with handling school and work at the same time. |
| losing my best friend |
| Falling in love |
| falling in love |
| My middle school friend group and their negative influence on me |
| Getting in trouble for hanging out with the worng group. |
| Cutting open my foot on bike |
| My father teaching me how to shoot a basketball |
| Competing in my first Super Smash Bros. Melee (fighting video game) tournament and getting completely destroyed in my bracket |
| My father berating me about how much of a failure I am |
| Boys Lockeroom in highschool id always get messed with |
| My Driver's license tests (both the one that I passed and failed) |
| At the very start 9th grade, I finally decided to leave behind my toxic middle school friends who would constantly belittle my interests and peer pressure me into doing embarrassing things. |
| When my grandma passed away, one truly painful memory |
| Attempting self harm 4 years ago and my dad came to my house |
| I was forced to leave my old high school because all the people that I was friends with stopped talking to me. |
| Growing up in a family that had a very poor economic background as well as struggling to bring money into the family |
| Experiencing my first loss of a friend |
| In 2019 February, I ran a 10k in Death Valley in just under an hour. |
| In October of senior year of high school, I tried asking out this girl in my class, but she rejected me because she was a Muslim. It definitely hurt me inside, but I was able to peacefully take the loss. |
| when the dodgers won the world series during a bad year |
| Standing up for myself when no one else would |
| I also remember the day I was rejected from my dream schools. |
| The death of my grandma, it hit me hard since it was during covid, and I wasn't allowed to see her. Even till this day I have trouble understanding the situation It haunts me and I am trying to overcome it. |
| Getting my heart broken/rejected - realizing how much it hurts, experiencing a different type of sadness, but thankful I'm able to experience that much sadness over a relationship |
| I stopped at the WaWa in New Jersey |
| Having one of my best friends say he hated me when he first met me because I didn't laugh at his joke. |
| falling into a fountain at a plaza |
| When my parents got mad at me for breaking a piece of glass |
| I got drunk on the plane from Germany to Iceland. |
| The time I cried after my mother refused to pull over to give the homeless man money in Washington DC |
| My Mexican ""best friend"" telling me I was racist if I tried to stop her from claiming herself as Asian |
| Getting my first low grade on a college test |
| Realizing I've mastered a difficult skill, specifically Algebra which used to be difficult until I put in the practice and effort |
| During the middle stages of depression, I was trying to elucidate that my lack of attendance and laziness was because of poor mental health but she refused to acknowledge anything I said. This was when I came to concur with the statement that Asian people lack understanding of mental health. |
| Finding out I was low income as a child |
| When my parents called me failure for college rejections even though I highly believed that my grades weren't the attribute of my rejection even from my safety schools. This moment caused me to realize how stubborn parents can't be and that they are adamant on what they believe. People tend to focus on the errors than the successes. |
| My boyfriend of two years cheating on me and me finding out on my own |
| going to every star wars and comic book movie on opening day with my dad |
| Losing love for reading and books in highschool |
| Avalanche - natural disaster, made me be more careful around terrain I'm not familiar with |
| Having to go through my first break up alone |
| My best friend almost dying in an accident |
| sitting alone every day in school after I moved |
| Losing my best friend senior year |
| I was snorkeling in some island in Papa New Guinea and got sunburned real bad |
| getting sand dumped in my hair by my cousin at age 4 |
| Using communication to resolve an issue instead of abandoning it |
| Kidney infection. Turns out the pain during orientation was also due to me having a kidney infection and I had to go to the emergency room. |
| Missing my first soccer game to go to Sea World. |
| One day in sixth grade, I became so overwhelmed that I started crying during P.E. and continued crying for another 45 minutes until I went back home. |
| When my oldest brother got surgery on his appendix, it was a sad day |
| Brother helped me out of the crib when I was crying to get out |
| my friends really helping me through my struggles |
| My father giving me and brother a life lecture about not giving up in life no matter how hard things get |
| Asking a girl who had no friends to hang out with me. |
| Last year, my closest friend passed away. My life completely changed in a negative manner. |
| My grandpa's stroke. It was hard to see him go through that and to see my mom hurting from it. |
| First frat party at ucla during halloween. really fun although extremely chaotic |
| Telling my mom how her absence affected me |
| Being peer pressured into fitting in on a regular basis starting in middle school, and ended after I got arrested multiple times in highshcool |
| My dad smacking my older sister for not playing well in a softball game. she has 14. |
| In 7th grade middle school, I was really bad at debate and had a partner who sucked even more, but during one debate I actually managed to convince some people in my class of my position. However, I goofed up and lost all support when I suggested something related to intentionally sacrificing US troops during war. |
| Sitting outside my ex's house to talk through our problems at 12 am |
| Getting bullied by my own cousin when I was being taken care of by their own mother |
| When I first lost weight and felt so accomplished |
| 2010 Christmas, all my cousins were getting gifts but me and my brothers didn't get any because my dad didn't have enough money for gifts, it was a very sad thing as a kid but I understood my family was poor |
| Me helping out my cousins when they seem they are in trouble. |
| My aunt getting cancer and I had to step up and take care to help my family. |
| Going to many job interviews and hearing no over and over. |
| Being told that I was ugly by all of my middle school crush's friends |
| if there isnt a plan or if it changes i get stressed |
| Seeing the word ""hell"" on a DVD and telling my parents about it which led them to putting me into the corner for saying a bad word even though I was just telling them about the new word I learned. |
| when my father and I stopped speaking to each other |
| catching my first fish on my own (lost grandpa was big fisherman) |
| I didn't get my birthday celebrated due to bad grades and being disrespectful one time |
| The first time I got high on marijuana and getting really paranoid |
| my dad started drinking and using pills- shortly after I had my first daughter-which was traumatic pregnancy and birth |
| The time my best friend sexually harassed my current girlfriend behind my back |
| having to eat alone during lunch senior year of high school |
| being in the lowest place mentally even though I had ""everything i ever wanted"" |
| IB Exams, hell on earth but also taught me perseverance and a lot of knowledge |
| I almost got stabbed in school for making a joke about someones hair |
| helping my parents pay for my tuition |
| Being able to see my mom struggle because she had me at 17. |
| Moving in! It was so fun and I was so excited, although I was stressed because I thought I lost a key. |
| The day that I stopped going over to my dad's house. |
| Eating cut up corn dogs with ketchup while watching my nickelodeon cds |
| Becoming best friends with a girl who I mutually disliked |
| Not being active in my religious beliefs for almost two years during quarantine |
| When I broke both of my wrists at the same time and couldn't really do anything |
| When my social anxiety got bad in middle school, I remember counting all the navy and white shirts in class everyday and if the shirt I was wearing is a color that was in the minority I would feel insecure for the rest of the day. |
| My sixth memory was when I visited my aunt in the hospital who have some sort of heart problem around 2010 I believe. I felt very scared thinking of what would become of her is she wasn't cured. (luckily she was and is doing good today) |
| Starting a small house fire doing a biology project with my dad at 4am |
| When I got in trouble for doing something at a young age. This was when my dad was washing something in the driveway and I think I bothered him and I cried because I had to sit next to the refrigerator for an hour. |
| My older cousins who I looked up to very much telling me that I was annoying |
| I remember running into a wall and scaring my forehead, and now I have a permanent scar. |
| Realizing I was not getting into the top 40 my senior year of high school, which destroyed me |
| having a crush on the same boy from 5th-8th grade |
| moving to yet another church I did not like- fundamental- not fitting in |
| Being forced to share my 12th birthday with my little cousin who's birthday was a month prior |
| Stuck in the slide with best friend |
| Feeding a black cat at the temple even though the monk was telling me that they were bad luck. |
| Having to protect my younger siblings alone from an 8.4 Earthquake |
| I want to know how to evaluate a good person when I was did one thing broken. |
| 3rd grade when i had my first teacher who i was scared to ask to use the bathroom |
| My first day of Kindergarten, I cried and felt like I was extremely attached to my mom. I didn't want to let go |
| Having to meet my boyfriends family but they didn't like me because of how quiet I was |
| Cutting my foot by stepping on a shard of glass |
| Seeing my mom work so hard night and day- kitchen to computer desk...along with my dad taking up the challenge when she got sick to be the best father |
| After years of slowly losing interest in it, I finally left behind the religion of Islam because I just didn't believe in any of it and had no passion for it. |
| In elementary school, I liked a boy who I later found out didn’t like me back. My friend asked him what he thought of me, but all he saw me as was “the girl with the ugly skin,” which definitely damaged my perception of myself growing up. |
| I rode my bike off of a ramp, and got impaled in the stomach and it hurt alot when I was young |
| feeling weird around friends because they wanted to drink |
| The death of a loved one- made me value people more and the time I have left with everyone around me |
| My dad had been sick since the day I can remember and I have consistently been in and out of the hospital |
| UCR Orientation. Hell on earth because I got my period and they wouldn't let me change until I begged them. Although, met some really cool friends! |
| I was in Medellin Colombia smoking marijuana with the cab driver and I lost my phone |
| I stood up for myself by cutting contact with a very needy but emotionally unavailable friend in eighth grade. |
| My first episodic memory I can remember was when I got in trouble in kindergarten for getting in a fight with another kid. My mom did not hit me but was emotionally disappointed in me which forever changed me as a person in a way where I became more considerate of others. |
| My grandfather I was closest too dying- the summer he died he taught me to gut a fish. They lived in the mountains near Tahoe. |
| first day back to in person school. It felt really weird and so did the masks, trying to put online people to actual people was also weird. |
| The pandemic. When covid hit and we all had to quarantine it was really crazy and the last day before where everyone was nervous and unsure what's going on, we did not know that we weren't going to see each other for another year and a half. getting used to wearing masks, staying at home, social distancing and all was really hard. |
| My dad beating up my uncle at Christimas time at his moms house.. Having to leave behind my favorite shoes. My grandma, my cousin and myself hiding in the restroom and my dad barging into the door and grabbing me and pushing my grandma down. |
| While chaotic, I remember crying while taking an online midterm last year and how I still passed with an A/B. This taught me how strong/resilient I am as an academic scholar and how I'm able to persevere in the most difficult times through my inner motivating voice/thoughts. It taught me coping mechanisms for how to calm myself down really quick in contexts. |
| Only having myself when my best friends broke up with me for a few months |
| When I witnessed one of my friends shoplifting and discovered that loads of classmates also exploited these opportunities. |
| being stuck in my room everyday after I moved for a year and a half |
| My two older brothers would constantly tell me that I was annoying and sometimes would tell me to shut up. |
| I was the therapist friend, because I liked helping friends with their problems. |
| When I lashed out at my mom trying to scold me because I seemed like I wasn't committed to my homework. It became a sentimental moment as she started tearing up but enlightened me that I should stop being so lenient. |
| Grad night as Disneyland. Was extremely fun and chaotic, one last time to say goodbye and have fun with friends. |
| Walking up a long series of stairs in a very windy place to get to ruins at the top of a hill |
| Getting bad results/criticism from essay made me realize that not anybody sees things the way you do and that what you understand isn't reflective of what they think. |
| seeing my dad pay for my ice cream almost entirely of pennies |
| When one of my English teachers told me I deserve a C and he doesn't care about of my personal issues for missing a day of class made me think that some people even adults need behavior and mindfulness discipline |
| Graduation and the IB Banquet. It was hard to say bye to everyone but I was excited for a new chapter. I remember driving in the car screaming to music with my friends. |
| Graduation and the IB Banquet. It was hard to say bye to everyone but I was excited for a new chapter. I remember driving in the car screaming to music with my friends. |
| I had an accident a couple years ago that caused me to be hospitalized for a week because my heart had stopped beating. I just woke up from a small coma in a hospital and wondered why I was there. I remember everything feeling like a dream but when I figured out it was real I did not know exactly how to feel. I was told that my heart stopped twice and I technically was clinically ""dead"" twice. I had surgery for the first time in my life which made the event feel more surreal. After this moment I felt so grateful for having a life and live every day with meaning. |
| Starting college, I'm in a journey to discover who I am. I feel like I don't fit in here at UCR. It has made me feel lonely and depressed, but I am pushing through in hopes of making my parents proud. |
| I figured out that my ex-boyfriend never cared about me and was only using me for his own personal agenda. |
| Being told by my dad that if I was a boy he would have fought harder for custody for me. |
| I remember attending summer camp for the first time in sixth grade. I really did not want to go, and I developed really bad social anxiety during that time. At first, I felt really uncomfortable and I just wanted to leave but then I grew to really like it and made really good friends there. I attended it every summer up until quarantine. |
| I was with my mom, aunt, and older sister when we got into a freeway accident on the way home. My life literally flashed between my eyes. |
| Seeing how when someone gets in a romantic relationship, they just stop doing the things they normally do. |
| first day of high school. I felt really nervous but I was really excited as well, and I got closer with someone who I knew from middle school but was not super close to and now were still best friends. |
| Graduating high school, concluded for me that life was about to get serious. I was lost and still am but high school is what made me realize that reality hit and the road ahead of me is going to be hard. |
| College admissions made me feel like a failure and realize that there is a fallacy in this so-called holistic process and that many run by luck. |
| Having to pay part of my tuition in order to register for classes. |
| I wasn't invited to a birthday party because I was ""too weird"" in elementary |
| When I was in high school and I had a couple of friends who treated me badly. they never thought of me as a friend, rather used me instead. I later learned that some people don't care about relationships and just do things that benefit themselves. |
| When I found out that I had developed an eating disorder but didn’t care |
| Overcoming many obstacles, but now feeling better and a bit accomplished. |
| When I was in primary school, my teacher always said girls are not good at maths, so I believed for a time that my math is bad because I am a girl. But now I changed this thought. |
| Enjoying some unexpected time alone more compared to going out all the time with friends |
| While I hate my ex now, I remember being first asked out after our choir performances. It taught me how you can connect with someone with similar initial interests and what first love felt like. However, our couple of breakups, the reasons why, and my nights of crying to sleep (sometimes even during work shifts) really taught me what an unhealthy relationship looked like and what values I truly wanted (honesty not out of controlling but out of just respect and that deep friend connection, similar/the same conceptualizations of what cheating is, true inclusivity in shared friend groups (not just tolerance), prioritization in deep conversations (not solely just in giving gifts, physical affection, and dates. I wanted a balance in love languages), healthy work/life boundaries (aka respecting no call times during school/work), and the same future goals (Ex: marriage, no children but pets, etc.) as well as open-mindedness to differing political beliefs. |
| Not being friends with the friend I had since elementary school. I found out his friend was talking bad about me to others and was just over all really toxic towards me for the past few years, and I remember how freeing it was when I told her that I knew and walked away. |
| After entering the college life, I was very homesick. Staying in this type of environment made my mentality stronger. |
| My dad going to jail during my sophomore year of high school and me having to balance everything alone at home |
| Freezing in the cold during Freshmen year when I was part of the soccer team. |
| having a falling out with many of my close friends due to this new relationship |
| Going on my very first date. We ate bingsoo, watched “Top Gun”, went on a hike while watching the sun set, and talked for hours. |
| My first day in an American school. I felt like an outcast since my English wasn't very good and found it frustrating to communicate with others, I also felt really behind compared to other students since I did not speak fluent English. I remember walking around by myself in the playground and trying to get used to everything. |
| In high school, people didn't take relationships very seriously. They would just do what they wanted regardless of what others thought was right or wrong. When I moved in for college, I met so many new people who were the opposite and cared about each other. I learned that all relationships were important. |
| My first day of middle school. I remember how I struggled to figure out how to open a locker and my older brother taught to me how to open one and how I was late to my first class with a teacher I did not like because I couldn't open my locker. |
| On my 7th birthday, I cried and I don't remember exactly why but I remember my family comforting me |
| Seeing my father go through diabetic episodes and having to call the ambulance for him, it made grow to want to take care of my loved ones and notice when somethings wrong |
| The Syrian Civil War was one of my earliest memories that shaped who I am. I remember the sound of gunshots and the echos of bombs to this day, and I remember how that experience made me grow up faster and realize the injustices of the world. |
| Disliking learning Indian classical dance for 12 years but liking it after I quit, so I started learning again |
| I loved and hated my high school experience. I met lots of good people and had great experiences but I also developed a lot of physical and mental health issues. |
| Giving personal life information for school staff struck the revelation that most people do not care about your personal life but rather that this is their line of work and they are more committed to their task over their moral compass. |
| After my oldest brother left to attend for college, I realized that there was a missing family member in the household, which made me slightly more independent than before. |
| Having a serious fall down the stairs and dislocating my right shoulder and permanently injuring my rotator cuffs |
| Obsessing over my Nintendo DS and playing games like Cooking Mama and one where it was like a math game and the dude's head is huge and floating. |
| When my parents kept yelling at me and making snarky remarks at me for missing days of school, defaming me in front of their relatives and stating that they're convinced I won't graduate every week. Even though it was clear the records indicated that I had a cumulative gpa of 4.0, I was neglected. This event made me understand that I should start caring about what my true objective is. |
| Hanging out with my best friends before we all leave for college. |
| On the other hand, getting rejected from auditions (honor choir, solo songs in middle school, and my county's holiday music fair) taught me that it's ok to accept failure and mistakes, then to work on them rather than dwell on it. As a person, it taught me how to accept constructive criticism with grace and how to implement feedback. It also taught me the importance of adaptation to different contexts (sometimes you need to sing classical and other times, pop holiday music. The same could be said about life. Sometimes it's best to do things one way, but other times a new approach is needed). |
| Taking my drivers test and being so nervous, then at the end pulling into a parking spot and the lady telling me I passed and being filled with relief and excitement. |
| A true memory I really love is when I first meet my now current boyfriend at my local grocery store when he asked if I needed help finding items in the baking aisle. He taught me how true connections can be made even in the most mundane contexts and that life is full of surprises, but also I found someone who has similar values and respects my boundaries. Plus, he's exposed me to different cultural customs since he's italian/german/hispanic and made me realize that the right person will go the extra step not just to surprise you with gifts, but to nurture you in your not so best times and accept you in them. |
| Playing minecraft for the first time and falling in love with the game so much and then getting addicted to it |
| When my aunts tried to humiliate me by comparing my experience with their child's achievements, while trying to exploit me for opportunities and connections for their younger child. Although I remained reserved, I was adamant on redeeming myself and held goals to soon show that I can demonstrate higher academic achievements for the sake of my pride. Even though it doesn't seem to be the righteous decision, I'm keen on redeeming myself. |
| When my parents told me they were getting divorced it felt like my life was over and I thought I would never be happy again, but I am okay now. |
| Entering college - scared but also eager after seeing how large the campus was and the workload and amount of learning needed to be successful |
| One day around 2 years ago, me and my mom drove around and did several Pokemon Go boss battles and won around 6-7 times because of my strategies. It made me feel proud of my planning skills. |
| Falling in love for the first time - realizing the extent to how much I could care about someone who wasn't family |
| My dad's cardiac arrest. Watching my dad go through dad in front of me and being in a coma for a while was really hard and one of the most life changing experiences. I was there when it happened and the image of him foaming at the mouth was hard to picture. I had to be there for my family, start working at our family ice cream shop, and pick up a lot of responsibilities as well as checking up on my dad (although I could not visit him because of covid) |
| My ex-girlfriend, whom I was best friends with for two years prior to dating, completely stopped talking to me after a month and I never heard from them again for another two years. |
| Attending church all my life, still being pushed to go to church when I was older and didn't want to attend anymore |
| I remember in 8th grade I won an MVP award/medal for top grades and performance/personality as a student by my favorite history teacher named miss Brown. Personally, I never really like history (especially 1800s, civil wars, and geography). However, this memory makes me tear up sometimes because I was the last student she gave an award to before she got fired and rumors spread around about her absence (""she became ill and needed surgery,"" etc.). I never knew what happened to her and sometimes I miss the deep life talks I had with her (Ex: how to get involved in high school? Should I join certain clubs or classes if I feel I'm not well-suited for them? What's your best advice for high school and beyond?), but just the thought that a teacher had so much faith and hope in me as a student really influences me today when I experience imposter syndrome as an undergrad. I remember that I still have those basic qualities of a top student (perfect attendance, detailed notes, on time assignments mostly, and always asking questions) and I belong in academia. |
| My grandpa passing away while I was in 6th grade, I heard it from my friend at school about his passing since she overheard my mom and teacher on the phone. experienced loss young and had to find out from someone else |
| My sessions with my therapist and my hard-headed side that is incapable of change in beliefs, helped understand that therapy is dependent on the patient. People only change when they want to and/or is open to change. Therapy isn't a magic remedy, it is more of emotional regulation. |
| As a kid, I was extremely oblivious to the skin condition I had which was eczema. However, I eventually noticed the pity looks I would receive at events. This was a crucial moment for me because I realized that I wasn’t necessarily “normal.” |
| College apps. Taught me perseverance and I remember working on them on halloween where I dressed up as pitbull, making me reflect on how much I grew from being social anxious to showing up to school in a bald cap. |
| Going out on solo trips by myself - made me realize I don't need to go out places with friends all the time to enjoy things, can enjoy me time, time alone is therapy |
| Relatedly, I remember when my community college English 1B professor gave voice audio feedback on my semester paper to say that I should publish it in the school's journal/research portal because it was that well written. Also, I remember the fact that she literally edited my UCR essays in a couple days by 12 am and that her quote was ""Don't let perfection be the enemy of the good."" The very first part boosted my self-esteem as a writer and even influenced me to seek out research labs now. Also, it's reinforced my dream to possibly write a book and publish it or at least write my original songs for youtube. However, as someone with ADD and major procrastination issues due to heightened anxiety over having everything perfect, her quote has become my moto during tough times now as a student and again, her grading my essays really late made me realize that while we shouldn't override boundaries and be more responsible, you should have the minimum expectation that your faculty and colleagues want you to succeed because you're a good enough scholar/worker/person! |
| I worked at the medical records section of a clinic for a few months, and it helped me realize the value of working hard for your own money. |
| When I was around 10 years old, I got hurt by running into a wall. My family and cousins saw this and tried to help me as best they could. I then understood that people really do care about me and that I should also be like this toward my friends and family too. I learned to not be selfish. |
| One day when I was seven my mom took me to go see my uncle perform in a band. We went there and I remember being so proud of him and excited to see him perform that day. I saw a small crowd but did not care since I was just focused on my uncle. Once he performed I thought it was so cool that for many years after this I wanted to become a singer just like him. I do not want to be a singer now but I do still want to do something with music in my life. |
| Graduating from ELA. I was so happy to finish the English learners program in fourth grade and I remember my teacher jumping, screaming, and hugging me with joy because she was really happy for me and I felt proud of myself to have accomplished that. |
| My experience as basketball player throughout high school is significant to who I am. I specifically remember a game I made 5 threes in and I remember everything I felt that day as I could see the hours I had put into the courts pay off. The intense multi-hour long conditionings and long tumultuous seasons helped expose me the importance of perservance and grit as well as leadership qualities. |
| One day when I was in Grand Teton National Park, I became obsessed with the Jalapeno Kettle Brand Chips that my brothers were eating. Ever since then, they have made me much more passionate about snacking. |
| My second episodic memory was when it was my fifth birthday and I had very little consciousness on what was going on, however in that moment I felt the greatest sense of satisfaction of obtaining gifts, cake, and a large gathering of people I knew, knowing it couldn't get any better than this. |
| winning a prize in a giveaway and my two ""best friends"" took the prize and didn't invite me over to use it with them |
| Back in August, I started watching this Disney Cartoon called ""Amphibia"". I initially thought it was kind of boring, but soon came to appreciate its lessons about how you should always try to grow as a person. |
| I was surprised to realize that some of my friends truly believed in God and that made me question religion twice. However, I still don't believe in God, but now I understand why people do. |
| In high school, I took a class called Transpersonal Psychology. In the class, we did an activity called the Truth Process where we would go around in a circle as a class and share things we wouldn’t normally share. I shared a series of events that filled me with guilt, ultimately reflecting and concluding that I am not my mistakes. It helped with my self growth. |
| I remember singing ""This girl is on Fire"" by Alicia Keys in class and two of my fellow classmates complimenting me, then encouraging me to join my 5th grade's talent show. After their encouragement, I sang ""Just Give Me a Reason"" at the 5th grade talent show and my brother posted it on Youtube. This is a very fundamental memory for me because it shaped my continual development as a blossoming singer and made me realize/enjoy the feeling of bringing/entertaining people as a whole at events. |
| Uploading singing/piano covers and originals on youtube from 13-18 was an integral memory that made me realize my top value of emotional expression and open communication. Plus, it taught me perseverance and dedication/commitment as well as to pursue my dreams no matter what people said. |
| Playing basketball made me realize my potential as a leader and realize that everyone can work together to reach a common goal no matter the differences. It made me view people in a different light, I would tend to judge my teammates based on how I saw them on the outside without getting to know them on a more personal level. |
| My 15 big birthday party that was special for my family and I |
| When my boyfriend asked me to be his girlfriend |
| I have experienced chronic migraines as far as I can remember. |
| When I was little I always looked forward to my dad coming home and getting to hug him. He worked a lot because we needed money. |
| When I was little me and my brothers would play forts, it's such a comforting memory because we were all little kids and that's all we were happy kids. |
| Going every Sunday morning to watch my brothers soccer games |
| When I was six, it was a Saturday afternoon and I remember making bracelets with my mom, it's such a heart-whelming memory |
| When I went to the Natural History Museum with my 5th grade class and we were running up this hill and it started raining but we were all just happy to be there |
| Making videos with my little brother around the house and just being funny and laughing is a pure memory I have |
| I was in 8th grade, me and my best friend at the time were going back home and I remember we always laughed and had a good time, I remember this because it was a happy pure memory |
| Last 8th grade field trip to Medieval times, everyone in my 8th grade was super close to everyone and to see it was our last field trip before our lives changed going into high school will always stay with me |
| When me and my family got evicted from home and we were homeless for months |
| First day of High School, I felt out of place |
| Meeting my best friends that I made in high school |
| My 15th birthday which was the last day of my freshman year and when I also had my first kiss |
| March 13, 2020; life was never the same |
| The first day of senior year, which was the day we came back to campus in person for the first time in over an year |
| Meeting Brandon, who was my first love |
| Gradnite, one last trip before my life was going to completely change once again |
| Graduation, such a surreal feeling |
| Move in day for college, saying goodbye to my family |
| My first communion |
| Meeting my siblings for the first time |
| Applying for college |
| Going to Vegas for the first time |
| Going to children's court |
| Getting on my first rollercoaster |
| My first kiss |
| High school graduation |
| High school prom |
| Meeting my boyfriend |
| Moving out |
| Adopting a cat |
| My dad going to rehab |
| Eating delicious food |
| Playing sports with my family |
| Playing video games with my friends |
| Writing short stories |
| Reading manga |
| Watching tv |
| My third memory happens to be in second grade when my best friend from kindergarten in which I have not seen since then came to visit me in class.This moment might have been the greatest satisfaction of having to see someone for a long time. |
| My fourth memory is the times I spent in 3rd to 5th grade with my best friend who had a disability speaking issue. This moment made me value those who have disabilities even more. |
| My fifth memory was the time I recieved my first pet cat around my middle school years who I still have today, and I appreciate and value her very much. |
| My seventh memory was when I met my girlfriend in middle school. she has made me a more social person overall. |
| My eighth memory was when I reviewed my first piano as a gift from my father. I was self taught and value my talent to play it today |
| My great grandma passing away. |
| Going to a field trip with my little sister and mom. |
| My trip to Florida. |
| Constantly moving homes during elementary school. |
| Spending my whole summer with friends & relying on going out made me value friendship more than before. |
| Growing up having a strong relationship with my grandma & having her care for me has made me more sympathetic to old people. |
| My aunt teaching me how to tie my shoes. |
| Reading for the first time as a hobby. |
| Having someone close to me passing away. |
| Learning more about a subject I enjoy. |
| My dad taking me to trips. |
| My aunt talking me to different colleges. |
| My aunt and uncle talking about how I should go to college to earn a degree. |
| My mom telling me to get a better education cause she didn't |
| My grandparents helping me through out my childhood. |
| At highschool when I recieved the news about Covid. |
| Getting accepted to colleges. |
| Growing up in the same town and learning so much about others and their situations |
| graduation high school and wannting to further my education. |
| The separation of my parents at a young age |
| meeting new people and figuring out if I like them or not |
| Being devalued by my parents for being a drug user (weed), in my teenage years |
| Getting my High school Diploma |
| My first day of college |
| Going to my first concert |
| Turning 18/becoming an adult |
| Giving CPR to someone |
| My first job |
| going to cousin's house every weekend |
| grandma's house every weekend |
| house getting raided |
| dad and mom divorcing |
| dad picking me up from school everyday |
| going to a predominantly Mexican elementary school |
| 1st period sophomore year of high school |
| going to my favorite english teacher in high school Mr. Perez's classroom during lunch |
| walking to dad's house after middle school |
| first dog dying |
| grandma forgetting my name for the first time |
| getting a brand new car |
| driving to best friend's house everyday in quarantine |
| quarantine walks |
| summer after high school |
| being the youngest of 5 |
| finding out i'm actually the youngest of 6 |
| my stepdad becoming my dad |
| grandma getting alzheimer's |
| dad hitting mom for the first time |
| getting my first job |
| being independent |
| being involved in softball for more than 6 years |
| I got accepted into all-stars softball after years of playing |
| Freshman year of high school getting a new group of friends |
| March 13th 2020 when the shutdown first began |
| Getting accepted into college |
| Grad night having a fun night with my friends for like the last time |
| Graduation party where I realized that high school was really done |
| My 16th birthday party because it was the last time I really saw all my friends and family before the shutdown |
| when my younger sister was born |
| My avid banquet when I got to get my sash and got to spend time with my friends |
| My 18th birthday going to Disneyland with my family |
| Being placed into my 5th grade ELD class, even when I spoke perfect English, simply because I was Middle Eastern. |
| Learning to use acrylic paint and color pencils to create texture on a canvas at age 14. |
| My mother teaching traditional Egyptian recipes and serving them to my family. |
| moving to the us from korea |
| making a lot of friends in college |
| having supportive parents and siblings |
| Singing in church |
| Moving to the US |
| First Day of Kindergarten |
| Birthday Celebration at my elementary school |
| Moved elementary school's |
| Hanging out with childhood best friends |
| Getting my first period |
| First day of Middle School |
| Becoming choir and band president |
| Going to knott's berry farm with friends |
| Promoting from Middle School |
| First day of high school |
| Met my longtime boyfriend |
| Began dating my boyfriend |
| first kiss |
| COVID-19 |
| Being at home with my family |
| Going back to school senior year |
| three year anniversary with my boyfriend |
| was gifted my first car |
| gradnite |
| graduation |
| summer break before college |
| college orientation |
| purchasing my own first car |
| first day of college |
| I found I was good at math |
| I got good grades |
| I did a lot of sports |
| I ate good food |
| I saw one piece |
| I decided to go to ucr |
| I started to procrastinate during covid |
| Meeting my closest friends gave me another sense of self-realization. In my early high school years I felt as if I was straying away from who I really was and tried to become a ""people pleaser."" When I met my close friends, I felt myself returning to normal. I was in a situation where I felt most comfortable and began learning more about myself. |
| Learning to Skate |
| Moving to Long Beach |
| Moved to a new school (multiple memories) |
| Parents divorcing |
| Watching my first Tarantino film |
| Separated parents |
| Absent father |
| First time meeting my baby brother |
| Visiting Mexico when I was younger |
| Mother always supporting me |
| Reunited both families at my Quince |
| Getting awards for my gpa |
| I graduated highschool with a high GPA |
| I got accepted into UC Riverside |
| I got my first car |
| Graduating high school |
| My dad becoming a single dad |
| Meeting my boyfriend |
| Play dates with my childhood best friend |
| Going to the beach with my grandma |
| Walking to school with nana |
| Playing with my brother |
| My sister being born |
| starting college |
| Grandma passing away |
| Learning how to cook with my mom |
| Talking about life with my dad while walking my dog at night |
| My first trip by myself |
| Learning how to knit with my grandmother |
| Moving in by myself for the first time; calling my new place ""home"" for the first time instead of calling my parent's house ""home"" |
| My first day at work |
| Starting my first college assignment |
| Going on my first vacation with my boyfriend |
| growing up in mexico as a full chinese descendant |
| speaking spanish throughout my whole life and people being suprised when they see me |
| moving around several times for elementary from to different countries |
| playing family at preschool |
| leading youth group at church |
| piano lessons in 1-2 grade |
| church summer camp |
| leaving school early to come to america |
| festival at church at night |
| Christmas performances for church, in taiwan and america |
| summer camp back at taiwan with american youths |
| binge reading starting from 4th grade- read entire harry potter series |
| mortifying christmas perfromance in 4th grade |
| promotion in 5th grade |
| psychology class in junior year learning about episodic memory |
| high school graduation |
| hearing covid news, school pausing |
| first day of college at cpp |
| first day moving in apartment after transferring to ucr |
| getting a drive from a friend met in class |
| First time riding my bike without training wheels |
| First time driving a car |
| Moving out |
| Moving to California |
| Leaving High School |
| First major breakup |
| Dealing with SA |
| Deciding to go to UCR |
| Being hospitalized |
| Coming out |
| Defending myself in a toxic work environment |
| Taking my first psychology class |
| Realizing what actually happened in my childhood |
| Christmas eve and Christmas day 2017 |
| Having a single mother |
| getting put into counseling because of my grades |
| being cured, and finally having a painless life again |
| getting out of counseling because of my overall change in academics, and performances. |
| Getting an academic grade in 8th grade because of my grades turning around |
| Entering High School with the thought of a new beginning |
| Joining my first sport Wrestling |
| Graduating High school in the honor role |
| Being accepted into 6 Universities |
| Choosing UCR as my final Decision |
| Completing my first week in UCR |
| Feeding The Homeless |
| Seeing Drug Addicts |
| my kindergarten best friend moving away |
| meeting my baby sister |
| the first day of middle school |
| playing at the park with my cousins |
| graduating 8th grade |
| first band camp |
| first band competiton |
| YALE summer camp |
| getting accepted to college |
| covid at the end of senior year |
| moving into dorms |
| moving into an apartment |
| my college friends |
| tearing my acl |
| driving my car for the first time |
| Becoming captain of my high school xc team. |
| Deciding to quit playing soccer. |
| Running my first college xc race. |
| Receiving college acceptance letters. |
| Graduating high school. |
| Receiving most valuable athlete in high school. |
| Being MVP of my high school soccer team. |
| Overcoming mental health issues. |
| Painting in my room during covid. |
| Doing an internship over the summer. |
| Passing my drivers test. |
| Moving into my college dorm. |
| Helping my cousin when her dog go sprayed by a skunk. |
| Learning about the gaming community. |
| Moving to the untied stated |
| High school Graduation |
| Getting married |
| First child born |
| Second child born |
| getting a divorce |
| moving to Arizona |
| working at the airport |
| getting remarried |
| birthing my third chid |
| my fourth child |
| my fifth child birth |
| my twins borns |
| my pregnancy with the twins |
| my separation from my husband |
| going back to school |
| covid |
| finding my daughter |
| daughter wedding |
| being selected as the commencement speaker |
| giving my commencement speech |
| my acceptance letters to the universities |
| graduating with honors |
| first day UCR |
| working for college Corp |
| filling for a divorce |
| dating after 18 years |
| The time I impaled my arm and got stiches |
| Growing up and hearing stories from my parents of what they had to go through |
| Not being able to see my mom because she worked when I got back from school when in elementary |
| My dad always giving effort to be around us and having fun even though he would get home from long shifts of work |
| My siblings doing random things for fun |
| Many of my relatives passing away at young ages |
| My parents separated when I was 3 |
| My great grandpa taught me how to ride a bike |
| I rolled my sister's bike in a cowpie in the rain |
| Hit a granny shot in a basketball game and went to a buffet after |
| Made 3 free throws to win a Varsity basketball game |
| Sneaking into my friends house at night |
| Skating around town at 3 am |
| Breaking the window to the laundry room with a tennis ball |
| My brother farted in my sister's face with his pants down when he was 9 |
| My dad would jump on my bed and wake me up when it was my birthday |
| I attended junior college classes with my dad in 1st grade |
| Taking my ex stargazing at 4 am |
| Making my promposal for my ex with my friend |
| This girl I liked, I knew she liked someone else, and that completely changed me. |
| After interacting with more and more liberal media, I have found myself shifting more and more towards conservatism. |
| Moving back to the US and also moving from the US were both impactful experiences. |
| When i graduated high school |
| When I watched anime with my siblings when i was younger |
| Eating with my family together and laughing with them |
| When I first started listening to music with my dad |
| When I first learned to drive |
| When I left Colorado and moved out to California |
| The last month or two of my first year in high school |
| When my little brother was born |
| My first performance |
| My first audition |
| My first acting workshop |
| Getting my first sketchbook |
| My first day of elementary school |
| Bringing my first dog home |
| Bringing my second dog home |
| Learning to drive |
| Learning to ride a bike |
| Moving to college |
| Working as an RBT |
| Training in Boxing |
| Spending time with family |
| Taking the iniative to try new things |
| Going to anime conventions |
| Going to many concerts |
| Receiving my UCR acceptance letter |
| Traveling to another state and country |
| Signing up on social media |
| Los Alamitos |
| Covid |
| Church |
| San Diego |
| Oxford |
| Moving to America |
| Making Varsity basketball team |
| Getting dinner with family |
| Going early morning lake fishing with my father when I was 9 years old |
| My grandfather reading me ""where the wild things are"" before I went to bed |
| me and my little brother climbing an oak tree in my backyard |
| early morning birdwatching with my brother |
| spending the days surrounding new years with my aunt and cousins |
| visiting an art museum with my parents |
| my 14th birthday party with my grandmother, parents, and siblings |
| playing my first video game |
| taking music classes |
| attending my first concert |
| adapting to my disabilities at a young age |
| countless lectures my parents would give me as a kid |
| school and everything about it, especially throughout elementary |
| competing against other people through sports or academics |
| countless adventures with my good friends |
| 5/6 going to the snow in Tahoe area and then visiting the decorated Christmas houses while staying with my grandparents in Nevada City, Ca. |
| my mom picking me up from Kindergarten on friday and running to the bank to pull out money before my dad used it all at the bar.. |
| Watching my sister play softball |
| Feeling my dads car to see if it is warm after playing outside. If it was warm that meant he just got home from the bar. |
| Leaving the church I was brought up in and attending another church. |
| Playing youth league basketball. |
| hanging out with my neighbors and drinking with them. I was 12, they were 27. |
| spending the summers with my grandma going camping up north. |
| Playing peter pan with my neighbors |
| My mom having to pick me up from girl scout camp because I had attachment issues. |
| getting picked on severly in middle school eating lunch in nurses office. |
| my uncle dying suddenly. It took a long time for the mortuary to pick him up. |
| my dad became sober when I was in highschool- |
| going to the church where my mom worked-turnedout to be a cult- moved to alabama with their ministry |
| came back and decided to get married to long time best friend(complicated relationship) |
| husband leaving to Princeton for the summer-left me and my daughter for a couple of months. |
| him graduating undergrad and getting into phd program |
| being able to transfer to UCR and getting in |
| When one of the people who were renting one of the rooms in my house started yelling at me at 5:30 in the morning when I was going to swimming class |
| When a cat pooped on my couch and I found out early in the morning before swim practice |
| Convincing my dad to get me a speed racer novel that I never read, I thought the title looked cool |
| My art teacher giving me a C for an anatomy assignment but giving another kid who drew the head way too big an A |
| Diving for the first time and bellyflopping onto the pool |
| Getting my first kiss outside my house |
| First time going to Disneyland |
| First time trying In and Out |
| Getting my first dog |
| Loosing my first dog |
| Becoming a tia |
| Promoting 8th grade |
| My first day of high school |
| My last day of high school |
| Graduating High school |
| Going to Prom |
| Meeting my first friend |
| Learning how to drive |
| Getting License |
| Moving out of my house |
| Moving into my dorm |
| flying in an airplane for the first time |
| going to Mexico for the first time |
| Getting my first car |
| Learning how to do lash extententions |
| my first job |
| becoming a cheerleader |
| getting accepted to UCR |
| going to my first party |
| First time I went to Sri Lanka |
| First time I drove a car |
| Running into a friend I haven't seen in a while |
| Getting appendicitis - made me create more healthy habits, watch what I eat, be more hygienic |
| First time a child hugged me (my baby cousin) - made me feel warm and loved |
| First real/best/good friend - made me have a different perspective of life, taught me things I didn't know about myself and the world, shaped my life for the better |
| making varsity waterpolo and tennis |
| learning to ride a bike |
| learning to drive |
| getting into UCR |
| passing all my AP classes |
| my brother and sister in the hospital at the same time |
| my parents separating for a little |
| my sister going in and out of the hospital |
| my sister passing away |
| my first love |
| my sister helping me with everything |
| my dad becoming my friend |
| the feeling of becoming an adult |
| when I got my first car |
| when I got my first job |
| the time I balanced 2 jobs and sports, and school |
| when I re did my room all by myself |
| putting together legos with my family |
| eating dinner talking about our day with my family |
| when we went to disneyworld for make a wish |
| train park |
| trying ice cream for the first time |
| eating biriyani |
| getting my chin split open |
| getting hit on my head with a guitar |
| watching mostober |
| watching spongebob |
| listening to one direction |
| one direction concert |
| roy woods concert |
| post malone concert |
| hiking in hawaii |
| working at express |
| working at yumi yogurt |
| working at sweet rendezvous |
| going to the city SF |
| riding the cal train |
| going to turkey |
| going on a hot air balloon |
| going to dubai |
| going to pakistan |
| going to italy |
| riding a gondola |
| going to canada |
| watching titanic for the first time |
| meeting the captain of Pakistan's cricket team |
| visiting family in pakistan |
| going on a rollercoaster for the first time |
| Life is interest for me |
| My life is okay |
| Something happened about 7 years ago |
| commucate with other people |
| listen to my parent when they are talking |
| take to my workmate |
| handout with my friends |
| My sister being born |
| Taking a trip to Thailand |
| Taking a trip to Latvia |
| Taking a trip to Mexico |
| My parents telling me they are getting divorced |
| One on one conversations with my father |
| One on one conversations with my mother |
| One on one conversations with my grandmothers |
| One on one conversations with my grandfathers |
| Standing up for my religious heritage |
| Standing up for my cultural heritage |
| My grandfather passing away |
| Skiing with my father |
| Playing soccer with my friends |
| Playing basketball with my friends |
| Learning from my elementary teachers the importance of treating others the way you want to be treated |
| Having personal conversations with my sister |
| Having personal conversations with my two closest friends |
| Graduating high school |
| Getting made fun of |
| Talking with my father about the principles of being a strong man |
| Talking with my mother about the importance of being selfless |
| Celebrated Chinese Lunar new year with friends in Hong Kong |
| Went to Japan with family for several times |
| Went to Macau in 2020 |
| Participated Leadership program with friends in 2019 |
| Went to kindergarten in Cerrtios |
| Learned piano for 8 years |
| Went to Boracay with family |
| Went to Guam with family twice |
| Went to Philippine with friends twice |
| Took yoga class with friends |
| Went to night markets with friend |
| Took Mexico Cruise when I was little |
| Watched the Phantom of the Opera |
| Went to Time Square twice |
| Visited the Central Park Tower and watched 131st floor view |
| Went to Bali Island with family |
| Wen to a concert with friends |
| Celebrated 18th birthday with friends |
| Lived in Boston University dormitory with friends |
| Visited Harvard and MIT |
| Going to summer camp by myself (11) |
| Trip to japan with my family |
| Katrina best high school friend |
| Schedule by myself a trip to Orlando |
| First time drive car |
| Try to ride a bike |
| Stay at friends home |
| Having a party at home |
| Skipping class in high school |
| Owning a dog |
| Exercise for a week |
| Went to exo's concert |
| Teach my grandpa how to use cellphone |
| Going to Tokyo Disney with my sister |
| Watching movie ""Smile"" with my friend Irene |
| Celebrate my friend Step's 18 birthday in Boston |
| Take a walk with my grandma |
| Give my mom bouquet in mother's day |
| I have a mask up 18's birthday |
| My high school graduation ceremony |
| Last week of high school |
| Going to New York with three other friends |
| Take train to Boston |
| High school prom |
| Have ear piercing |
| Play snowball |
| Visit MIT and Harvard |
| Moving to California when I was 4 |
| Moving multiple time in California |
| Moving to Germany when I was about 8-9 |
| Moving back to the US at 11 |
| Moving to Arkansas beginning of 9th grade and leaving my best friend |
| traveling around Europe |
| Finding my love for music |
| Meeting my best friend |
| Moving each year of high school |
| final year of high school |
| I found friends that made me become a better person, socially |
| Getting accepted to my top colleges |
| graduating |
| Being a role model to my sister |
| Seeing my brother enlist in the military; making want to do something important with my life |
| Being an older sister throughout my entire life |
| Having a baby sitter until I was in the 8th grade |
| Starting Taekwondo in 6th grade |
| Auditioning for my high school's top madrigals choir and getting accepted was the start of my journey as a soprano section leader as well as the choir's top contra soprano to sing descants. It was a time of travel to the Mission Inn's church, Sizzler, Redland's University, and Cal State Fullerton where I sang carols/classical music and admired other choirs in competition. Also, it led me to sing the alma mater for my school's online graduation during Covid. These experiences shaped me as a musician and encouraged me to further hone these skills in college (and beyond if I audition for the Voice). However, it all started from a simple audition into it and acceptance, which I will never forget. |
| My attendance to my Aunt's church in Riverside where the pastor engaged others' in biblical discussions and cited the importance of particular verses to our lives followed by pop church bands/musicians really changed my perspective on religion. In fact, I haven't been to church since Covid, but I have always told myself that I want to buy a bible from harvest church and go back to find a church that suits me. This is because I realized religion and spirituality doesn't have to be mundane and one dimensional in interpretation/view. It can be engaging an down to earth like real life. |
| I remember my research methods professor in community college would give me internships and career advice during office hours but also during her class at the end of the semester. Also, I remember she said that even after her class, we can always reach out to her. In fact, she was one of the most generous and caring professors I had, but she also taught me that it's ok to ask for advice/help and it's ok to not have the whole future planned out. She taught me that I need to get involved in different opportunities to solidify my true passions. which I'm currently planning to do for next quarter by applying for work study and/or maybe a lab. |
| Tutoring online for the DRC at my community college as well as the workshops required influenced me to become a more diversity accepting person and open minded person to learning from others. Plus, it taught me the power of being able to manage my own work schedule and how freedom in decisions is a huge value of mine in the workplace. Besides that, it's taught me that |
| Recently, I hosted a wedding in Redland's citrus grove and a retirement event in the mountains at a farm for my brother's photobooth business. Those experiences grounded me with peace and allowed me to appreciate others' kindness (Ex: food giving, bug spray, etc.). Plus, it gave me perspective and possibilities for the future while also allowing me to gain wisdom from older individuals that have more life experience. Plus, it taught me the importance of taking a break in nature. |
| Being able to manage writing a research paper for my english class in community college while working 9 days a week (a little over part-time) taught me the power of time confetti and pomodoro, which I still use in my studying. |
| Playing the Wii with my brother's |
| Waking up in the hospital |
| Getting my first straight A's |
| giving a homeless man money after my dad told me not to |
| getting my first job at 16 |
| getting my first car at 16 |
| seeing my mom get divorced |
| having my first boyfriend at 16 |
| being in private gymnastics for three years |
| traveling to france |
| traveling to italy |
| COVID-19 |
| being in competitive cheerleading for four years |
| becoming cheer captain |
| becoming an older sister to a new baby |
| graduating highest honors |
| having talks with my dad about existence |
| visiting my great grandfather with Alzheimers |
| going to church |
| getting fed by my grandparents |
| being a child actor |
| Disneyland |
| Big bear |
| Family passing away |
| Eating food with friends |
| Dating my first time |
| Holding hands |
| Going to movies |
| Christmas time |
| Biking |
| Sports |
| Going to gym for first time |
| dance |
| highschool |
| Getting Ran over by an ATV |
| Moving schools frequently |
| Growing up in an Asian household |
| Being a Army Brat |
| Meeting my dad for the first time |
| Graduating Highschool |
| I tried to overdose on Acetaminophen medication that I stole from a Big Lots on May 6, 2019. |
| I was sent to a psychiatric ward on December 3, 2018 because of self-harming concerns. |
| Getting to see Harry Styles in concert, he told me thank you for bringing him flowers, this is a core memory for me one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Being able to look up to someone for 12 years and counting and getting that interaction with them. |
| Moving out of my parents house because my mom is controlling |
| Getting my first job and being promoted to manager, felt like someone finally believed me |
| The day I met my girlfriend |
| The day of graduation |
| The day my brother passed |
| My parents not being around as much growing up because they had to work most of the time. |
| The day that I got baptized |
| The day that I got cramps in both of my legs at a soccer game |
| The day I graduated for high school |
| Joined high school football |
| Convinced parents to let me go to public high school |
| Committed to UCR |
| Moving day at UCR |
| Moved homes at 11 years old |
| Learning how to get better at a game |
| My first sleepover with my friend |
| Getting my first laptop |
| Playing with my friends |
| Learning how to use the internet |
| Feeding ducks at the park |
| Piano and swimming classes |
| Getting my first straight A's |
| Getting into college |
| Creating a friend group that still holds strong |
| Maintaining long term friendships |
| My first girlfriend |
| Watching my family vote republican every 4 years |
| Getting my first F on an assignment |
| realizing that my grandma favors my brother over me |
| having my first kiss at 13 |
| My mom allowing me to have my first real boyfriend |
| Bringing my boyfriend home to meet my family |
| moving into college and having to meet new friends |
| Getting to have my first sleepover with my boyfriend |
| Getting into the top 40 academically my junior year of highschool |
| confiding to my mom about my mental health for the first time in my life |
| My mother telling me that I would be a good mother |
| crashing my brothers car on the way to my drivers test |
| Getting to be in the pit of a concert |
| My dad taking me to starbucks early one morning before school |
| Violin Practice |
| Hollywood Bowl Performance |
| Walt Disney Concert Hall |
| Playing kickball |
| Family fallout |
| Hoola Hooping with friends |
| Money Bar competitions |
| Cheerleading Practice |
| Gymnastic Practice |
| My first phone |
| Cleaning on Saturdays |
| Starting basketball at a young age |
| Going to high school |
| Going to college |
| My experience as a competitive chess player is significant to who I am. A distinct memory I have is of winning the CA Kindergarten State Championship and running towards my coach right after. As competitive player I spent countless weekends playing tournaments over the years and being part of the chess community shaped how I think and how I interact with others. |
| My father teaching me how to ride a bike with my sister and other cousins |
| Helping my father with cleaning the house |
| Playing through the campaign of Halo 3 with my cousins when I first got my Xbox 360 |
| Entering my first relationship |
| Experiencing my first break up |
| Moving in with my current significant other |
| Entering my first job |
| Quitting my first job |
| Withdrawing from UCLA |
| Graduating from LACC |
| Taking magic mushrooms for my first and only time |
| Being nominated student body vice-president in high school |
| Realizing that the people I play games with depend on me to be the leader |
| My mother telling me ""my son is so smart"" for the first time as an adult |
| Getting high with my cousins during Christmas and having one the best laughs I've ever had |
| Living in my dorm at UCLA |
| Being homeless for a night and sleeping in my car in a really sketchy area |
| dating my first girlfriend |
| getting my drivers license |
| getting my first car |
| traveling in Hong Kong |
| playing videogames with my sister |
| Jumping off the bed and getting a bruised eye |
| Climbing up a high playground and learning how to get off |
| Parents showing me videos of the consequences of crossing the road when the light is red |
| Breaking up |
| Standing up for my friends |
| Studying for a test because I wanted to do well |
| Winning championships in a basketball game |
| Team building exercises with friends during camp |
| Out of country school trips |
| Service activities for the less-developed |
| Passing of a close family |
| Getting into college |
| Experiencing a mental breakdown |
| Performing in front of a crowd |
| Interacting with locals from a different country |
| Being left out by a friend group |
| Learning multiple languages when I was young |
| Getting my first phone |
| Joining a basketball team outside of school |
| Getting yelled at by the coach during a game |
| Being told by my friends that I'm a good listener and give good advice |
| Getting yelled at by my parents |
| Bowing to people |
| Tomb-Sweeping Day (Qing Ming festival) in 2010 |
| Travel to Malaysia |
| Attending my teacher's wedding as bridesmaid |
| Knowing that I'm going have younger siblings |
| Graduation from highschool |
| The first time I kissed a female |
| The first time I had a breakdown |
| Getting my licence a week after getting my permit |
| Having a boxing match with a friend for fun before he left for college. |
| Making new friends after highschool. |
| Finishing highschool |
| Going to grad night |
| Meeting Ate Emilyn |
| Meeting Abril |
| Seeing Xio talk |
| My first kiss |
| First time working with Angelica |
| Learning I was laid off due to covid |
| High school graduation |
| Bella's Sweet 16 |
| My friends' intervention |
| Quitting my first job |
| Grad Nite at California Adventure |
| My junior year final project |
| My first oral surgery |
| My first Bible Studies teaching |
| Performing at the Performing Arts Club |
| Senior Prom |
| My first day of high school |
| My sister being diagnosed with leukemia |
| My cousin being diagnosed with leukemia |
| My first therapy session |
| Buying my first car |
| Getting my driver's license |
| Teaching Dunckel how to drive |
| My first chess game against my uncle |
| Meeting Jasmine |
| Learning to ride a bike |
| Buying my ukulele |
| Being an executive on my high school ASB board |
| leading my cheer team |
| Pep commissioner |
| Working in retail |
| Working in restaurant |
| Raising a puppy |
| Maintaining relationships |
| Traveling the world |
| meeting my childhood best friend in kindergarten |
| learning to drive for the first time |
| graduating highschool |
| When I first started playing volleyball |
| Learning how to play piano |
| Transferring colleges to play volleyball again |
| Graduating High School |
| Getting a cat as my first pet |
| travel |
| weddings |
| mandir |
| I moved schools abruptly and didn't get to say bye to my elementary friends. I was put into a new school where I only knew one person. |
| I chose to go to a public high school rather than a college high school where I can get college credits starting my freshman year. |
| I had my conformation and could then become a special minister of my church. |
| I joined the football team where I met close friends. |
| I was emitted into one of my top choices for university. |
| I met one of my childhood best friends at my birthday in my early years |
| I got my first car at 19 and I felt accomplished |
| Meeting the Love of My Life |
| Learning how to love Myself |
| Learning how to Grow as A Person |
| Meeting my partner |
| Visiting Japan every year |
| Getting a girlfriend helped me understand being mindful and meeting people's needs. |
| Social media has allowed me to understand how quick people jump to conclusions and behaviors with trends and bandwagons. |
| Separating from friends for college made me realize how quick people are to distance themselves from you and how they value you. |
| First time trying vape got me to compare this idea of addiction with other people. |
| Showing up late to my first class (Ceramics) in high school everyday made me realize that I shouldn't feel guilty and how the teacher thinks but rather consider where I value my personal decisions. |
| Receiving my one of few gifts ever received from a school therapist gave insight that some people do see little value of me. |
| Went to ski with my friend |
| play video game with my friend |
| first time came to U.S |
| Very few words to unfamiliar people |
| My relationship with God shapes my identity |
| Found purpose in my life after being saved by God, going through trials that tested my faith |
| My first job when I was in a lot of overwhelming situations, keeping a very optimistic view |
| Having to give away childhood dog |
| Learning to drive |
| First piano recital |
| Moving away for college |
| Breaking my pinkie finger |
| Moving to a new house |
| Running a shop with my Grandparents |
| I was considered about why we born in this world when I was a children. |
| I was considered about other stars has live people or not when I was a primary school student. |
| Deciding to go to a festival the day of |
| Living away from my parents |
| Hanging out with friends outside of school for the first time |
| Getting my drivers license |
| My parents divorce |
| Taking care of my siblings at a young age |
| Getting accepted into college |
| Going to my first concert |
| Online school during Covid-19 |
| Starting and ending taekwondo |
| Getting back with my ex |
| Getting advice from my mom |
| Going to the gym for the first time |
| Slow dancing for the first time |
| Partying for the first time |
| Making new friends in college |
| My baby sister being born |
| Going to Seattle |
| When I was with my childhood friend watching fireworks |
| Eating food with my uncle who later passed away |
| Going to the beach with friends |
| Traveling to Hawaii |
| Being able to perform in my dance team for more than 6 years |
| Preparing for my Sweet sixteen birthday, which ended up being very extravagent and I thank my parents and family members for all the work they put in |
| Family trips-- road trips with cousins and aunts/uncles |
| Great times with my beautiful grandma and grandpa when I was young |
| Childhood-dressing up for Halloween every year and performing at my cousin's wedding |
| My brother and I throwing surprise party for my parents anniversary... and another one for their birthdays |
| W/my best childhood friend: Dulani -- call each other ""sisters"" tdy |
| Travelling to Scotland |
| Getting accepted to 7 colleges |
| Learning to drive |
| Learning to fish |
| Joining theater |
| Playing baseball up until my junior year |
| My first adult beverage |
| My first romantic relationship |
| Receiving my first scholarship |
| Moving to Texas for a period of time |
| Fracturing my spine |
| Learning to skate |
| Moving to four different houses in a single year |
| My parents moving away |
| Winning my first race |
| My first promotion |
| My first job |
| Dad moving to Qatar for 2 years |
| First ticket |
| First apartment |
| Living on my own |
| Finding YouTube channels I love |
| Discovering webtoons |
| Important conversations with my mom |
| Getting into college |
| Winning competitions in kendo and kendama |
| Quarantine |
| Drama with friend groups |
| Meeting and getting to know people in my band |
| Band concerts |
| First feeling of improvement in things I cared about |
| Going to Korea for the first time |
| Travelling to Europe for a band trip |
| Travelling on my own for the first time |
| Living on my own for the first time |
| Growing up with only one parent in the household |
| being raised by my teenage sisters |
| Being in a private school until 5th |
| Moving to public school in 5th grade |
| Making new friends in 7th grade |
| My 7th grade and 8th grade friend group breaking up |
| Playing video games with new friends |
| My best friend moving to Oregon |
| Meeting my roommate and college friends |
| Partying with my friends |
| Going home for the first time in 2-3 months after college started |
| Moving out of my childhood home |
| Playing minecraft |
| Making my first song and having my parents react to that |
| Byhearting my piano recital song in less than 2 weeks |
| My first piano teacher quitting from the school |
| A girl in 5th grade commenting on my physical appearance |
| Being a 5'11 girl |
| Being Indian |
| getting robbed |
| family member passing away |
| traveling as a child |
| traveling as a teen |
| my niece being born |
| cousins visiting from Minnesota |
| being nominated for a conference |
| going to the park as a child with my grandma |
| cheerleading growing up |
| going to church on Christmas |
| Christmas as a child |
| going to panaderias with my grandma |
| going to work with my dad |
| shopping at the mall every Friday with my mom |
| going to Vegas with my family every weekend |
| the Santa Monica pair as a child |
| my aunt visiting from Colorado |
| Meeting my High School friends for the first time |
| Moving to California |
| playing basketball every day after school |
| Getting into beef to protect my friend |
| taking the subway to and from school every day before I moved |
| hanging out with my now ex-girlfriend for the first time |
| my first day in my new school after I moved |
| Hanging out in NYC with my friends every day before I moved |
| my first dog dying |
| going to disneyland for the first time |
| working at my second job |
| working at my first job |
| moving into college |
| playing basketball with strangers every week |
| going to basketball games with my dad |
| hearing certain songs while in specific places that match the mood of the song well |
| going to Romania every summer with my mom |
| visiting NYC after i moved |
| playing video games with my friends every weekend |
| my first time hanging out with some of my high school friends |
| breaking up with my now ex-girlfriend |
| driving my friends around for the first time |
| going to comic con with my dad |
| building LEGO sets |
| walking through the halls and greeting almost everyone in my grade before I moved |
| going to the deli for lunch every day in middle school |
| playing for my middle school basketball team |
| going to mexico and visiting my parents rural homes |
| helping my dad work to make money |
| having to emotionally support my mom |
| Deceased mother |
| Deceased sister |
| Move-in Day for college |
| Traveling to the US from the Philippines |
| Crashing my plane into my sibling's plane in a particular Wii game |
| Being informally knighted when I graduated kindergarten |
| Patting my current cat on the head for the first time after about four months of feeding her |
| My current cat sleeping in my lap for the first time |
| Reading the first chapter of Warrior Cats Into the Wild |
| Eating snow crab at a restaurant for my father's birthday |
| A coyote watched me walk around |
| I helped my father hop a fence |
| Writing 6 pages of a story in an hour on my mother's laptop |
| Waking up at 7:00 am on a weekend to play a computer game |
| Being followed by a pack of street dogs on a vacation |
| Watching Howl's Moving Castle with my mother several days in a row |
| Getting two cinnamon rolls instead of the one that me and my sibling ordered at a Corner Bakery |
| playing basketball in middle school |
| playing basketball in league |
| Brother coaches me in basketball |
| freshmen year in high school |
| making friends |
| break up #1 |
| making new friends |
| relationship |
| negatives of relationship |
| break up #2 |
| making new friends |
| going to Disneyland |
| auditioning for choir |
| going to Vegas |
| choir concerts |
| choir banquet |
| beach with friends |
| 626 with friends |
| 18 birthday |
| moving to college |
| mall with friends |
| gifts for friends |
| halloween with friends |
| photoshoot with friends |
| telling my friends I love them |
| working at snowy village |
| first paycheck |
| coming to college for soccer |
| getting my first job |
| moving to a different team |
| going to Tennessee with my team |
| getting my first phone |
| driving my. car for the first time |
| getting my license |
| getting my dog |
| getting a job at del taco |
| my signing day |
| going to high school for the first time |
| graduating from 8th grade |
| graduating from high school |
| getting close to my cousins |
| when went to cancun |
| meeting my new teammates |
| going to the white house |
| seeing snow fall for the first time |
| going to my new church |
| going on a plane for the first time |
| my first college party |
| my 18th birthday party |
| getting social media |
| my first boyfriend |
| going on my first cruise |
| finding my first real best friend |
| moving to the USA |
| starting school |
| Making my first basketball shot |
| Pledging for a coed fraternity |
| Starting college |
| First love |
| Visiting Korea |
| Visiting Philippines |
| Renting a theatre with my friends |
| Realizing that my dad was an alcoholic. |
| Taking ‘Transpersonal Psychology’ in high school, which definitely helped with my perception of myself and self growth. |
| My older brother being diagnosed with schizophrenia. |
| Gradnite during senior year. |
| Celebrating my graduation and realizing how proud people were of me. |
| Realizing I ultimately chose my college for reasons that weren’t necessarily good reasons (but now, I do not regret it!) |
| Celebrating my best friends birthday. |
| Moving into my dorm, with the help of my family. |
| Saying goodbye to the Bay Area and my family. |
| Going to my very first college party with my newly made college friends. |
| Not having running water for a week because we couldn't afford to pay the water bill. |
| Getting accepted to UCR |
| Ice skating with my brownie group |
| Moving to Lafayette |
| First day of waterpolo |
| Diagnosis with epilepsy |
| First time driving |
| Moving in to college |
| 18th birthday |
| Shikoku Pilgrimage in Japan |
| First Time Cooking/Watching Cooking Shows |
| Going to Singapore |
| Graduating High School |
| Playing Video Games with Friends |
| Trip to Hawaii |
| Trip to Jamaica for my birthday |
| Going to Arizona for a baseball tournament |
| Going to Las Vegas for a baseball tournament |
| Watching my great aunt pass in the hospital |
| Getting into college |
| My dad's bone marrow transplant |
| My best friend dropping me for his girlfriend |
| Getting into a sorority |
| Becoming the VP Finance |
| I remember the day I got accepted into universities. |
| I remember my first break up. |
| I remember the day my aunt was hospitalized. |
| I remember winning the CIF championship for our tennis team. |
| I remember graduating alongside all my friends. |
| singing in preschool |
| learning to play the cello |
| crashing my bicycle when riding |
| being afraid to speak up back in elementary school |
| creating an original song |
| performances |
| My brother being born |
| making friends in elementary school |
| parents having issues with each other |
| being taken off of medication |
| reconnecting with my old elementary school friends |
| being sexually assulted |
| having a really strong group I could talk to about anything |
| starting therapy again after a year of not going |
| being in my first relationship |
| breaking up with my boyfriend |
| finally healing and moving on |
| starting a new relationship and learning my worth as a person |
| starting college |
| making new friends in this new environment |
| learning how to balance school and a social life |
| Being captain of my high school dance team |
| Seeing my parents at every single dance competition since 8 years old |
| Watching/listening to my brother get yelled at by my parents and standing up for him |
| Moving into college |
| Teaching dance classes |
| Spending time with myself during quarantine |
| My first boyfriend |
| My mom providing everything for my family and always being there for us |
| Going to lake tahoe or mammoth every winter every since elementary school |
| Getting made fun of my asian lunch in elementary school |
| Wanting white friends in middle school |
| Working my first job at an all you can eat sushi restaraunt |
| Family coming over for the holidays |
| My senior year friend group |
| Prioritizing dance over school |
| Watching my friends do long distance |
| Always having to be aware and alert of men's intentions |
| Playing video games for the first time |
| Getting a dog |
| Finishing first on a test and getting a 100 |
| Getting into ucr |
| Win the election and be the president of high school student council. |
| First time went to the boarding school and live by myself. |
| First time cook for my family. |
| First time travel to another region in my country by myself. |
| First time travel to another country by myself. |
| Spending time talk with my family about my major in the University. |
| Trying to install furnitures by myself in another country. |
| Being the captain of my high school volleyball team. |
| My 6th birthday with my dad at church |
| Getting my first puppy at age 8 |
| Throwing up while watching the movie Shark Tales |
| Playing with Webkinz at a sleepover with my best friend |
| Visiting my family at Texas at age 11 |
| Visiting Hawaii at age 11 |
| Indoor skydiving and also real skydiving! |
| My 21st birthday party at my house |
| Stepping on a wasp while running outside |
| ucr student |
| only daughter |
| buying new car |
| playing with my neighbors and my childhood best friend |
| moving away from my childhood home in 2nd grade |
| moving to another school again in 3rd grade |
| meeting my best friend |
| my first kiss |
| moving out for college |
| the day we got my cat |
| my mother's stroke |
| opening college admission decisions at work |
| Moving to Mexico for 3 years |
| Attending school in Mexico |
| Moving to the USA |
| Attending school in the USA |
| Going to Disneyland for the first time |
| Graduating high school |
| Seeing relatives in the USA |
| Visiting central Mexico |
| Learning how to drive |
| Going to high school homecoming |
| Learning English for the first time |
| Seeing my grandparents for the first time |
| Going to university |
| shopping with friend |
| going to mexico |
| first kiss |
| meeting new friend |
| my new job |
| getting accepted into college |
| moving out |
| going to spain |
| learning to drive |
| getting my license |
| having a party |
| meeting my bestfriend |
| doing good on a test |
| getting asked out to prom |
| homecoming dance |
| graduation |
| track team |
| running varsity |
| baby brother coming |
| me meeting a celebrity |
| my first car |
| trip to dubai |
| joining soccer |
| living in spain |
| winning $100 |
| trying a hamburger in spain |
| my first phone |
| first trip to disneyland |
| first trip to sixflags |
| first gym visit |
| first kiss |
| first time getting a dog |
| 5th christmas |
| first dance |
| parents divorce |
| when i got my license |
| when i graduated from highschool |
| when i had my first sleepover |
| first job |
| first time working in a nursing home |
| first time going to mexico |
| first trip to laughlin |
| time i learned how to swim |
| first time buying a car |
| visiting grandmas house during summer |
| first time getting nails done |
| spending the night at ucr |
| first time meeting boyfriends family |
| getting the dog i love |
| COVID-19 Pandemic / Quarantine |
| Breakup of my first relationship |
| Kicking a guy's genitals because they were making fun of my friends. |
| Doing really well on triple jump and my coach praising me. |
| Being out in the rain for a track meet while all the events were still going on. |
| high school graduation |
| first week of university |
| getting food with friends during summer |
| Working on computer science with my dad |
| playing basketball with my life long friends |
| playing fortnite with friends |
| Driving to LA for the first time |
| Enjoying tacos and a local shop |
| Trying different food spots and recording a review |
| Working on stocks every morning |
| Going to new york |
| going to sneakercon |
| Breaking my arm |
| Watching a movie with friends |
| Snowboarding |
| Swim competition |
| Getting stitches on my head |
| Snowboard trip with friends |
| Watching my favorite tv show |
| Roadtrip with mom |
| Skating with friends |
| Growing up with cousins |
| Cooking for children |
| Playing video games with cousins |
| Swim practice |
| Going to Korea |
| Watching my favorite movie in theaters |
| First day of highschool |
| Last day of highschool |
| Highschool graduation |
| First day of college |
| Drinking for the first time |
| Getting a F for the first time |
| Riding rollercoasters |
| Learning to drive |
| Winning a swim competition |
| Meeting my extended family |
| Grad night |
| Visiting my friend at Vegas |
| Getting hungover for the first time |
| Growing up in church, my identity is a child of God. My best memories are in sunday school with all my friends every sunday morning |
| Seeing my parents sacrifice a lot for me motivated me to always do my best. |
| In peru I have seen a lot of stray animals, that makes me love them a lot. |
| Playing soccer. |
| Hanging out with family and friends. |
| Listening to music. |
| Watching sports. |
| Trying new things. |
| Taking walks. |
| Playing with video games. |
| Joining the wrestling team |
| Asking out my first girlfriend |
| Road to study |
| The noble people I met |
| A couple of big life moments |
| Joining a soccer team |
| Family outing to the beach |
| Joining a baseball team |
| Elementary school years (kindergarten to fourth grade) |
| Holiday get togethers |
| Moving houses |
| Baby sister being born |
| high school ""pace program"" |
| immigrating to the US |
| first job as a receptionist |
| current job as a pharmacy technician |
| Living in Mexico |
| Parents divorce |
| Graduating High School |
| Moving out for college |
| Learning how to drive a vehicle |
| Growing up in a Hispanic household |
| Gaining close relationships with my siblings |
| Learning how to be selfless |
| Learning how to have patience with people |
| My first day of school |
| Buying my first Binder |
| Learning my multiplication tables |
| Joining basketball |
| Joining Martial Arts |
| Joining Rugby |
| Choosing Biomedical Engineering as my major |
| First time trying to use a skate board |
| Watching Bear Grylls |
| Getting Baptized |
| Coming out as bi |
| Coming out as Gay |
| Realizing I'm trans |
| Starting therapy |
| Breaking up with my first girlfriend |
| Using the men's bathroom for the first time |
| My childhood dog passing away and it made me feel like I'm leaving behind my childhood and I am entering a new chapter of my life. |
| Overcoming two open heart surgeries |
| Being a first generation, and having my family be so proud when I told them I want to go to college. |
| Working two jobs in high school, while still having soccer practice every day. |
| Going to church every Wednesday and Sunday. |
| Doing community service in High school |
| Going to the gym everyday but the weekends |
| Being with my best friend everyday of the summer. |
| Going to Cabo with my family for my 15th birthday. |
| Got my first car when I turned 18 years old. |
| Learning how to drive with my mom |
| Getting my firs tattoo |
| Going on my first day |
| First day of College, very nerve-racking! |
| Visiting my best friend at her college, which is UCI. |
| Buying a dog and naming him Louie. |
| Going to Newport to look at the beautiful houses to get motivation. |
| Investing in buying shoes, because that would make me happy! |
| Trying Sea food for the first time |
| Decorating the Christmas tree with my mom and sister. |
| Becoming a Tia to my first niece. |
| Becoming a first time Godmother. |
| Going to the Dodgers game and then seeing fireworks. |
| Going to DisneyLand and it was decorated for Christmas |
| Going to the Drive ins every weekend with friends and watching movies that just came out. |
| Going to the beach and having a bonfire with friends. |
| Having another surgery, which means now I have had three surgeries. |
| Being happy within myself ! |
| Going to Mexico for the first time. |
| Getting my first pet |
| learning how to ride a bike |
| Going on my first rollercosters |
| First day of Highschool |
| My 15 birthday party |
| Going to Culican Sinaloa |
| Graduating Highschool |
| Getting Covid for the first time. |
| First day of College. |
| Cracking my head open |
| Meeting people in high school |
| Going to school in Japan |
| meeting my parter for the first time |
| holidays |
| working out |
| meeting my dad for the first time |
| Winning my first badminton tournament |
| My grandfather passing away |
| My 5th birthday party |
| Middle school graduation |
| getting my first dog |
| starting elementary |
| birth of my first nephew |
| starting middle school |
| birth of my first niece |
| senior year of high school |
| prom |
| homecoming dance |
| first boyfriend |
| birth of second niece |
| graduation |
| getting a drivers license |
| visiting family in Mexico |
| college acceptance |
| summer 2022 |
| starting college |
| moving out of my parents house |
| First Love |
| First Cook by myself |
| First surgery |
| First time being kicked out of school |
| Always being outside with other kids and creating memories with them that still feel nostalgic to this day |
| Hanging out with my childhood friends who were older than me and they taught me a lot of mannerisms |
| Building closer relationships with those older friends who I now see as sisters and they really shaped me to who I am today |
| Training for a sport |
| First relationship |
| First breakup |
| Social Media |
| My dog running away |
| Graduating high school |
| Going out with my friends for the first time |
| Playing bass for my worship group |
| Playing video games with my brother |
| Watching movies with my brother |
| Going to concerts |
| Making a speech so I could run for president in elementary school |
| Getting my sister's old iPod when she got a new one |
| Watching my brother skate on his skateboard |
| Watching the worship group practice when I was little |
| Taking care of cats that lived under the house |
| Being president twice |
| I ran a marathon |
| My first B in a class after getting straight A’s my entire life |
| Feeling loved by everyone around me in my highschool graduation |
| Learning to drive |
| Going to the beach for the first time |
| Going camping for the first time |
| Starting MMA training |
| Discovering K-pop Music |
| Learning how to play tennis for the first time |
| First day of middle school |
| First day of high school |
| First day of college |
| Parents Divorce |
| The day I made my first friend |
| My friend rented a cabin in Big Bear for our friend group to stay at on night. We had so much fun and I bonded with many of them whom I never got to talk to much before. This showed me how important meeting new people can be for me and how much I enjoy having someone to talk to about anything. |
| moving to the U.S. at 13 |
| receiving my college acceptance letter |
| receiving my diagnosis |
| My first day in kindergarten |
| seeing myself for the first time in the mirror |
| learning how to love myself at a young age |
| Learning bits of the english language from watching Johnny Test on the television. |
| Having a comeback when someone said something mean to me in middle school and then becoming friends with his friends. |
| Being fascinated with games ever since I've seen my family play with the Nintendo DS. |
| When I went to Disneyland at 9 years old with my family and friends for the first time |
| When I first met my dog Hera at 8 weeks old and felt so much joy and company |
| When I took my first test in AP Psychology |
| The piano shaped the majority of my future when I started playing at the age of six. |
| My family granted me the choice to take any pathway I was willing to take for my future. |
| After the passings of my grandparents, I realized that it is important to always check upon people who I care about the most. |
| Learning different kinds of sports granted me the opportunity to utilize many skills into real-life situations. |
| When I got accepted into my college prep high school |
| When I got my first beta fish |
| When I got my first puppy |
| When my first dog passed away |
| When my best friend passed away |
| When my favorite teacher in middle school moved |
| When I began my first piano lessons |
| When I quit my piano lessons |
| When I began piano lessons later on and didn’t quit |
| When I realized who my real friends were |
| When I first fell in love but learned that it wasn’t really love |
| When I was shown actual love and found the person I want to be with |
| When I first dyed my hair with my sister |
| When I went to my first dance with my friends |
| When I started my first sport and found a love for basketball |
| When my little brother was born |
| When I went with my sister to my very first concert |
| When I realized I didn’t feel I was pretty enough as a girl |
| When I started going to the gym |
| When I got accepted into universities |
| When I moved out of my house to go to school |
| My first job at McDonald’s |
| Friends I made at my jobs |
| Becoming an adult and having responsibilities |
| When my sister moved to a different state for school |
| When I went to a rock festival with my boyfriend and his family |
| All the times I went to Disneyland with my boyfriend |
| Graduating from High school |
| Getting my blue belt in JIu Jitsu |
| Entering the stage in life with my wife and dog |
| Realizing my Father is an addict |
| going to cif |
| acceptance to ucr |
| moving in |
| first kiss |
| Moving to California |
| Winning my first research prize |
| Winning my first writing prize |
| Calling Santa Claus ""HoHo"" and thought the Carls Jr. Star was Santa. |
| Finding out My Mom provided presents and not Santa Claus |
| First time i got a phone |
| Parents Divorce |
| When i got an important character in 4th grade choir play |
| Getting my 3ds |
| First day of Middle school |
| Discovering Kpop |
| First day of highschool |
| Meeting first close friend in highschool |
| Getting cast in my first highschool musical |
| getting cast as more than ensemble in highschool production |
| Getting cast as a supportive character in highschool play |
| Getting cast as lead character in highschool production |
| Announcement of quarantine |
| Getting COVID for the first time |
| spending new years whilst in covid quarantine |
| First Kiss (Stage kiss) |
| Graduation |
| Gradnight |
| First day of College |
| Acceptance to UCR |
| Last day of highschool |
| Winning Dionysus award in senior year |
| Last performance in highschool |
| First day of Senior year |
| Meeting my little cousins for the first time |
| When i met my bestfriend |
| basketball |
| education |
| friends |
| Immigrated to the US when I was 13 |
| Helped my sisters with their homework |
| Proofread college essays for my underclassmen friends |
| Made important phone calls for my parents because they didn't know English |
| My oldest half-brother dying. |
| My youngest half-brother dying. |
| My grandfather dying. |
| My uncle dying. |
| Graduating high school. |
| Starting to bake. |
| Getting a cat. |
| My 13 years younger sister being born. |
| Starting college. |
| Being labeled as ""gifted"" young. |
| Having immigrant parents. |
| Going to Palestine (home country) for the first time. |
| Living through COVID-19. |
| Being raised Muslim. |
| Going through the IB Diploma program. |
| Moving to Moreno Valley. |
| My best friend moving to a different state. |
| when my mom talked about her childhood |
| being raised in an highly latino populated area |
| being called a hippo |
| defending my dad about his decision to quit a draining job |
| watching my cousins have everything they wanted |
| having 90% of my family in mexico |
| graduating highschool |
| going to college away from home |
| my sister defending me from my parents |
| camping with my friends in my backyard |
| going to disneyland for the first time |
| getting all the clothes i wanted |
| experiencing love for the first time |
| watching my boyfriend follow his dreams |
| being able to follow my dreams with my boyfriend |
| moving in with my boyfriend |
| my cat dying |
| eating breakfast with my grandpa in mexico |
| going to the plaza with my cousins |
| People always tell me you are a outgoing girl, so now I am a outgoing girl. |
| My mother is a kind woman, she influence me a lot. I am kind too. |
| when my parent talk about divorce infront of me |
| learning new language |
| change country to live, experiencing different culture |
| Getting accepted to UCR. |
| Graduating High school. |
| Meeting my mom's boyfriend and him becoming my stepdad. |
| Meeting my best friend freshman year. |
| Getting my dog Ruffus. |
| Getting my dog Kenai. |
| Getting my bird Rio. |
| Getting my fish Krispy. |
| Graduating as highest honors in High School. |
| Learning how to drive a car. |
| Getting my license. |
| Finally getting my first job at Yogurtland. |
| Covid affecting my mental health. |
| Texting some random boy from school. |
| That random boy becomes my boyfriend. |
| Being with my boyfriend for a year. |
| Eating out with my grandparents every Friday. |
| Going to a church that was very Judgemental. |
| Getting tattoos and piercings. |
| Seeing my mom try her absolute best for me. |
| My sister being born. |
| My brother being born. |
| My other brother being born. |
| I won a few piano recitals back in elementary school |
| I attended middle school in LA without knowing a single phrase in english |
| I met my first boyfriend for almost 2 years |
| I drank alcohol for the first time in 9th grade |
| I went to a party for the first time soon after my highschool graduation |
| I had a part time job for about 2 months to save up some money |
| I visited my home country in 6 years, this summer. |
| I used to be like a tomboy in my home country until I became kind of passive eversince I moved to LA |
| I used to climb trees and playground equipments |
| travel with my parents |
| meet my friends |
| learning new language |
| Volunteering in Nepal |
| Learned instruments |
| Went to international school |
| Made friends in high school |
| Go traveled around the world during every holiday |
| Play video games with friends online |
| Did plastic surgery |
| Learned English |
| Learned Japanese |
| Decided to study abroad |
| Meeting an online friend for the first time |
| The creation of my longest lasting group chat |
| The beginning of high school |
| Senior year of high school |
| College orientation |
| My current friend group sharing deep secrets |
| Moving houses in 2015 |
| Middle school |
| Living in Georgia for 3 months in 2019 |
| Quarantine/Lockdown |
| Living in Georgia for 3 months in 2021 |
| Finding my twin flame |
| Discovering my favorite anime |
| Moving to England |
| Graduating high school |
| College orientation |
| Getting accepted to my top college |
| Turning 18 |
| Graduating with my two best friends |
| Going to Disneyland for the first time |
| Getting my first job |
| Getting my license |
| Handling a snake |
| Getting my most recent dog |
| Going to Mexico every weekend when I was 9 |
| 16th Birthday |
| Drivers license |
| brother being born |
| first day of school |
| riding a bike |
| first sleep over |
| first time on a flight |
| seeing snow for the first time |
| first day of high school |
| My 15 birthday party |
| My first car |
| My High School Graduation |
| moving to africa |
| attending religious studies |
| having my own journey with religion |
| learning how much words hold power |
| I was walking my dog and I found a lizard. I brought it home and let it go in my backyard. |
| 1st degree black belt test |
| 2nd degree black belt test |
| 3rd degree black belt test |
| getting accepted into a UC |
| qualifying for team cif golf i shot a +3 on 18 holes that brought my team into the next round |
| skiing through what felt like a blizzard. It was very windy and the snow stung on my cheeks |
| gaining large amounts of weight in highschool |
| loosing more than half that weight in recent years |
| not much more i can remember or would like to keep private |
| graduating high school |
| Graduating high school |
| Holidays with my family |
| Getting my drivers license |
| relationships |
| family |
| friends |
| School |
| kids |
| i am asian |
| i am korean |
| i am a male |
| when i first moved to america |
| getting my first pair of shoes |
| getting my first tuxedo |
| my first band class |
| my first band concert |
| my first marching band parade |
| my first time going to the gym |
| my first time getting into gaming |
| my first time building a computer |
| graduating middle school |
| graduating high school |
| moving into my college dorm |
| when I was admitted into 3 mental hospitals |
| My first meeting with a therapist |
| The times my father walked out, only to return a few hours later |
| When I was SA'd |
| When I was diagnosed with BPD |
| My 4th relationship - positive self reflection |
| My Grandpa Taking Me to School |
| Visting Mexico |
| Having a Great 4/5th Grade Teacher |
| Going to Middle School |
| Grandpa Passing |
| Meeting New Friends |
| Promoting to High School |
| Meeting My Lifelong Friends |
| Visiting Florida |
| Catholic Confirmation |
| Senior Year |
| Graduating High School |
| Being Accepted into Universities |
| First Day of Univeristy |
| meeting my best friends of 7 years |
| first time listening to freudian by daniel caesar |
| In 6th grade elementary school, I was the best trombone player in school, got designated one of the top 2 band players, and got to play a solo during a band performance. |
| In spring of this year, I beat one of the hardest Mario levels called ""Champion's Road"" by myself without any in-game ""power-ups."" |
| During my first week of 9th grade, I met new friends through a class acquiantaince who were more similar to me because they were focused on studies and accepting of my hobbies. |
| When I ate food with meat from Taco Bell that wouldn't be permissible for a Muslim to eat, I felt like I was finally starting to become independent. |
| When I was in around 2nd grade, I finally was able to steadily ride on a bike after practicing a lot to balance myself. Soon, I became good enough to where I could kick off on my own without training wheels. |
| A few months ago, I was able to beat an entire Mario game without using any power-ups or game assistance tools. |
| Back in May, I was able to get a 4 and a 5 on my 2 AP exams. It made me appreciate the value of taking practice tests and studying. |
| Back in August of 2021, I passed my Driver's License Test on my first try. It made me proud of my ability to accomplish big feats on my own. |
| Just a few weeks ago, I got my mom to start watching the cartoon ""Avatar: The Last Airbender"" with me. It helped me realize that even with how different we all are, it is possible to get my family members interested in my hobbies. |
| When my mom went to take care of her mom in India, I was able to become more independent by driving out on my own to buy groceries and meals for the rest of my family. |
| making friends at a new school |
| winning a tournament with my friends |
| getting an A on an essay for the first time in college |
| making my parents happy when I showed them my grades |
| saving up for my first computer |
| Every time I participate in traditions of mu culture. |
| Graduating high school. |
| Going to college. |
| Moving out of my home and dorming on campus. |
| Moving to the United States and living with my Aunt for a couple of months and getting to know my cousin better and assimilating into American Culture. I remember getting off the plane and sitting next to my cousin who I am very close to now on the way to their house, being amazed by the roads and the houses we drove by. |
| Grad night in middle school. I had a lot of fun and got to go on rides at six flags with my friends and laugh all night together. |
| The arabic show. We do this show every year for my arabic class and the first year was so fun, I met two of my other best friends and we practiced doing traditional dances, songs, and plays. It was so fun and I felt super connected to my culture and felt like those around me were like my family in that class. |
| Joining the IB program and specifically talking with my IB coordinator. When I talked to him, he was so understanding and supported and I felt that support was really important. |
| doing a summer program at ucla health. This program solidified my interest in pursing a career in medicine and I remember how fun learning different techniques like suturing was. |
| First lecture. went really well and I loved my professor! |
| Taking an extended spring break in sophomore year of highschool |
| Signing up and applying to college |
| Graduating highschool |
| Thanksgiving breaks in the pas 3 years |
| Playing varsity soccer for senior year of highschool |
| Playing video games with my brother |
| Getting baptized |
| Move in day college |
| I was riding in a Maybach in Russia and I had sex with 2 prostitutes |
| I was in London and I swam in Serpentine Lake. |
| I was skateboarding at night on the streets of Berlin |
| I was riding a Bird scooter in Madrid and I fell. |
| I did my first stage dive in Austin Texas at a Braid concert |
| I was driving the boat in Cuba. |
| I was in Paris eating at this Indian restaurant by the train station |
| I took the train back to London and I was listening to Lil Yachty |
| I bought a Faygo soda at the gas station |
| I had sex with two Brazilian prostitutes at the same time in London |
| I was in New York City smoking marijuana in central park |
| I was on the beach at night in Barcelona |
| I remember the girl with the huge breasts that I was fond of. |
| I was skating the streets of Seattle at midnight with best friend. |
| I made love to a Russian prostitute in Moscow |
| I was out in Tijuana with my other best friend. |
| I was on a train from Madrid to Barcelona |
| I was at the Whole foods in London |
| I went to Tim Hortons in Calgary, Canada. |
| I was smoking marijuana with a prostitute in Colombia |
| I did cocaine in Colombia |
| I was in the swimming pool at the gym. |
| I noticed the Texaco gas station in Medellin on the way back to airport |
| I took a flight out to Spain |
| I was driving a Range Rover in the mountains. |
| I was skateboarding in San Francisco. |
| Reading through a whole mini-library in 4th grade |
| Being in toxic friendships throughout middle school |
| Becoming emotional support for friends throughout high school |
| Joining Scouts BSA in 2016 until leaving in 2022 |
| Devoting time to playing tennis throughout high school |
| Playing nintendo games throughout my childhood and pre-teen years |
| learning to drive |
| first date |
| first prom |
| grandma passing away |
| meeting my half-brother |
| moving into college |
| started going to the gym consistently |
| meeting roommates |
| paying for a trip all on my own |
| finding classes |
| being away from home for more than a day |
| ucr orientation |
| receiving a family heirloom |
| working and having my own money to spend |
| on-the-phone interview |
| I did gymnastic for 10 years. |
| I've done track since I was 8, and I am now doing it in college. |
| My dad was the one who worked, while my mom spent more time with my sister and I. |
| I am a younger sibling with an older sister. |
| I fell in a race at a national meet when i was 12. |
| I didn't get my first computer until 6th grade, and i didn't get my girst phone until 9th grade. |
| My family was very ethnically diverse, but I grew up in a very white town. |
| I grew up surrounded by a lot of family in California. |
| My first dog passed away when I was about 5. |
| I was very hyper in the 6th grade which was off putting for people |
| In the 8th grade I calmed down a bit and was more grounded, and saw that people liked me |
| My sister giving me advice everyday after school |
| Got put through private catholic highschool to turn out better |
| Being good at saving money up as a kid and realizing other people were not |
| Realizing I spend too much time on my phone |
| Going to the gym and gaining confidence |
| Going through 3 months of football practice |
| getting my first real friend group in jr year highschool |
| Being very good at socializing at school |
| Going to my white friend's birthday party |
| Listening to music which made me question my religious views |
| Being raised on Mexico |
| Moving to U.S. |
| Sharing a room with my mom, my sister and 3 cousins |
| Moving and sharing a room with my sister and my mom |
| Moving to an apartment |
| My first day in a school at U.S |
| Being on a shelter |
| My last day of high school |
| Prom |
| Going to Disney |
| Going to Tijuana for a camp |
| Going back to my hometown for the first time |
| Sharing a room with my roommate |
| Getting an iPhone |
| Buying my own computer |
| Going to L.A. with friends |
| Going for trips in the middle of the night with friends |
| Learning how to ride a bike |
| Going to the San Pablo Library with my Dad on Mondays |
| My Dad picking me up from elementary school in his big work van |
| Signing up for my first singing class when I was six years old at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts |
| Going to church with my parents and slowly growing out of the religion as I got older |
| Went to church to watch my dad play volleyball and eventually I started playing and continued to teach myself how to play and get better through the years |
| Going to work with my mom and spending time with her client Cathy and her home at the park |
| Making up dances and singing songs with my cousins to perform to our family when we were younger |
| Going over to my cousin's house where our Grandma would babysit us and we would have the most fun time in the backyard playing with bugs and messing with the chicken that my cousin had in their backyard |
| Playing Wii with my cousins. WiiSports, WiiPlay, Just Dance, Disney Karaoke |
| Performing for the first time at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts. |
| Getting into the Diploma Program at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts. |
| Constantly worked on my volleyball skills in my backyard and supported my girls volleyball team during their seasons. |
| Becoming an uncle at the age of four. Now I have two nephews and three nieces. |
| The passing of my Grandpa before starting my first year of high school. |
| Joining the vocal ensemble Voices of Reason at the East Bay Center for the Performing Arts |
| Opening myself up to a guy in March of 2021. |
| Graduating High School. |
| Getting accepted to and attending college. |
| Played my first year of high school volleyball my senior year for another school |
| The pandemic. |
| Smoking weed for the first time. |
| First day of middle school. |
| Graduating High School |
| Smoking for the first time |
| My first sleep over at my friends house |
| My 13th birthday |
| Getting yelled at by my little league baseball coach |
| playing basketball with my friends at rec centers |
| My first kiss |
| When I asked out my current girlfriend |
| Thanksgiving 2016 (all my family came for the first time) |
| Ditching my Avid class senior year to hang out in the counselors office |
| Recording my first song in my friends basement |
| Playing video games and watching anime simultaneously during covid |
| Random clips I made from playing Rainbow Six Seige and NBA2k20 |
| Going on walks at lake with my Grandma |
| Playing a big game of Cops and Robbers around City Heights with my Neighbors |
| My first High School House party |
| Cooking chicken alfredo with my girlfriend |
| Taking my first college final (over the summer quarter of 2022) |
| Going to the Red Woods with my family |
| Moving into my current home in 2016 |
| My Mom divorcing my dad |
| The French Vocabulary test I took in 1st grade |
| Getting my ears pierced |
| This video of me being passed around in freshman p.e. |
| When me and my sister finally became friends |
| Growing up dancing in the studio around 10 hours a week every year since I was 3 |
| Being responsible for a living thing - getting my first ever pet when I was four |
| meeting my older cousin at her grandmas house |
| transferring to a new school for 4th grade |
| starting high school with high and strong motivation |
| covid hitting sophomore year and still doing well academically |
| dropping the IB program after my first semester |
| beginning senior year |
| getting into my first relationship senior year |
| moving to UCR |
| Smashed my pinky finger in the door. |
| My first pet passing away. |
| My bulldog passing away on Valentine’s Day. |
| Playing tetherball during the summer. |
| Moving to a new school. |
| Making my high school volleyball team. |
| Grandmother passing away |
| Having a movie date with my mom. |
| Going to my first concert |
| Going to the zoo with all of my cousins |
| Moving in with my aunt |
| Dying my hair for the first time |
| Purchasing a gift for my parents for the first time. |
| First Friendsgiving with friends |
| First secret Santa with friends |
| Making friends in college |
| Peeing myself in public |
| Running around outside at night for the first time by myself |
| Swimming by myself on the deep end |
| Getting my painting hung up for the first time |
| when i was around 9, my older sister was 18 and would get paid to babysit myself and my younger siblings, 7 and 3. She would sleep while i would attempt to make food and take care of the youngest. |
| i shaved my head the year before college started through impulse |
| the older i get, the more fond i am of kid shows |
| i played waterpolo, soccer, swim, dance |
| Moving |
| becoming an older sister |
| learning how to drive |
| Meeting my best friend |
| Deciding to become a doctor |
| Learning to play the piano |
| Dad yelling at me for not knowing how to do homework |
| Friends leaving me in high school |
| Growing up christian |
| Growing up in a suburban community |
| growing up with only one present parent |
| only child for majority of life |
| Moving across the country |
| attending college |
| friends and family influence |
| growing up as the oldest daughter and grandchild |
| first romantic experience with a girl from volleyball |
| my grandma passing away at the beginning of freshman year of college |
| adopting cats |
| having really good sex with someone who i viewed as temporary |
| meeting jonathan |
| getting a septum |
| going to the gym |
| The first time that I played tennis |
| The first time I went to the gym |
| The beginning of covid |
| The month I moved into my new house in Riverside |
| The nexplanon implant that I received |
| Getting close with my friend Claire |
| Working as a camp counselor for many summers |
| Starting college at UCR |
| Starting college tennis |
| I'm an actress |
| I'm an artist |
| I'm a writer |
| I love reading |
| I did cheer in freshmen of high school |
| I went to a boarding school |
| My dog is my best friend |
Effects Replicate for Positivity of Text
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(outdegree) | -0.02 | -0.06, 0.03 | 0.4 |
| scale(indegree) | 0.07 | 0.01, 0.13 | 0.027 |
| numID | 0.00 | -0.01, 0.00 | 0.4 |
| scale(length) | -0.05 | -0.09, 0.00 | 0.035 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Strength of Inward Causes Predicts Positivity of Text
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(strengthOut) | -0.02 | -0.07, 0.02 | 0.4 |
| scale(strengthIn) | 0.07 | 0.02, 0.13 | 0.015 |
| numID | 0.00 | -0.01, 0.00 | 0.3 |
| scale(length) | -0.05 | -0.09, 0.00 | 0.035 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Number of Outward Implications Predict Certainty
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(outdegree) | 0.08 | 0.02, 0.15 | 0.013 |
| scale(indegree) | 0.06 | 0.01, 0.11 | 0.033 |
| numID | -0.01 | -0.02, 0.00 | 0.2 |
| scale(length) | -0.12 | -0.16, -0.08 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Strength of Outward Implications Predicts Certainty
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(strengthIn) | 0.08 | 0.03, 0.14 | 0.006 |
| scale(strengthOut) | 0.13 | 0.07, 0.19 | <0.001 |
| numID | -0.01 | -0.02, 0.00 | 0.074 |
| scale(length) | -0.12 | -0.16, -0.08 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
More Outward Implications More Clearly Defined
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(outdegree) | 0.07 | 0.00, 0.13 | 0.037 |
| scale(indegree) | 0.03 | -0.03, 0.09 | 0.3 |
| numID | -0.01 | -0.02, 0.00 | 0.2 |
| scale(length) | -0.13 | -0.17, -0.08 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Moderated by Self-Concept Clarity
At higher levels of self-concept clarity, outward implications matter more for clarity of memory
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(outdegree) | -0.18 | -0.43, 0.07 | 0.2 |
| SCC | -0.03 | -0.14, 0.08 | 0.6 |
| scale(indegree) | 0.03 | -0.02, 0.09 | 0.2 |
| numID | -0.01 | -0.01, 0.00 | 0.2 |
| scale(length) | -0.13 | -0.17, -0.09 | <0.001 |
| scale(outdegree) * SCC | 0.08 | 0.00, 0.17 | 0.050 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Stronger Outward Implications More Clearly Defined
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(strengthIn) | 0.06 | 0.00, 0.12 | 0.069 |
| scale(strengthOut) | 0.12 | 0.06, 0.18 | <0.001 |
| numID | -0.01 | -0.02, 0.00 | 0.081 |
| scale(length) | -0.13 | -0.17, -0.08 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
More Outward Implications are More ‘Fundamental’
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(outdegree) | 0.25 | 0.19, 0.30 | <0.001 |
| scale(indegree) | 0.05 | -0.01, 0.10 | 0.094 |
| numID | -0.02 | -0.02, -0.01 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.03 | -0.01, 0.07 | 0.2 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Stronger Outward Implications/Inward Causes are More Fundamental
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(strengthIn) | 0.07 | 0.02, 0.13 | 0.012 |
| scale(strengthOut) | 0.27 | 0.22, 0.32 | <0.001 |
| numID | -0.02 | -0.03, -0.01 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.04 | 0.00, 0.08 | 0.051 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Asymmetries in Importance to Self and Others…
Memories with More Causes and Implications are Perceived as More Important to Self
… whereas memories only with More Implications are Perceived as More Important to Others
More Outward Implications are Perceived as Changing Person
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(outdegree) | 0.22 | 0.17, 0.27 | <0.001 |
| scale(indegree) | 0.04 | 0.00, 0.09 | 0.043 |
| numID | -0.02 | -0.03, -0.01 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.02 | -0.03, 0.06 | 0.5 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Stronger Outward Implications are Perceived as Changing Person
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(strengthOut) | 0.25 | 0.20, 0.30 | <0.001 |
| scale(strengthIn) | 0.05 | 0.00, 0.10 | 0.048 |
| numID | -0.02 | -0.03, -0.01 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.03 | -0.02, 0.07 | 0.2 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
More Outward Implications are More Broad
Supports a taxonomical/hierarchical structure?
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(outdegree) | 0.09 | 0.03, 0.15 | 0.006 |
| scale(indegree) | -0.03 | -0.09, 0.03 | 0.3 |
| numID | -0.01 | -0.02, 0.00 | 0.006 |
| scale(length) | 0.04 | 0.00, 0.09 | 0.050 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Stronger Outward Implications are More Broad
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(strengthOut) | 0.08 | 0.01, 0.14 | 0.017 |
| scale(strengthIn) | 0.01 | -0.04, 0.06 | 0.7 |
| numID | -0.01 | -0.02, 0.00 | 0.007 |
| scale(length) | 0.05 | 0.01, 0.10 | 0.018 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Outward Implications Predicts More Specific Neighbors
Further support of hierarchical structure?
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| outdegree | -0.03 | -0.05, -0.01 | 0.006 |
| indegree | -0.01 | -0.02, 0.01 | 0.6 |
| numID | -0.01 | -0.03, 0.00 | 0.028 |
| scale(length) | 0.01 | -0.03, 0.05 | 0.6 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
More Outward Implications are More Distinct
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(outdegree) | 0.09 | 0.03, 0.14 | 0.002 |
| scale(indegree) | 0.03 | -0.01, 0.08 | 0.12 |
| numID | -0.01 | -0.02, 0.00 | 0.049 |
| scale(length) | -0.01 | -0.06, 0.03 | 0.5 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Stronger Outward Implications are More Distinct
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(strengthOut) | 0.14 | 0.08, 0.19 | <0.001 |
| scale(strengthIn) | 0.01 | -0.04, 0.07 | 0.6 |
| numID | -0.01 | -0.02, 0.00 | 0.024 |
| scale(length) | -0.01 | -0.06, 0.03 | 0.5 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Similarities
Memories that share other memories in common (as implications or causes) are reflected upon similarly…
Relational Similarity Predicts Similarity in Positivity
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(Sim) | -0.03 | -0.06, -0.01 | 0.019 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Relational Similarity Predicts Similarity in Negativity
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(Sim) | -0.07 | -0.10, -0.03 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Relational Similarity Predicts Similarity in Changeability
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(Sim) | -0.04 | -0.06, -0.01 | 0.008 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Relational Similarity Predicts Similarity in Clarity
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(Sim) | -0.04 | -0.06, -0.01 | 0.008 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Relational Similarity Predicts Similarity in Certainty
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(Sim) | -0.03 | -0.06, -0.01 | 0.004 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Relational Similarity Predicts Similarity in Breadth
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(Sim) | -0.04 | -0.07, -0.02 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Individual Differences Main Effects
Self-Esteem
No Effect on Outdegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SE) | -0.07 | -0.15, 0.02 | 0.11 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.05 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.07 | 0.04, 0.10 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No Effect on Indegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SE) | -0.07 | -0.15, 0.02 | 0.14 |
| numID | 0.03 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.19 | -0.23, -0.15 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Small Effect of Self-Esteem on Strength
More self-esteem, less similarity among memories
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SE) | -0.11 | -0.18, -0.04 | 0.003 |
| numID | 0.03 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.09 | -0.13, -0.05 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Self-Concept Clarity
No Effect on Outdegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SCC) | 0.05 | -0.02, 0.13 | 0.2 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.05 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.07 | 0.04, 0.10 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No Effect on Indegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SCC) | 0.07 | -0.01, 0.15 | 0.067 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.18 | -0.22, -0.15 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No Effect on Strength
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SCC) | 0.06 | -0.01, 0.14 | 0.080 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.09 | -0.13, -0.05 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Depression
No Effect on Outdegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(CESD) | -0.01 | -0.09, 0.06 | 0.7 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.05 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.07 | 0.04, 0.10 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No Effect on Indegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(CESD) | -0.02 | -0.10, 0.06 | 0.6 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.19 | -0.23, -0.15 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No Effect on Strength
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(CESD) | -0.03 | -0.10, 0.04 | 0.4 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.09 | -0.13, -0.05 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Need for Cognition
No Effect on Outdegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(NFC) | 0.05 | -0.03, 0.12 | 0.2 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.05 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.07 | 0.04, 0.10 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
More need for cognition, more inward causes
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(NFC) | 0.07 | -0.01, 0.15 | 0.094 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.18 | -0.22, -0.15 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
More need for cognition, more similarity to other memories
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(NFC) | 0.08 | 0.00, 0.15 | 0.037 |
| numID | 0.03 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.09 | -0.13, -0.05 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No Effects of Self-Ambivalence
No effect on outdegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SAM) | 0.02 | -0.06, 0.09 | 0.7 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.05 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.07 | 0.04, 0.10 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No effect on indegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SAM) | 0.01 | -0.06, 0.09 | 0.8 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.18 | -0.22, -0.14 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No effect on strength
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SAM) | -0.01 | -0.08, 0.06 | 0.8 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.09 | -0.13, -0.05 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Small Effect of Sense of Self on Inward Causes
No effect on outdegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SOS) | -0.06 | -0.13, 0.02 | 0.2 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.05 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.07 | 0.04, 0.10 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Lower sense of self, more inward causes
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SOS) | -0.08 | -0.16, 0.00 | 0.039 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.19 | -0.23, -0.15 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Lower sense of self, more similarity to other memories
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(SOS) | -0.10 | -0.17, -0.02 | 0.010 |
| numID | 0.03 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.09 | -0.13, -0.05 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Small Effect of Psychopathy on Outward Implications
Lower psychopathy, more outward implications
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(DT_P) | -0.06 | -0.14, 0.02 | 0.13 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.05 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.07 | 0.04, 0.10 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No effect on indegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(DT_P) | -0.08 | -0.16, 0.00 | 0.061 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.19 | -0.23, -0.15 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No effect on strength
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(DT_P) | -0.06 | -0.14, 0.01 | 0.10 |
| numID | 0.03 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.09 | -0.13, -0.05 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Small Effects of Dialectical Self
No effect of outdegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(DS) | -0.07 | -0.14, 0.01 | 0.085 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.05 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.07 | 0.04, 0.10 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Lower dialectical self-views, more inward causes
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(DS) | -0.08 | -0.16, 0.00 | 0.048 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.05 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.19 | -0.23, -0.15 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
More dialectical self-views, less similarity to other memories
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(DS) | -0.09 | -0.16, -0.02 | 0.015 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.09 | -0.13, -0.05 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Small Effect of Interoceptive Awareness
No effect on outdegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(MAIA) | 0.02 | -0.06, 0.10 | 0.6 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.05 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | 0.07 | 0.04, 0.10 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No effect on indegree
| Characteristic | log(IRR)1 | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(MAIA) | 0.04 | -0.04, 0.13 | 0.3 |
| numID | 0.04 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.19 | -0.23, -0.15 | <0.001 |
| 1 IRR = Incidence Rate Ratio, CI = Confidence Interval | |||
No effect on Strength
| Characteristic | Beta | 95% CI1 | p-value |
|---|---|---|---|
| scale(MAIA) | 0.07 | -0.01, 0.15 | 0.086 |
| numID | 0.03 | 0.03, 0.04 | <0.001 |
| scale(length) | -0.09 | -0.13, -0.05 | <0.001 |
| 1 CI = Confidence Interval | |||
Individual Differences Correlations
Summary
Recap
Asymmetric stronger effects of implications relative to inward causes
Outward implications predicts how fundamental or important to change an experience was, how clearly defined/certain in memory one is, and how representative the experience is…
Inward causes predict positivity (across self-report and positivity of text used) but not negativity
Superordinance: More outward implications, more broad… Like foundation of a building, the most causal are the most broadward
Structurally similar memories share similar beliefs/attitudes towards them
Potential Criticisms
There’s a lot of inward and outward effects, even if inward is weaker. Is it really directed?
Are these causal relations meaningful, or do people just “click” the memories that mean a lot to them more often?
Any others?
Pending Questions for Study 2
How can we support this directed/causal representation of episodic memory?
How can we modify/augment episodic memories?
How can we support that more implications == more transformative?
How can we support that if memory did not exist, it’s consequences would not either (i.e., counterfactual reasoning)?
Next Steps
Tweaks/Rephrasings
Remove questions to reduce time (Which?)
For MTurk, fix episodic memories max at 15 rather than 30? Require 15 to keep constant?
Pivot towards episodic memories/experiences person chose to have (per L.A. Paul framing)?
Rephrase weighted network question to: How certain are you that if X did not occur, Y would not? Or how responsible?… Feels more concrete, in line with Gerstenberg et al. work on counterfactual reasoning/causal structure
New Questions
How surprising or unexpected the experience was?
Whether you knew what it was like to have this experience, prior to it having been experienced?
Whether you anticipated the consequences it would have, prior to having the experience?
To what extent were your preferences and values changed by this experience?
To what do your values/preferences after this experienc differ from your values and preferences before undergoing this experience?
Rank order the memories experiences that would be most disruptive to who you are if they did not exist:
The Simulation Heuristic
“Assessments of causality. To test whether event A caused event B, we may undo A in our mind, and observe whether B still occurs in the simulation. Simulation can also be used to test whether A markedly increased the propensity of B, perhaps even made B inevitable. We suggest that a test of causality by simulation is involved in examples such as”you know very well that they would have quarrelled even if she had not mentioned his mother.” - Kahneman & Tversky, 1981
Biased towards downhill/subtractive change, reducing surprising antecedents
Additive, Subtractive, and Substitution Counteractuals
A student fails a test…
Uphill/Additive: … If only I had purchased study materials.
Downhill/Subtractive: … If only I hadn’t gone out drinking with me mates the previous night.
Horizontal/Subsitution: … If only I had focused on the text instead of my lecture notes.
Counteractual Reasoning Task
Gerstenberg et al., 2022 on sustaining causation (blocks causing other blocks to be supported) ask to predict which blocks would fall if the black one were removed (selection), how many of the blocks would fall (prediction), and how responsible the black block is for the red blocks staying on the table (responsibility).
https://cicl-stanford.github.io/mental_jenga/interface/
Counterfactual Reasoning Task
Introduce noise to estimate responsibility judgment
What is noise for episodic memories though?
Counterfactual Reasoning Task
In the current work on our trait network work, we more or less implement the “Selection” condition.
Is there a way to implement “Prediction” and “Responsibility” conditions?
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Future Studies… if I had time :’(
Some of strongest evidence for mental simulation models of counterfactual reasoning come from eye-tracking
- People look at where B would have gone if it were not for A
Collect data, generate networks, implement perturbations to network, and measure the extent to which participants predict instability